What I love about death

[LenkaX]

There is a nice fact about death. Of course, it is obvious, but when you really think about it...

The fact is, that after you're dead, it will be like this particular shitty life didn't exist at all. Maybe some people will remember you, but for you, it will be like nothing even happened. I love this easy and straight fact about death and when I'm meditating about it, it already alleviates my suffering.

I'm so looking forward to my CTB, it will be soon.

 

[FuneralCry]

This thought comforts me so much. Death makes all life meaningless. At least no matter what happens it will come someday. Non existence is an ideal state for me. I hate the fact that we have to exist in the first place and suffer for the sake of it but at least it is temporary. I think we return to the same nothingness we were at before we were born.

 

[SuicidalAgain]

This non existance is what has been comforting me since I was little, however...

Every now and then I think about people's religious beliefs of God and reincarnation (been surrounded my whole life by these)... I've thought time and time again of how none of it makes sense, but sometimes I get that fear "what if they're right?". I don't want to return, I just want to stop.

Most people are against ctb so it's no wonder they make up all these scenarios to sow fear and guilt in people who are wanting to set themselves free of this hell.

Fear and guilt should NOT be used as ctb prevention. Instead people should be there for the people in need, and they rarely ever are. What is the point in living until you die of natural causes / an accident if all of it has been miserable, a real struggle and not worth it at all?

 

[LenkaX]

Every now and then I think about people's religious beliefs of God and reincarnation (been surrounded my whole life by these)... I've thought time and time again of how none of it makes sense, but sometimes I get that fear "what if they're right?". I don't want to return, I just want to stop.

Even if reincarnation is true, we will not know it and in the possible next life, we will not remember anything from this failed life. There will be different situations and different chances.

 

[SuicidalAgain]

Even if reincarnation is true, we will not know it and in the possible next life, we will not remember anything from this failed life. There will be different situations and different chances.

Good point, we really don't know and it shouldn't matter.

What scares me about reincarnation is that my mother and the spiritual people I've met say that we "chose this lesson before birth" lol and that escaping this challenge through ctb makes us repeat the lesson in a worse setting. Doesn't make sense because that would just make us fail eternally at life, because if we failed in this setting, how would we succeed in a harder one?... And even if we did choose this experience, and even if we have a "purpose to fulfill", "a mission on this Earth", who's to say that ending it ourselves wasn't the way it was supposed to be?
There's also the supposed "benevolent god" who supposedly put us here for this experience and made these supposed reincarnation rules... Doesn't sound so benevolent to give a harder test to someone who just failed it.

The more I write about this, the less sense it makes and the less power it has on me

 

[Dear Agony]

Yep this makes me so relieved. If you think about it, there's no reason to worry about family and friends because... Nothing will exist. You'll never know what happened to them because you don't exist anymore. You won't ever see their reaction. That's crazy to think about. Of course it doesn't stop me to want to leave a suicide note, doesn't stop me from delaying my death because I'm afraid my mom will suffer. Just saying, if you think about it, nothing will exist for you after death.

 

[Outsider]

Yes it is comforting me as well but lately I've been thinking that before I was born I was in this 'safe' non existent state yet here I am living and suffering.