what do you want?

[Guy Smiley]

I want to stay young (not age past 25), and be a NEET forever. I don't want to have to eventually work for a living and be independent. I just want to be taken care of for the rest of my life. I don't want to have to support myself. I want to get everything without having to work. I want to put in no effort, yet get the reward. My dream life would be a trust fund kid, nepo baby, or a rich heiress. I'd also love to be some rich arab prince. I want infinite money and wealth. I wish I were born into wealth. My family is upper middle class but I wish we were billionaires so I wouldn't have to work eventually. I guess I just want an easy life where I don't have to work for or do anything. I've always wanted to be a cat because they have carefree lives

Did you happen to see my DMs?

 

[tekroy006]

Rock music really helps to get anger/frustration and emotions out a lot of times.

It really used to help me a lot in the past, the only thing that made me happy per se, but now it doesn't help that much anymore, just another thing in my endless "reasons to suicide" list.

 

[4am]

a loaded shotgun would be nice. also, hi sister <3

 

[Aloneandinpain]

Love and health.

In fact would just settle for love really.

 

[tomthemouse1]

I want many things but i feel like I don't deserve it or will have the ability to make sure it's safe.

I want a lot of money. I want a new phone, new PC, Get a car, get clothes, eat well, get a new bed mattress, get langauge courses, get a new TV, get a fitness coach, do full body checkup and do some body treatments.

Have a better GPA in my university, have real friends, have my family love me, cure my skin condition, do an eye surgery, be a better person in general, and probably still want many other things. But I know deep down I ain't gonna get a single one of them.

Cheers,
Joe

 

[carac]

I guess some kind of relationship would be nice

 

[312]

In the past I had many dreams, today I genuinely have no desire to live, so it would just be like dying.

 

[tbroken]

Some of the stuff i had, even if only for some years. A career, real friends, my own house(even a small apartment would be nice) and being able to study and play in peace.
But I'm growing older and i have to admit this cruel world hurt me so bad in the past, why should it act different now?

 

[AshersGirl]

Right now the only thing I want is to sleep. Fucking insomnia.

Once upon a time I did have more goals. These days it's mostly just death or sleep. Since death is currently not within grasp sleep is the only temporary respite.

 

[Raindancer]

First I would want my health and stamina back. If that miracle would happen I would then have an animal sanctuary, live on a farm where I could grow my own veggies and take care of traumatized animals.

 

[Abyssal]

Rest

 

[DyingToDie123]

To never have made a mistake in my life and never do so again.

 

[CharAznable54]

I want to live, but not as the person I am. I wish I could be reborn as someone better. Someone who isn't an annoying asshole, and is more reliable. But right now, I deserve to die. I don't deserve anything in life.

 

[lovedread]

I assume not all of us JUST wants to die. like we also want to live a happy life too. But what will make you happy? What do you want? Any dream or goal that you tried to achieve? What would your dream life look like? like I want to play guitar and just sing my favorite rock songs while playing it. That's why, no matter how sad life gets, I'm not dying before playing guitar and rocking. I don't think I can be a professional rockstar or singer something. But I'm fine with only playing guitar and being a bedroom artist too. Obviously my parents don't give a shit what I want to do in my life. That's why I'm trying my best to earn money on my own to buy a electric guitar. What do you want to want? It can be anything like someone to love, friends, or any passion—just your dream life.

I want to be seen as talented. I want my friend back. I want to be loved. I want to be financially stable and happy. I want love. I want to be educated and get through school and get a degree in anthropology or history so I can write and do studies. I want to be a writer. I want to be someone people care about.

 

[wanttodie]

to die and my life

 

[Ash]

I've said this elsewhere but I'd be able to live with and manage my mental health if I could buy an isolated farmhouse surrounded by its own land. I'd turn it into a nature reserve so the dog and I could walk each day in peace without being disturbed by off lead dogs or litter or unclaimed dog muck. I'd venture into the world when I wanted to see people (and be able to afford a dog sitter to help the dog with her separation anxiety) but have somewhere private and quiet to return to. If I could have that, I'd put up with my feelings of desolation and despair. But there's more chance of me dying peacefully in my sleep tonight than ever getting able to afford that so it's a lovely daydream that mostly just tortures me.

 

[Ambivalent1]

Sex with hawt women

 

[Denza]

Just want to make up with people ive been a bit of an ass to because of my outbursts. Also someone who can understand and comfort me through these depressive episodes

But that feels impossible, hence me being in this forum.

 

[Linda]

I want to ride a motorbike, I want to be a crack shot with a rifle, I want a home and a loving family. I want to help people as much as I can.

"I want" is the first step to achieving something. But to get beyond that you have to make some plans and then act on them. Why not choose one or more of the things you want that might be feasible, and then consider how you could go about achieving them? (Discard the things you want that are almost certainly not achievable. We all have fantasies that will have to remain as fantasies, and there's no harm in that, but there is also no point wasting time and energy on them.)

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Sex with hawt women

You mean with a smoking babe who looks like this?

 

[set0553]

If I could record just one Depressive Black Metal recording i'd feel like it'd all be complete and id be ready to die as soon as it released.. something like id listen to myself at 3am, really dark. Unfortunately I can only do vocals, and I do them well, but I don't play any instruments.. it'd have to be a one man band also, so it'd be everything the way I wanted it.. highly unlikely it'll ever happen, but I think about it, I've even got the songs down perfectly in my head.

 

[ImTelling]

Everything I want to do that will make me happy is fruitless. I've fucked up so much that even if I was successful in my ventures all of my fuck ups will come up and ruin any chance of actual success. There's no happiness for me in this life anymore.

People like me should be put down like rabid animals. Humanely, quickly, no torture at all. Just bang! and you're gone. Cremation, dispose of the ashes safely.

If I could record just one Depressive Black Metal recording i'd feel like it'd all be complete and id be ready to die as soon as it released.. something like id listen to myself at 3am, really dark. Unfortunately I can only do vocals, and I do them well, but I don't play any instruments.. it'd have to be a one man band also, so it'd be everything the way I wanted it.. highly unlikely it'll ever happen, but I think about it, I've even got the songs down perfectly in my head.

Dude, pirate FL Studio, learn how to use it and get some sick free guitar and drum synths for it. You can make something legit sick just by yourself. This isn't bleep bloop shit either, it'll sound as real and raw as it gets if you put your all into it.

 

[fleetingnight]

I wanted to write some music and make some other art before I die, but part of why I want to die is that I'm a shitty artist, so I'm not sure how likely that is lol

 

[ImTelling]

I wanted to write some music and make some other art before I die, but part of why I want to die is that I'm a shitty artist, so I'm not sure how likely that is lol

I'm in the same boat. I just "finished" an album and I'm giving my only IRL friend the USB of it. You don't have to put it up online but I think the people who do care about you, online or IRL, would deeply appreciate hearing your final contributions before you go. Even if you don't think your music or art is up to snuff you should at least share it before you CTB imo.

Also... if you wanna trade music and stuff please DM me I'd love to hear and see what you make. ;u;

 

[lizzywizzy09]

To die. Maybe wrap up the game I'm playing and catch the newest season of a show. Then to die, preferably in my sleep but we could thank the pro lifers for taking that choice from us.

 

[howlercoaster]

I assume not all of us JUST wants to die. like we also want to live a happy life too. But what will make you happy? What do you want? Any dream or goal that you tried to achieve? What would your dream life look like? like I want to play guitar and just sing my favorite rock songs while playing it. That's why, no matter how sad life gets, I'm not dying before playing guitar and rocking. I don't think I can be a professional rockstar or singer something. But I'm fine with only playing guitar and being a bedroom artist too. Obviously my parents don't give a shit what I want to do in my life. That's why I'm trying my best to earn money on my own to buy a electric guitar. What do you want to want? It can be anything like someone to love, friends, or any passion—just your dream life.

I would like to be a polymath, a knewer of various areas. I like art and reading and computing and science, and this concept is basically where all this collapse as a person. But i don't wanna live in the mind i have. With the emotionals i have.

 

[Criticalgeese]

Enough money to never be forced to work or interact with people ever again. Surrounded in comfort and luxury until the day I die a natural cause.

 

[fleetingnight]

I'm in the same boat. I just "finished" an album and I'm giving my only IRL friend the USB of it. You don't have to put it up online but I think the people who do care about you, online or IRL, would deeply appreciate hearing your final contributions before you go. Even if you don't think your music or art is up to snuff you should at least share it before you CTB imo.

Also... if you wanna trade music and stuff please DM me I'd love to hear and see what you make. ;u;

That's really cool you wrote something at all, though! And it's nice to give it to a friend, I agree that's a good idea

I'm also so grateful that you'd want to trade music, that really means a lot to me<3 I honestly don't even have anything to show for my work so far, still trying to learn the ropes, but once I do, I'll definitely DM you :)

 

[thealteredmind]

to fix my issues.
benzo withdrawal
pssd
insomnia
and depression

and then we will see, because the thing with depression is that once it lifts... I start to like and see things I never imagined I would be interested in... like photography

 

[UmbraDweller]

Pure nothing, not even the nothing. Be free of all obligations and experiences, a freedom which is not achieveable on earth. Eternal *poof* outta everything there is and ever will be. I don't desire any of the shallow things life has to offer, it's a meaningless trap to keep me busy and then die anyway.