Story What is even going on

[Ultsern]

I'm not sad anymore, not happy either. Just there. Today I slept 15 hours and still woke up tired. I have no anxiety anymore, no fear no anger no sadness no happiness and no excitement. And I think I love it, it feels comfortable. For the first time in my life I feel quite normal, yeah I'm tired and emotionless but it's better than being tired and miserable. I have no idea what changed . I didn't take any drugs or change my life style. I still eat healthy and move. But for some odd reason I don't feel stressed out anymore. I just feel like I wanna watch anime, sleep, go to school and sleep again. Whenever I go out I feel like my subconscious is guiding me through. as if I'm having complex seizures. Sometimes I lose track of time and 10 hours go by like a breeze. I don't feel deep despise for the humans I meet anymore. I just feel.... Like a robot or something. It feels like my brain got so traumatized that it stopped creating memories for my life. I can't differentiate between my dreams and reality. My dreams last for ages. The weird thing is I never seen something so traumatic that would make my brain stop. My life is normal. I'm not. I don't know how to feel about this.

I'm not sad anymore, not happy either. Just there. Today I slept 15 hours and still woke up tired. I have no anxiety anymore, no fear no anger no sadness no happiness and no excitement. And I think I love it, it feels comfortable. For the first time in my life I feel quite normal, yeah I'm tired and emotionless but it's better than being tired and miserable. I have no idea what changed . I didn't take any drugs or change my life style. I still eat healthy and move. But for some odd reason I don't feel stressed out anymore. I just feel like I wanna watch anime, sleep, go to school and sleep again. Whenever I go out I feel like my subconscious is guiding me through. as if I'm having complex seizures. Sometimes I lose track of time and 10 hours go by like a breeze. I don't feel deep despise for the humans I meet anymore. I just feel.... Like a robot or something. It feels like my brain got so traumatized that it stopped creating memories for my life. I can't differentiate between my dreams and reality. My dreams last for ages. The weird thing is I never seen something so traumatic that would make my brain stop. My life is normal. I'm not. I don't know how to feel about this.

what's that. Why do I have a new member flair. I joined like 10 months ago and been active since. It's even my same username. Have I been dreaming or something?

 

[AshClouds]

I'm not sad anymore, not happy either. Just there. Today I slept 15 hours and still woke up tired. I have no anxiety anymore, no fear no anger no sadness no happiness and no excitement. And I think I love it, it feels comfortable. For the first time in my life I feel quite normal, yeah I'm tired and emotionless but it's better than being tired and miserable

I get those too at times. Enjoy it while it lasts, it usually abruptly ends and I feel depressed again.

 

[Ultsern]

I get those too at times. Enjoy it while it lasts, it usually abruptly ends and I feel depressed again.

I see, Reminds me of those moments in the afternoon realising how messed up I was when I woke up thinking life was a dream.