Discussion What do you do in a day?

[nooo2]

I wake up , play video games and watch youtube videos/twitch streamers. Lay down to go to sleep, negative thoughts kick in and keep me up for about an hour unless I'm taking sleeping pills and it's a rinse and repeat. I'm doing great things in my life, I can't wait until I order my SN this Friday.

 

[BobbyPellitt]

Distracting myself from real life. Watching random YouTube videos most of the time. I can't even muster up the effort to play video games and watch movies anymore. I have almost no social media, zero friends or acquaintance and a fucked up mind.

 

[Rocksandsand]

Occasionally work. Otherwise it's as much distraction as possible. I'm permanently laying on the couch watching something trashy to try and push the guilty feelings away for wanting to die so badly. These days I am just counting down the time before I use my SN.

 

[your pathologist]

Drink 4 cups of coffee
Forget to eat breakfast
Nap for 3 more hours
More coffee
Cigarette
Smoke a bowl
Paranoia and self hatred time
Contemplate some cleaning
More coffee
Smoke a bowl
Feverishly eat
Think about homework
Contemplate fixing myself
Reminiscence
Drink heavily
Smoke a bowl
Smoke cigs heavily
Stay up waaaay too late
Rinse and repeat

 

[Xaphous]

I don't understand what to do in life. No social life so basically prison but with a nicer bed and youtube, with an occasional walk to flavour the monotony.

 

[IsadoraBeauxdraps]

I go far away in my thoughts.

 

[magick'sgone]

Weekdays:
Drag myself out of bed
Push the problems out of my head
Go to work
Smile and joke lots to keep the despair at bay
Smoke copious cigarettes
Go home
Shower
Get in bed
Get up and eat
Try not to drink alcohol
Get back in bed
Read or watch stuff online, possibly make some shitty music
Go to sleep
Rinse, repeat

Weekends:
Get drunk\take drugs the entire time
Possibly get dragged out to do stuff I don't want to do by the friends I haven't yet pushed away
Maybe make some shitty music
Sleep

 

[mathieu]

Lately I've been watching a lot of documentaries on YT, I take my dog for a short walk each day and sometimes go for a longer walk by myself. Some days I have support worker or cleaner here. It's pretty miserable. I smoke a lot of cigarettes. I have a friend with benefits who sometimes visits on the weekend which is nice.

 

[odinrack]

Go to work, go home, watch YouTube, jerk off, play video games until I get too frustrated and go back to YouTube. Browse reddit, eating the whole time, go to bed, rinse and repeat.

 

[Tabbyql]

Walk my dogs (else they will harass me otherwise) feed my dogs (Or il be harassed again) make me and partner a cuppa and breakfast. Hoover up, walk dogs again, watch tv, walk dogs again. Yeah basically it's dogs and tv.

 

[woxihuanni]

On a very brave day, do a little work.

On a difficult day, talk to people here so that I don't do anything rash and irreversible.

On any day, smoke a lot.

 

[hunthunt]

Sleep, try to look for a job that I know I wont go, watch silly stuff on youtube, try to go out and take some sun, cry, come back to home, eat, sleep, eat, sleep.

 

[okaoki]

Sleep less than 6 hours (not continuously) , eat instant noodles ,drink instant coffee , watch youtube videos , no longer have the attention/ mood to watch
movies tv series which i enjoy much , short walk 10mins , worrying and stress about everything , using a old laptop so i don't game .

 

[SelfHatingAspie]

On a good day, I'll do some chores around the house or work on tying up some of the loose ends I need to tie up before I ctb (and there's realistically a couple of years' worth left of work to be done in total).

On a really good day, I may end up convincing myself that I'm getting better and therefore do something stupid like leave the house and go to the shops, which usually wipes me out to the point where I crash on the couch at about 6pm and don't wake up until the next morning.

On a bad day, I'll spend a lot of time ruminating and beating myself up over having not tied up enough loose ends to permit me to ctb right now, stopping only to self-medicate with a drink or a fap.

 

[blanketyblk]

5 days a week i work 12 hour shifts playing with people blood and urine. yeah. well OK so not playing. but researching and testing. i use to enjoy it. being part of a cutting edge field. but now, um take it or leave it.

Weekdays
Up at 5am
go for a walk on the beach try and watch the sun rise. to feel something
home - have shower.
coffee, brekkie (diet shake thingy)
bus to work (1 hour)
start working at 7am.
get lots of blood and urine to start testing
lunch at 12 for 30 minutes (diet shake thingy)
start writing reports about said tests
leave work at 7pm
bus to home at 8pm
walk to gym and stay there until 8:45pm
home and dinner to 9:30pm
shower and TV / internet until 10:30pm
bed by 11pm.

boring and almost zero contract all day.

weekends
Up at 5am
go for a walk on the beach try and watch the sun rise. to feel something
home - have shower.
coffee, brekkie (diet shake thingy)
Walk to gym and do gym stuff
home and start playing on an instrument
shopping or go wondering around a fea market
home by 2pm (usually)
sleep for 2 hours
house work for an hour
go for a walk. to clear my head
TV / internet dinner and bed by 9pm


such a boring f-ing life

some weekends i go play D&D at local library and i'm trying to start playing in a band on Saturday nights. but haven't yet

 

[Mr2005]

Fuck all

 

[Thinkinaboutit]

I've been spending alot of time at work. For the past week I've been employed at a god awful warehouse. I've thought of ways I could get myself fired from there while making the firing look unintentional on my part. I've also spent time looking at a purple bruise and yellow spots on my body and hoping that they are a sign of hepatitis C, liver disease or something else that I might find useful instead of being what they like likely are: a harmless side effect of taking blood thinners.

 

[vonvonwantpeace]

play video games to stop thinking about my depression.

 

[ddimd]

Currently playing idle games on my phone and creating multiple accounts just to have something to click constantly, to escape from reality.

 

[Darkhaven]

Depends.
While there is university:
Wake up go there and then return home, eat and retreat to bedroom.
While there is no classes:
Stay home all day, either playing videogames or just browsing the internet on my phone/laptop.
Not very different, is it?

 

[Deivis]

Fuck, its insane how resilient our bodies are!

The posters above are living on instant coffee, instant creamers, instant noodles, cigs and weed...
Yet, some other fucker can eat prime beef, free range poultry, organic veggies, workout 6 times a week..
And boom - tomorrow he goes out and gets hit by a car. Roadkill.

Such an irony of life......

 

[wunderwaffle]

I wake up.
I get ready.
Go to work.
Drink several cups of oversweetened tea.
Come home after work.
Contemplate ctb.
Random YouTube
Eat something.
Drift off to sleep.

 

[21Neberg]

I study psychology at a university, ironically enough. It keeps me busy.

 

[Thanatos]

On an average day I sulk, listen to music, smoke weed, use this forum
Sometimes see friends, get fucked up, or play games

 

[Revan16]

I'm living on autopilot. I have a decent job at a big firm, make decent money, living in the Cayman islands. I'm the only one who got promoted out of my batch of hires, but it doesn't make me happy - it doesn't make me feel anything.

My head is always coming back to this forum and thoughts on how to ctb. I'm tired all the time and just wanna sleep or ctb.

I can't even seek professional help, since that would mean losing my current career and making my life worse.

So yeah - autopilot, till it ends.

 

[eve2004]

Fuck, its insane how resilient our bodies are!

The posters above are living on instant coffee, instant creamers, instant noodles, cigs and weed...
Yet, some other fucker can eat prime beef, free range poultry, organic veggies, workout 6 times a week..
And boom - tomorrow he goes out and gets hit by a car. Roadkill.

Such an irony of life......

Its like having depression protects you from dying from natural or unnatural causes no matter how hard you try...

 

[CloudedPath]

Sleeping, eating bread and drinking coffee/water, watching youtube/twitch, taking a walk to the grocery store, repeat.
Lately, I've been failing to see the difference between staring at the wall and random stuff on my PC screen.

 

[eve2004]

Most days I kick myself out of the house to walk for a few hours, sit at a coffee shop or Subways, or MacDonalds to have a drink while I listen to music, pray that time passes fast, and depend on this site for keeping me out of my drawer full of shit that may or may not kill me but are harmful to consume in the quantities I would impulsively take. By 5pm I go to bed and I start taking the benzos, hoping to fall asleep ASAP.

Every day is a struggle, I'm tired, I'm waiting for some paperwork to come in so I can finish it and CBT.

 

[SelfHatingAspie]

Its like having depression protects you from dying from natural or unnatural causes no matter how hard you try...

Depression should really be called Schrödinger's Syndrome. It's like being dead and not dead at the same time.

 

[134340]

I take care of my 2 year old brother during the week. He's precious, the terrible twos are definitely a thing but he's still mostly an angel. I'm also my 15 year old sister's "learning coach" because she's doing online school this year. I read a lot during the down time. I spend all day pretending to be a functioning adult, basically. I'm good at that lmao

Sometimes I hate thinking about the fact that I'm actually doing useful things that will be missed when I'm gone.