megafire
burn it down
- Oct 12, 2020
- 89
Life knocks me down flat on my face, so I take it as the way things are meant to be, but then I am reinvigorated with a sense of "but life COULD be worth living, if I can only figure that out."
What would make life worth living for me would be fulfillment. Having a circle of friends who can relate to me and we all support each other; a career where I am good at what I do, my input matters and I look forward to a day's work; a balanced relationship with someone who pushes me to be my best, and comforts me when I'm at my lowest (and vici versa); having a hobby which I can feel good about.
I feel like it's not achievable, especially when I have some annoying personality shit that makes me hate everyone and think everyone hates me, and the few people I do like I just... don't talk to, and I change my goals constantly, until I throw my hands in the air and say "fuck it" and give up again, until I think, "maybe I was just going about this wrong..." Currently the new kick is to become a forensic pathologist, because causes of death really fascinate me, though this might fall through because I am grossed out easily and my brain does not compute science. But I could try, and I could make it, if I really, really wanted to, and didn't give up. As for hobbies, I like working out, and cooking, as well as reading and creating things.
What is a life worth living for you?
What would make life worth living for me would be fulfillment. Having a circle of friends who can relate to me and we all support each other; a career where I am good at what I do, my input matters and I look forward to a day's work; a balanced relationship with someone who pushes me to be my best, and comforts me when I'm at my lowest (and vici versa); having a hobby which I can feel good about.
I feel like it's not achievable, especially when I have some annoying personality shit that makes me hate everyone and think everyone hates me, and the few people I do like I just... don't talk to, and I change my goals constantly, until I throw my hands in the air and say "fuck it" and give up again, until I think, "maybe I was just going about this wrong..." Currently the new kick is to become a forensic pathologist, because causes of death really fascinate me, though this might fall through because I am grossed out easily and my brain does not compute science. But I could try, and I could make it, if I really, really wanted to, and didn't give up. As for hobbies, I like working out, and cooking, as well as reading and creating things.
What is a life worth living for you?