Discussion What is stopping you from CTB today?

[divinemistress36]

To depressed to plan

 

[kilowatt]

Don't feel like it today, maybe another time

 

[Johnzaga23]

Im going to a therapist this afternoon. Then, we'll see.

 

[CravingPeace]

Im going to a therapist this afternoon. Then, we'll see.

Awesome! Let us know how it goes. I have my EMDR therapy this afternoon as well.

 

[ventingfrustrations]

Besides lack of supplies, what is stopping you from CTB today? What is keeping you around for another day right now?

For me, it is my dog. He has been here for me through repulsive times and yet he still loves me. I'm afraid of breaking his heart. Still, I find more comfort daily in knowing that I can always leave him with my closest friend if things get too hard for me. I just fear the idea of him wanting me to return when I wouldn't be.

I also don't want to leave my closest friend with thinking he could've done more to save me. He has already done so much to make me feel loved and I don't want him to feel that these things were fruitless. However, if the suffering gets too much, I will have to explain in detail that it's not his fault.

My mom is the only reason i haven't jumped

My mom is the only reason i haven't jumped

I'm literally in so much physical pain every day

 

[Yume Nikki]

Just hope that I will find love again or a friend group that'll accept me for who I am

 

[Hotsackage]

Physics, and family

 

[Yume Nikki]

The smallest hope that my ex will come back and not wanting to destroy my mother. Maybe a couple of months will be enough for that hope to die and for my mom to understand a little bit my reasons to ctb.

This is too real. Moving on from someone you once loved is a huge pain to deal with. I'm in recovery after an attempt, and I'm still trying to figure out what my purpose is after my ex left me.

 

[jonathanjoestar]

Besides lack of supplies, what is stopping you from CTB today? What is keeping you around for another day right now?

For me, it is my dog. He has been here for me through repulsive times and yet he still loves me. I'm afraid of breaking his heart. Still, I find more comfort daily in knowing that I can always leave him with my closest friend if things get too hard for me. I just fear the idea of him wanting me to return when I wouldn't be.

I also don't want to leave my closest friend with thinking he could've done more to save me. He has already done so much to make me feel loved and I don't want him to feel that these things were fruitless. However, if the suffering gets too much, I will have to explain in detail that it's not his fault.

My student loans, where my brother is the guarantor. I dont want to burden people even after i died. But living itself feels like a burden to others. Im stuck in between.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Currently I'm hardly suicidal and there's hope that it get better.

 

[Boots2Scoots]

the small slice of hope that my life isn't going to go sideways even more than it already has. And monster hunter wilds.

 

[darknesswithin1]

Waiting for the apricots kernels to arrive, so only waiting for delivery

 

[iamrealandyouarenot]

Egg drop soup

 

[_AllCatsAreGrey_]

I'm not actively suicidal. When I am, the thing that keeps me here is my long term partner. We've been together for over a decade. In that time his mom died, leaving him with no family. I don't want to leave him stranded in the world.

 

[sximii]

Lack of supplies and my cats. I love my cats to a degree words can't describe

 

[lemonlotl]

My cat. Nobody would take care of her and she doesn't deserve that.

 

[FinalDestiny]

Besides lack of supplies, what is stopping you from CTB today? What is keeping you around for another day right now?

For me, it is my dog. He has been here for me through repulsive times and yet he still loves me. I'm afraid of breaking his heart. Still, I find more comfort daily in knowing that I can always leave him with my closest friend if things get too hard for me. I just fear the idea of him wanting me to return when I wouldn't be.

I also don't want to leave my closest friend with thinking he could've done more to save me. He has already done so much to make me feel loved and I don't want him to feel that these things were fruitless. However, if the suffering gets too much, I will have to explain in detail that it's not his fault.

My reason is a bit pathetic. I'm just too scared.

 

[banger12]

Finances and fear of my own Cowardice. Fear of getting caught too (once summer rolls around and family starts camping that won't be as much of an issue)

 

[Xta4Love]

For me it is my sister and mum. They would be in so much pain. I will just pass my suffering unto them. I have to try. For their sake.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Fear of failure and remaining alive with more brain damage

 

[Kanoh]

Strong SI and just fear of dying and I don't want to bring suffering on my mother. If she passes away I will surely go through with it right after.

 

[Forveleth]

Don't have enough alone time today. Also, I am just too damn tired to do it.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

estate logistics. not wanting to be my SO's first Big Death. i've told them this and they said they'd understand if I did though. I have intrusive thoughts of us going out together.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

Today, not having the pills. I made up my mind yesterday, there's no chance of getting back with my ex so I'll end my life by the end of the month/beginning of the next one. Sadly I haven't been able to find an adequate sedative and I seriously miscalculated the amount of amitriptyline needed. Based on advice from this forum I'm considering now a chlorquine overdose instead of the ami, already got antiemetic (meto, hooray!) and will try to get the chlorquine on Monday.

 

[LifeIsASadist]

Living with parents

 

[NoHalfMeasures]

Part of me feels like it's not my time to die yet. I also don't want to put my boyfriend and family through pain. I care about them so much.

 

[AviG]

My shrink. She's brought me closer to my true self than any other attachment figure. But the more authentic I feel, the more I crave CTB.

 

[zentiiicharcoal]

Besides lack of supplies, what is stopping you from CTB today? What is keeping you around for another day right now?

For me, it is my dog. He has been here for me through repulsive times and yet he still loves me. I'm afraid of breaking his heart. Still, I find more comfort daily in knowing that I can always leave him with my closest friend if things get too hard for me. I just fear the idea of him wanting me to return when I wouldn't be.

I also don't want to leave my closest friend with thinking he could've done more to save me. He has already done so much to make me feel loved and I don't want him to feel that these things were fruitless. However, if the suffering gets too much, I will have to explain in detail that it's not his fault.

Uncertainty that a method will work, but im on borrowed time. So that part sucks. I. Would say my cat, but im gonna be unable to be here with him anyway. My note says something in regards to hoping he is allowed to see my body when i die. Had him for 18 years, he is extremely attached to me in ways more similar to the loyalty of a dog. Separation anxiety, need to be near me, trusting and compassionate. I plan monoxide method, would take him with me but i feel that is so cruel. Though im sure he would likely die soon after me. I just try to cherish the time i have with him.

 

[PI3.14]

Not suicidal enough but also don't have the best method at hand

 

[BlooBerryBanjo3000]

Besides lack of supplies, what is stopping you from CTB today? What is keeping you around for another day right now?

For me, it is my dog. He has been here for me through repulsive times and yet he still loves me. I'm afraid of breaking his heart. Still, I find more comfort daily in knowing that I can always leave him with my closest friend if things get too hard for me. I just fear the idea of him wanting me to return when I wouldn't be.

I also don't want to leave my closest friend with thinking he could've done more to save me. He has already done so much to make me feel loved and I don't want him to feel that these things were fruitless. However, if the suffering gets too much, I will have to explain in detail that it's not his fault.

My younger sister's birthday is coming up this week. It's one of the main things stopping me from doing anything for now.