genericuser
Student
- Feb 9, 2022
- 140
Awesome!!!!I want to have a deeper understanding of certain things and learn to be able to express those thoughts. Ideally it would be in ways that help others but if not just for myself. Pretty vague but I have a private rough draft in my mind. I struggle with focus and self expression so it's a challenging course for me.
I also always wanted to be a wife and now I am one. I feel very fulfilled in family life.
I care about you deeply, as you are a great friend to me, and you belong here on Sanctioned Suicide with so many other awesome folks. I can never even think about daily life without all the awesome souls here AND that really includes you, my friend.So many things but mostly I just simply want to be wanted. And things to work out for me once. Always had to face rejection, always no no no. Never got what I truly wanted no matter how hard I tried and put work into it.
I understand, can never have what I want either, so I choose to not exist as well.The only thing I want is to die. I simply do not want to exist. There is nothing that I want from this life. I wish I never had to live in the first place. Nothing would ever make me want to live. I want to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep.