Help What do you think about it? Possible Suicide question..

[someuserhere]

I've been thinking about Ctb. Yesterday I bought paracetamol, and I was thinking about combining it with alcohol, so the enzymes would "breakdown".
But I really don't know if I wanna be dead, like chosen to be dead.
I don't know if I really want to be dead. I feel such a loathing for myself that I don't want to be that character (no, I can't change that, I'd damn well like to). Anyway, whenever I think about it, I just think about the attempt and how afterwards, I will wake up in a hospital and my parents will be more understanding and I will be helped. I am already aware that paracetamol is not one of the most effective suicide method. But maybe I choose it exactly because it gives the possibility to "save" myself. I don't know what I want, I need someone to tell me to do it and thats a good thing to do, idk. Tell me what u think about it..

 

[Elle]

I tried a paracetamol overdose, it's unlikely to kill you just will give you liver damage.

 

[lonelywander]

Hello. It sounds like you're in a lot of pain, but don't really want to die. If you try and don't succeed, you may end up worse off than when you started. When my beloved nephew took his life, we all were so devastated.
Do you believe in God? I do. I've also been suicidal for a long time. I prayed about doing it when my nephew died. The impression I felt was that if I did do it, nothing would be easier or better, rather worse.
I still think about it. Not every day like I used to, because of the medication I'm on.
I don't know why I'm here. Life seems so purposeless. I'm not sure what I'm looking for. Just surviving another day is a success.
I hope you find love and support. And help. If you don't do it, that's okay. A victory, really.

 

[someuserhere]

I tried a paracetamol overdose, it's unlikely to kill you just will give you liver damage.

Hello. It sounds like you're in a lot of pain, but don't really want to die. If you try and don't succeed, you may end up worse off than when you started. When my beloved nephew took his life, we all were so devastated.
Do you believe in God? I do. I've also been suicidal for a long time. I prayed about doing it when my nephew died. The impression I felt was that if I did do it, nothing would be easier or better, rather worse.
I still think about it. Not every day like I used to, because of the medication I'm on.
I don't know why I'm here. Life seems so purposeless. I'm not sure what I'm looking for. Just surviving another day is a success.
I hope you find love and support. And help. If you don't do it, that's okay. A victory, really.

It's also feels for me so purposeless.. , thanks for your words, I don't believe in god, I think it's a good thing for people so they will have hope. I don't want to die, I don't want to be my character anymore. But I really appreciate your reply, I hope you find your peace

 

[Elle]

It's also feels for me so purposeless.. , thanks for your words, I don't believe in god, I think it's a good thing for people so they will have hope. I don't want to die, I don't want to be my character anymore. But I really appreciate your reply, I hope you find your peace

Sending my love

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that taking paracetamol would just lead to way more suffering, it's really not recommended if one wishes to ctb. Sadly leaving this world isn't that straightforward, in general any over the counter medication isn't really a reliable way to try and die as after all we exist in such an anti-suicide society where suicide is purposely made as difficult as possible for people, if people could easily ctb in such a way then it would soon be restricted. But anyway best wishes.

 

[UKscotty]

Paracetamol is not that dangerous, it will just mess up your liver.

It's a myth from the 90s that somehow has stuck. The reality is you'd need about 300 pills and about 16 hours with no medical intervention, all whilst in incredible abdominal pain like you have been stabbed multiple times.