What does “god” mean to you? ⛪️ 🙏

[DarkRange55]

I've talked about this concept on here before but curious what anyone else thinks
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[noname223]

I've talked about this concept on here before but curious what anyone else thinks
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My opinion on God changed. I was raised somewhat religious. When I had my first major depression with suicidality I dreamed of hell, I felt guiltly and I felt horrible about God. So I became a convinced atheist. I had a pretty cool, young religion teacher. He said to me your suffering might change your religious beliefs? And smiled. He knew it made me an hardcore atheist.

When I read a little bit about quantum physics. And I don't know much about it. I am like this person with pychosis who fantasizes to understand the meaning behind it while having an actually pretty distorted notion of it. There are not a few people with psychosis who take quantum physics as evidence for their delusions. So quantum physics made me pretty anxious. I listened to some interviews with Anton Zeilinger who is a strong beliefer and catholic. And I tend to be more ambivalent now. I am more a mix between atheist and agnostic.


Actually, I would call myself a pragmatic atheist. I just coined that term for me I don't know the actual meaning. You know if you had psychosis you have a lot of cognitive biases. And one of them can be superstitious thinking. So I adapt my beliefs of higher beings depending on which impact it has on my mental health. I tend to fear bad karma. But doing the right thing isn't always objective. I try to be strategical with my decisions. And if there is an actual God he should not be too judgemental about a poor individual only worrying about his mental health. Solely this sentence shows how skewed my thinking is.

Most of the time I don't believe in God. And I hope there is no God. And I hope there is nothing after life. And these beliefs give me hope and help me mentally. But I am not fully certain on it anymore.

 

[dayhell]

nothing

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

I believe that God is the network of energy and consciousness that permeates everywhere.