Venting What is Something That Would Make You Reconsider Suicide for a Short Moment?

[moonsafari]

If there was something, anything that would make you reconsider committing suicide for a short moment, what would it be?

For me, I saw all my friends playing Animal Crossing about a month ago before it got very popular among COVID-19 quarantiners. I've always LOVED life simulator games and I felt so left out when I realized you had to have a Nintendo Switch to play the game. It made me feel sick to the stomach every time I saw someone else post excitedly about getting their brand new Switch and Animal Crossing(hence all the sold-out Nintendo Switch units during quarantine!) because I'm broke right now. The Switch costs $400. Out of despair, I searched up "How tf do teenagers afford such expensive gadgets?" and read a teen's answer: he was a freelance programmer and earned hundreds on the side apart from high school. Therefore he was able to afford expensive Apple products.

That made me feel horrible. My plan was to become a programmer too! That was my plan for life, but all scrapped now due to my CTB plans. For the entire day, I thought, "Why I can't just be alive, just to play this stupid Animal Crossing game - to live and work to save up for much more luxurious things in life?"

My chronic suicidal thoughts just returned the next day as I banned all "Animal Crossing" related content from my feed in order to avoid that sickly feeling of missing out.

 

[Blutsager]

I am sorry to hear this, friend.

Perhaps, and I hope this helps you, your desire for a Nintendo Switch could be the driving force to keep you pushing on. To see an end of this dark night, and when the sun rises again, to work as hard as you can to afford a Switch, and get to play Animal Crossing once and for all.

Otherwise, you know we support you in this community in your decision to either continue living or to end it. We all love you. Best of luck.

As for me, well, I don't have a date set for my ctb, I only have SN inside a drawer at my home in case I feel things get so desperate I gotta take it.
What would make me stop thinking about this? well, I mean the answer to your question above should be obvious: A vaccine.
other than that, I don't know what to say.

 

[Darkmoon Queen]

Hey, man. I also banned all Animal Crossing content from my feed.. but it was because I was sick of seeing it.

I'm sorry, just thought I'd try to make you smirk. >.> It is actually true though. >.>

To answer your question.. things that would make me reconsider suicide would be if, magically, people were decent to me and made me feel like they actually wanted me around. Barring that, a lottery win so that I could travel and buy outrageously expensive things just to piss folks off for a brief second on social media. >.>

 

[moonsafari]

Hey, man. I also banned all Animal Crossing content from my feed.. but it was because I was sick of seeing it.

I'm sorry, just thought I'd try to make you smirk. >.> It is actually true though. >.>

To answer your question.. things that would make me reconsider suicide would be if, magically, people were decent to me and made me feel like they actually wanted me around. Barring that, a lottery win so that I could travel and buy outrageously expensive things just to piss folks off for a brief second on social media. >.>

That's so funny! Glad to hear that someone else is doing that too.

I am sorry to hear this, friend.

Perhaps, and I hope this helps you, your desire for a Nintendo Switch could be the driving force to keep you pushing on. To see an end of this dark night, and when the sun rises again, to work as hard as you can to afford a Switch, and get to play Animal Crossing once and for all.

Otherwise, you know we support you in this community in your decision to either continue living or to end it. We all love you. Best of luck.

As for me, well, I don't have a date set for my ctb, I only have SN inside a drawer at my home in case I feel things get so desperate I gotta take it.
What would make me stop thinking about this? well, I mean the answer to your question above should be obvious: A vaccine.
other than that, I don't know what to say.

The reason I didn't plan on purchasing a switch until my CTB month is I had already purchased my second tenor saxophone(used) for ~$600. It was sort of on my bucket list, because music was one of the last things I was going to enjoy before passing. That left me broke(I'm still under the care of my parents). The next round of money I'm going to get is $250 for my birthday, so instead of saving that for a Nintendo Switch I'd rather spend some of it on SN materials and some small, enjoyable things before CTBing.

I don't want to leave a large collection of extremely expensive items when I go. It's not worth it and someone would have to sell all of that for me for less than what was originally paid for it.

 

[Conker]

Only a genuine divine miracle could change my mind, I don't buy into false hopes any longer.

 

[Final Escape]

If I got to see that sexy guy again I was seeing, yea that would help lol! He was amazing

 

[Underwhelming]

If you have a PC, you can emulate a switch with the Ryujinx Emulator.

 

[disabledandhopeless]

I want a nintendo switch too but I'm saving my money for N :( try getting the nintendo switch lite it costs lesser

 

[Donk]

if i didnt have to go back to work again. im scare stress from work will push me over the edge.

 

[braketimez]

If I found a solution to my daily lethargy.

 

[angel_like_demon]

Playing video games, mostly Stardew Valley and Minecraft. Also when I explore the world, sometimes I wonder if I should stay, since it's so beautiful... but it doesn't last long.

 

[moonsafari]

If I found a solution to my daily lethargy.

Do you just feel tired day to day, as in not having energy to do anything? I'm feeling that too.

I want a nintendo switch too but I'm saving my money for N :( try getting the nintendo switch lite it costs lesser

Yeah, I had actually looked into getting the Lite at once point. WIRED has a good article on the comparisons:

Should You Buy the Nintendo Switch Lite?

There's a Switch for everyone now, let's find out which one is right for you

www.wired.com

If you have a PC, you can emulate a switch with the Ryujinx Emulator.

Oh that's so cool! Checking it out right now.

 

[Notabadguy]

Going back one year, to take a complete different decision, since the one I took was bad for me and for my loved beings

 

[whereispeace]

It would take some kind of miracle, I think. I'm pretty far gone.

 

[braketimez]

Do you just feel tired day to day, as in not having energy to do anything? I'm feeling that too.

Yes, it's every day for the most part. I have to lay down every few hours to operate optimally. It sucks, haha.

 

[Notabadguy]

Yes, it's every day for the most part. I have to lay down every few hours to operate optimally. It sucks, haha.

It's called depression. It sucks.

 

[braketimez]

It's called depression. It sucks.

Kind of. For me, it's more so just a physical fatigue, rather than the emotional/mental shit that comes with depression.

 

[ohhgeeitsme]

Kind of. For me, it's more so just a physical fatigue, rather than the emotional/mental shit that comes with depression.

Depression can manifest as physical fatigue, which is why some people don't even realize they have it. Of course, that doesn't mean you do, but something to maybe consider.
Money would solve a lot of my problems. So, a lot of money. It isn't the only reason though, so I would most likely succumb to suicide anyway but at least it would delay it because of the reduced stress maybe even by many years.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Mine is tentative. Only thing that would get me to reconsider is if everything works out between me and the one person I live for....

 

[Starseedchip]

If the person I was in falling for spoke to me again, that would buy me some time

 

[moonsafari]

If the person I was in falling for spoke to me again, that would buy me some time

So you're considering ctb because of a relationship issue or no?

 

[braketimez]

Depression can manifest as physical fatigue, which is why some people don't even realize they have it. Of course, that doesn't mean you do, but something to maybe consider.
Money would solve a lot of my problems. So, a lot of money. It isn't the only reason though, so I would most likely succumb to suicide anyway but at least it would delay it because of the reduced stress maybe even by many years.

I do have clinical depression. I just never connected pure physical fatigue to it...but you're right, it's all connected in the end.

 

[Emily123]

Looking in the mirror

 

[gnomeboy17]

The main thing for me is seeing someone being happy and successful but knowing that will probably never be my life so I might as well ctb rn

 

[Starseedchip]

So you're considering ctb because of a relationship issue or no?

its one of the many reasons

 

[WhathaveIdone]

Maybe winning the lottery even then I'd only ctb in style

 

[moonsafari]

The main thing for me is seeing someone being happy and successful but knowing that will probably never be my life so I might as well ctb rn

Honestly, I think that comparing myself with others is a huge, huge problem. It's probably why I'm not self-confident or have much self-esteem. I can't get better until I learn to stop wasting my own time by comparing myself with others.

 

[faust]

Never had any Nintendo/Xbox/PS/gaming PC in my whole life so if I wanted to play the game, I had to watch walkthrough :/
I don't think I could actually reconsider CTB because my schizoaffective is not curable.
I may have a lot of money, I can be the greatest writer ever, travel around the world as much as I can, but I will never run away from myself.
This will haunt me all the time.

 

[moonsafari]

Never had any Nintendo/Xbox/PS/gaming PC in my whole life so if I wanted to play the game, I had to watch walkthrough :/
I don't think I could actually reconsider CTB because my schizoaffective is not curable.
I may have a lot of money, I can be the greatest writer ever, travel around the world as much as I can, but I will never run away from myself.
This will haunt me all the time.

I see what you mean. I think there is a possible chance for reconsideration but it's not very clear for some people. I wanted all 358 Copic markers, and I bought that. I wanted a gaming pc, and my parents bought that for me. Same with my tenor saxophone and all the expenses to marching band for all my fours years of high school. And now I want the Nintendo Switch because it hurts to be left out. We all could have infinite money, but that's not gonna make up for the huge hole in my heart, or any of our mental struggles.

 

[faust]

I see what you mean. I think there is a possible chance for reconsideration but it's not very clear for some people. I wanted all 358 Copic markers, and I bought that. I wanted a gaming pc, and my parents bought that for me. Same with my tenor saxophone and all the expenses to marching band for all my fours years of high school. And now I want the Nintendo Switch because it hurts to be left out. We all could have infinite money, but that's not gonna make up for the huge hole in my heart, or any of our mental struggles.

Oh, you play musical instruments too! I used to play the guitar very long time, but I am somehow not interested in this anymore...