• Light/Dark
  • Hey Guest,

    We wanted to share a quick update with the community.

    Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.

    👉 View the ledger here

    Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.

    If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC):
    Ethereum (ETH):
    Monero (XMR):

Discussion What do you feel when you're in the area you plan to CTB?

JussinLOV

JussinLOV

Member
Jun 28, 2023
11
As it says in the title, what do you call that? Ages ago I tried to CTB by train (didn't work out LOL skill issue of the highest caliber!) and now that I'm more prepared I get this intense shaky feeling in the pit of my stomach. I 100% know it's fear because who the fuck isn't afraid of locomotives barreling down on you at astounding speeds, but maybe it's the thought of "oh this it where it will end" that really grounds me. Like the idea that this spot, in the middle of nowhere, is where I decide to go and where they'll find me. It's freaky!

But yeah please let me know you feel about it! Is it a physical sensation? A numbing of feeling? Nothing? Let me know!
 
  • Like
Reactions: restingplace, zeecen and Electric1
Electric1

Electric1

Student
Dec 18, 2023
100
I'll admit it can feel a bit intimidating when I really take into the thought "this is where I'll die" but besides that I guess it's relatively quiet and peaceful. But also feels sterile and cold though.
 
Z

zeecen

Member
Mar 30, 2024
39
I definitely have felt something similar to what you've described. It's most likely the self preservation instinct at play. Your body is fighting against your brain to stay alive.
 
restingplace

restingplace

Aspiring corpse
Mar 7, 2024
154
JussinLOV said:
As it says in the title, what do you call that? Ages ago I tried to CTB by train (didn't work out LOL skill issue of the highest caliber!) and now that I'm more prepared I get this intense shaky feeling in the pit of my stomach. I 100% know it's fear because who the fuck isn't afraid of locomotives barreling down on you at astounding speeds, but maybe it's the thought of "oh this it where it will end" that really grounds me. Like the idea that this spot, in the middle of nowhere, is where I decide to go and where they'll find me. It's freaky!

But yeah please let me know you feel about it! Is it a physical sensation? A numbing of feeling? Nothing? Let me know!
Click to expand...
Free, so free. It feels like I'm already in the afterlife whenever I go there, I already have a pretty deep connection to that place so ctb there will be perfect for me. It feels like its the only place I feel like belong to
 
You must log in or register to reply here.

Similar threads

eggsausagerice
Discussion do you ever wonder if people in your life killed themselves when you haven't talked to them in a while?
Replies
10
Views
302
Suicide Discussion
wishmaster9
wishmaster9
Ekim
Discussion Do you think failing a grade is a valid reason to CTB?
Replies
16
Views
455
Suicide Discussion
Endisclose
E
tiokapaws
  • Poll
Discussion Do you tell people you know that you're suicidal?
Replies
28
Views
1K
Suicide Discussion
wine is fine but
W
meowme0w
Discussion Do you plan to tell online friends?
Replies
23
Views
791
Suicide Discussion
UserFromNowhere
UserFromNowhere
farawaystar
Discussion I finally feel free because I chose when to die
Replies
1
Views
229
Suicide Discussion
Slipknot_XV
S
Top Bottom