dandan
One more attempt on life.
- Feb 18, 2019
- 1,298
-i enjoyed self help books
-pretty girl naked body with tenderness and love or passion or whatever towards me
-I enjoyed trying to change, reading self help, might still do. I enjoyed the idea of changing and liking myself, but no more.
-sushi expensive restaurant
-carne asada
-i enjoy finding solutions to problems at work or in my mind
-i enjoy ..... I'm missing a lot of enjoyment in my life , specially for not accepting myself and life, for also being a coward to play outside my comfort zone , and when I try it and do it yes it helps , but I feel like shit when I remember I might not make enough money in this life for a good life. Hate it when I meet successful younger professionals than me
-I enjoy a girl company, specially if sexyness is involved., But I know is difficult having a partner while I'm suicidal and very conflicted with myself, frustrated that I lost the opportunity to give mygirl a good life.
The last sexy pretty girl I dated she went to Canada to baby sit, and met his life partner the first week, the uncle of the baby she went to take care of. I'm happy she has found a wealthy man that loves her and can give her a good life. She had an amazing body, and was so kind, and pretty.
I would've enjoyed if I kept my Bitcoin and could travel and live free from financial worries. Fuck you Dad for insulting me so much when I asked and asked you to buy me some Bitcoin when I was very bad and couldn't work to make money for myself.
I would like to say I enjoy myself, but I don't even like myself, and today I finally accept I won't change, either I learn to love myself as is and change only what's possible, but not myself, or continue to hate and struggle. Either way I can ctb at any given time.
There's 1 thing I wish the most! That's for another post.
-pretty girl naked body with tenderness and love or passion or whatever towards me
-I enjoyed trying to change, reading self help, might still do. I enjoyed the idea of changing and liking myself, but no more.
-sushi expensive restaurant
-carne asada
-i enjoy finding solutions to problems at work or in my mind
-i enjoy ..... I'm missing a lot of enjoyment in my life , specially for not accepting myself and life, for also being a coward to play outside my comfort zone , and when I try it and do it yes it helps , but I feel like shit when I remember I might not make enough money in this life for a good life. Hate it when I meet successful younger professionals than me
-I enjoy a girl company, specially if sexyness is involved., But I know is difficult having a partner while I'm suicidal and very conflicted with myself, frustrated that I lost the opportunity to give mygirl a good life.
The last sexy pretty girl I dated she went to Canada to baby sit, and met his life partner the first week, the uncle of the baby she went to take care of. I'm happy she has found a wealthy man that loves her and can give her a good life. She had an amazing body, and was so kind, and pretty.
I would've enjoyed if I kept my Bitcoin and could travel and live free from financial worries. Fuck you Dad for insulting me so much when I asked and asked you to buy me some Bitcoin when I was very bad and couldn't work to make money for myself.
I would like to say I enjoy myself, but I don't even like myself, and today I finally accept I won't change, either I learn to love myself as is and change only what's possible, but not myself, or continue to hate and struggle. Either way I can ctb at any given time.
There's 1 thing I wish the most! That's for another post.