Discussion What do you think it will “feel” like as you die?

[Volomori83]

I haven't set a date or anything, but I know the time for me to die draws near. With this realisation, a number of questions have started forming in my head. The biggest question, the one that I spend most of my time trying to reconcile with is "what will it feel like dying?". Now don't confuse this with "what does it feel like to be dead?" but rather the feeling during death. I'm not afraid of being dead because there's no point, but I am curious/worried about dying as a process.

Do you think about that? What do you think it will feel like to be actively dying? I don't understand why this concerns me so much, I've practiced the hell out of my method (partial hanging), so it's not a fear of the method.

I get that, for my method at least, I will be unconscious as I die but I still think about whether I'll "feel" my body die, that I'll feel my organs stop carrying out their functions, feel my lungs cease to take in air. That I'll be aware I'm dying, and because I've no idea what that process entails, I can't reconcile my mind with it. It is incredibly frustrating.

I can't be the only one on here that thinks about this, surely. Please share your thoughts on this. What do you think? It would be really handy if there was someone with medical training on here who could share their insight as well.

If nothing else it would be helpful to strike up a conversation of what you think dying might feel like up until the point you can feel no more.

 

[anuglymale]

like when you pass out when drunk

 

[itsallover]

I would be fearful to some degree but it sounds like you're the rarity that will be in complete peace.

 

[Redt2go]

I haven't set a date or anything, but I know the time for me to die draws near. With this realisation, a number of questions have started forming in my head. The biggest question, the one that I spend most of my time trying to reconcile with is "what will it feel like dying?". Now don't confuse this with "what does it feel like to be dead?" but rather the feeling during death. I'm not afraid of being dead because there's no point, but I am curious/worried about dying as a process.

Do you think about that? What do you think it will feel like to be actively dying? I don't understand why this concerns me so much, I've practiced the hell out of my method (partial hanging), so it's not a fear of the method.

I get that, for my method at least, I will be unconscious as I die but I still think about whether I'll "feel" my body die, that I'll feel my organs stop carrying out their functions, feel my lungs cease to take in air. That I'll be aware I'm dying, and because I've no idea what that process entails, I can't reconcile my mind with it. It is incredibly frustrating.

I can't be the only one on here that thinks about this, surely. Please share your thoughts on this. What do you think? It would be really handy if there was someone with medical training on here who could share their insight as well.

If nothing else it would be helpful to strike up a conversation of what you think dying might feel like up until the point you can feel no more.

I spend a lot of time thinking about what I'll feel as I ingest the poison. I plan to be knocked out when I pass too...

 

[Volatile]

Spacey feeling probably

 

[sólstafir]

Only description I've ever read about what it feels like to die is from The Tibetan Book of Living and Dieing, and I don't know if it's true or not, it describes how all your body and mind functions dissolve, quite scary and interesting. Chapter "The Process of Dieing" page 227. http://www.freespiritualebooks.com/uploads/5/0/5/8/50589505/the-tibetan-book-of-living-and-dying.pdf

 

[leaps]

Probably sleepy, blissful

 

[Jake.123]

Cold and numb id imagine

 

[leaps]

Cold and numb id imagine

Cold? That sounds awful.

 

[Jake.123]

Cold? That sounds awful.

Ur body would cool down and ur blood would turn cold i think

 

[usernameNotFound]

I think I will probably panic a bit. but when it gets really close I hope it will be a transcending experience. Like getting high for the first time or something like that.

I've heard some people just black out, others see a bright light and feel peaceful. I've heard that depending on what your beliefs are you might see a figure/symbol of divinity.

I think that because I want to die, it will be more of an accepting experience.

 

[Thursdaysucks]

Painful, as the eternal flames of hell become visible with every second passing as our bodies start to wither away into that lifeless burning pit which we will be our place of agony and pain for the rest of time. @leaps

 

[GeorgeEastman]

Won't feel.

That's why it'll be so great. Twice in my life I was knocked out for surgeries. Couldn't feel as they cut around on me. It was the best. I wish they would have killed me somehow, but they didn't. That was the best time to die. Would have never known a thing.

The two best experiences of my life were while I was out.

 

[leaps]

Painful, as the eternal flames of hell become visible with every second passing as our bodies start to wither away into that lifeless burning pit which we will be our place of agony and pain for the rest of time. @leaps

ffffuhc

 

[lizinha]

forgetting who i am or what life is or where am i etc.... kinda like a simulation and a ton of confusion. thats the closet i've been if it's accurate to say.

 

[Nitromask]

I'll be asleep, so nothing probably

 

[Kingkelly]

Hopefully no pain....just peace like passing out when drunk lol I hope I don't start seeing shit or freaking out

 

[Sickman75]

Painful, as the eternal flames of hell become visible with every second passing as our bodies start to wither away into that lifeless burning pit which we will be our place of agony and pain for the rest of time. @leaps

why do you think there is a hell? and why do you think you will end up in there?
shouldnt death be a bit more than that afterwards?

 

[Idorus]

Ur body would cool down and ur blood would turn cold i think

Happened to my mom.... some hours before she died icecold feet and we even made a hot water bottle with some extra blankets (cant´t remember if she asked herself). While my sis & I were downstairs having a deep distracting convo after that for some hours...... mom was passing. I didn´t like the way she was lying there with her finger in her mouth that was pretty wide open when we found her. As if she´d grasped for air in her last moments when the cold was crawling up from toe to top. Dying is ugly. Enough to say for taking your own life therefore.

My sis didn´t see the ugliness I saw. Hard to get that.

 

[Redt2go]

Happened to my mom.... some hours before she died icecold feet and we even made a hot water bottle with some extra blankets (cant´t remember if she asked herself). While my sis & I were downstairs having a deep distracting convo after that for some hours...... mom was passing. I didn´t like the way she was lying there with her finger in her mouth that was pretty wide open when we found her. As if she´d grasped for air in her last moments when the cold was crawling up from toe to top. Dying is ugly. Enough to say for taking your own life therefore.

My sis didn´t see the ugliness I saw. Hard to get that.

So sorry :( this is so sad

 

[Flutter]

I've had a near death experience when I was in the hospital with sepsis that fell through the cracks. It was terrifying. I felt freezing cold and exhausted, to the point where I couldn't lift my hand to press the call button for a nurse. It was difficult to breathe and I felt like something was very wrong, but I didn't know what it was. My breathing became more labored and my body would shudder, for lack of a better word, with every breath. My body hurt. It was like every cell in my body was screaming. That's when I had the realization I was dying and I became terrified. I couldn't talk, couldn't move, and I had no monitors on me because the doctors didn't know I became septic, so no help was coming. I was no longer cold. It now felt like I was burning up. I tried to will myself to stop breathing, figuring mind over matter would work. It didn't, my body's survival instinct was in full force. By this point, I couldn't move or focus my eyes and was praying for release.
Suddenly, I felt an overwhelming sense of peace. It lasted briefly before I lost my sight. Then I rocketed through what looked like a flesh colored pipe with cracks in it made of pure light. There were many sharp turns that I went through at an impossible speed, it seemed like I was going in multiple directions while staying on the same course? I don't really know how to articulate it. Suddenly, everything was bright light, then darkness. I woke up in the ICU connected to all sorts of tubes and monitors. I always thought the peace and tunnel were my brain giving up and releasing DMT in a last ditch effort. I was so angry I didn't die.

That's why I plan to ctb with N even though SN is cheaper and easier to get. There's no way I'm going through that experience again.

 

[itsallover]

forgetting who i am or what life is or where am i etc.... kinda like a simulation and a ton of confusion. thats the closet i've been if it's accurate to say.

I've had a near death experience when I was in the hospital with sepsis that fell through the cracks. It was terrifying. I felt freezing cold and exhausted, to the point where I couldn't lift my hand to press the call button for a nurse. It was difficult to breathe and I felt like something was very wrong, but I didn't know what it was. My breathing became more labored and my body would shudder, for lack of a better word, with every breath. My body hurt. It was like every cell in my body was screaming. That's when I had the realization I was dying and I became terrified. I couldn't talk, couldn't move, and I had no monitors on me because the doctors didn't know I became septic, so no help was coming. I was no longer cold. It now felt like I was burning up. I tried to will myself to stop breathing, figuring mind over matter would work. It didn't, my body's survival instinct was in full force. By this point, I couldn't move or focus my eyes and was praying for release.
Suddenly, I felt an overwhelming sense of peace. It lasted briefly before I lost my sight. Then I rocketed through what looked like a flesh colored pipe with cracks in it made of pure light. There were many sharp turns that I went through at an impossible speed, it seemed like I was going in multiple directions while staying on the same course? I don't really know how to articulate it. Suddenly, everything was bright light, then darkness. I woke up in the ICU connected to all sorts of tubes and monitors. I always thought the peace and tunnel were my brain giving up and releasing DMT in a last ditch effort. I was so angry I didn't die.

That's why I plan to ctb with N even though SN is cheaper and easier to get. There's no way I'm going through that experience again.

Do you think all the commotion after you passed out was a part the code red process or of a sprituality. I just passed out and saw a bright light in icu which was8a doctor light before I slowly woke up
I'm 32 still living at home and looking forward to surgery after three years of nothing else helping. I feel like the most pathetic piece of shit alive. How are you holding up?

 

[Idorus]

I've had a near death experience when I was in the hospital with sepsis that fell through the cracks. It was terrifying. I felt freezing cold and exhausted, to the point where I couldn't lift my hand to press the call button for a nurse. It was difficult to breathe and I felt like something was very wrong, but I didn't know what it was. My breathing became more labored and my body would shudder, for lack of a better word, with every breath. My body hurt. It was like every cell in my body was screaming. That's when I had the realization I was dying and I became terrified. I couldn't talk, couldn't move, and I had no monitors on me because the doctors didn't know I became septic, so no help was coming. I was no longer cold. It now felt like I was burning up. I tried to will myself to stop breathing, figuring mind over matter would work. It didn't, my body's survival instinct was in full force. By this point, I couldn't move or focus my eyes and was praying for release.
Suddenly, I felt an overwhelming sense of peace. It lasted briefly before I lost my sight. Then I rocketed through what looked like a flesh colored pipe with cracks in it made of pure light. There were many sharp turns that I went through at an impossible speed, it seemed like I was going in multiple directions while staying on the same course? I don't really know how to articulate it. Suddenly, everything was bright light, then darkness. I woke up in the ICU connected to all sorts of tubes and monitors. I always thought the peace and tunnel were my brain giving up and releasing DMT in a last ditch effort. I was so angry I didn't die.

That's why I plan to ctb with N even though SN is cheaper and easier to get. There's no way I'm going through that experience again.

I was reading this breathlessly. . . W o W - !

 

[Flutter]

Do you think all the commotion after you passed out was a part the code red process or of a sprituality. I just passed out and saw a bright light in icu which was8a doctor light before I slowly woke up
I'm 32 still living at home and looking forward to surgery after three years of nothing else helping. I feel like the most pathetic piece of shit alive. How are you holding up?

I don't think the tunnel was due to medical intervention. Maybe if it were just a bright light I'd say it's plausible. At first I thought it might have been God calling me and my soul leaving my physical body. I started to doubt that, because I didn't have a divine revelation. After more research, I think it was my brain releasing massive amounts of DMT and preparing to shut down.

We're pretty similar. I'm 29, living at home, need surgery for Crohn's but no longer have insurance, and also feel like the most pathetic piece of shit alive. Thanks for sharing. I don't feel as alone as I did before.
Right now I feel like a huge burden. A just emailed me back, so hopefully I can finalize my N order soon and get the ball rolling. I hope your surgery goes well and it brings you some relief.

 

[a.h]

I have

I haven't set a date or anything, but I know the time for me to die draws near. With this realisation, a number of questions have started forming in my head. The biggest question, the one that I spend most of my time trying to reconcile with is "what will it feel like dying?". Now don't confuse this with "what does it feel like to be dead?" but rather the feeling during death. I'm not afraid of being dead because there's no point, but I am curious/worried about dying as a process.

Do you think about that? What do you think it will feel like to be actively dying? I don't understand why this concerns me so much, I've practiced the hell out of my method (partial hanging), so it's not a fear of the method.

I get that, for my method at least, I will be unconscious as I die but I still think about whether I'll "feel" my body die, that I'll feel my organs stop carrying out their functions, feel my lungs cease to take in air. That I'll be aware I'm dying, and because I've no idea what that process entails, I can't reconcile my mind with it. It is incredibly frustrating.

I can't be the only one on here that thinks about this, surely. Please share your thoughts on this. What do you think? It would be really handy if there was someone with medical training on here who could share their insight as well.

If nothing else it would be helpful to strike up a conversation of what you think dying might feel like up until the point you can feel no more.

 

[woxihuanni]

I think it'll be terrifying for me. I don't want to die, and it will be an OD. It will be painful, my heart and stomach will hurt. I'm sure I will scream. I'm sure I will regret it.

I'm sure I will regret living even more.

 

[justanotherday]

I've had a near death experience when I was in the hospital with sepsis that fell through the cracks. It was terrifying. I felt freezing cold and exhausted, to the point where I couldn't lift my hand to press the call button for a nurse. It was difficult to breathe and I felt like something was very wrong, but I didn't know what it was. My breathing became more labored and my body would shudder, for lack of a better word, with every breath. My body hurt. It was like every cell in my body was screaming. That's when I had the realization I was dying and I became terrified. I couldn't talk, couldn't move, and I had no monitors on me because the doctors didn't know I became septic, so no help was coming. I was no longer cold. It now felt like I was burning up. I tried to will myself to stop breathing, figuring mind over matter would work. It didn't, my body's survival instinct was in full force. By this point, I couldn't move or focus my eyes and was praying for release.
Suddenly, I felt an overwhelming sense of peace. It lasted briefly before I lost my sight. Then I rocketed through what looked like a flesh colored pipe with cracks in it made of pure light. There were many sharp turns that I went through at an impossible speed, it seemed like I was going in multiple directions while staying on the same course? I don't really know how to articulate it. Suddenly, everything was bright light, then darkness. I woke up in the ICU connected to all sorts of tubes and monitors. I always thought the peace and tunnel were my brain giving up and releasing DMT in a last ditch effort. I was so angry I didn't die.

That's why I plan to ctb with N even though SN is cheaper and easier to get. There's no way I'm going through that experience again.

wow, that is terrifying!

 

[Stan]

To be honest I am more terrified of the the actual date I have set for myself

 

[Pezballs]

I haven't set a date or anything, but I know the time for me to die draws near. With this realisation, a number of questions have started forming in my head. The biggest question, the one that I spend most of my time trying to reconcile with is "what will it feel like dying?". Now don't confuse this with "what does it feel like to be dead?" but rather the feeling during death. I'm not afraid of being dead because there's no point, but I am curious/worried about dying as a process.

Do you think about that? What do you think it will feel like to be actively dying? I don't understand why this concerns me so much, I've practiced the hell out of my method (partial hanging), so it's not a fear of the method.

I get that, for my method at least, I will be unconscious as I die but I still think about whether I'll "feel" my body die, that I'll feel my organs stop carrying out their functions, feel my lungs cease to take in air. That I'll be aware I'm dying, and because I've no idea what that process entails, I can't reconcile my mind with it. It is incredibly frustrating.

I can't be the only one on here that thinks about this, surely. Please share your thoughts on this. What do you think? It would be really handy if there was someone with medical training on here who could share their insight as well.

If nothing else it would be helpful to strike up a conversation of what you think dying might feel like up until the point you can feel no more.

I feel like it might be an adrenaline rush followed by sense of peace and gratitude. I have vowed to take a step closer everyday till I am lucky enough to have everything I need to go ahead. I loved reading this thank you

I feel like it might be an adrenaline rush followed by sense of peace and gratitude. I have vowed to take a step closer everyday till I am lucky enough to have everything I need to go ahead. I loved reading this thank you

It's impossible to say but I think maybe a sense of suffocation? I'm interested to hear everyone's thoughts

 

[Laststop]

I would think it goes without saying it depends on the method, and how well you do it? I wonder, like everyone else, this same thing. I've never been under for anything, like surgery. The closest I've ever come to going under was falling from a rope swing, flat on my back, and nearly passing out. I had that thing where my sight went narrow, and the world just sort of went bye-bye...almost. An older kid was there and tended to me. Got me up, slapped the face, told me not to pass out and breath. This was almost my whole life back. I was very young, but I still remember the feeling. I thought, "am I about to pass out? Is this what it's like?" I know in the movies people say they know they're about to die. I wonder if there's a feeling that you just know? And is that the same thing as how it feels to die?