what date are you waiting for ctb

[fvckfamily]

que data você está esperando ctb?

 

[SixNeufUn]

Within 2 weeks at best but definitely this month. Just waiting to have everything prepared and can't do much beside waiting unfortunately

 

[fvckfamily]

Dentro de 2 semanas no máximo, mas definitivamente neste mês. Só esperando para ter tudo preparado e não posso fazer muito além de esperar, infelizmente

ctb with sn?

 

[zenirsar]

December. 30th December to be specific.

 

[SixNeufUn]

ctb with sn?

Yep

 

[Agon321]

When I have no other reasonable option. My brain still has too much hope.
When I am already at the bottom mentally and in life, then it will be the perfect time for CTB.
I am not sure when it will come. It could even happen in a month.

 

[LunarLight]

When I have no other reasonable option. My brain still has too much hope.
When I am already at the bottom mentally and in life, then it will be the perfect time for CTB.

Same. I want to exhaust all options. To me at least CTB should be a last resort option.

 

[Demian]

Later this year, but I don't have a specific date. Maybe mid-November.
Ctb with SN.

 

[Coringa]

Same. I want to exhaust all options. To me at least CTB should be a last resort option.

Perfect!!!

 

[NegevChina]

Probably in a about two weeks. No more possibilities and hope for me. Tried everything. Physically Ill and mentally. Still cant make up my mind about the method. Cant fail. Cant source SN. Jump? Drown after OD benzos? CO is a bit of a gamble.

 

[fvckfamily]

Provavelmente em cerca de duas semanas. Não há mais possibilidades e esperanças para mim. Tentei de tudo. Fisicamente doente e mentalmente. Ainda não consigo decidir sobre o método. Não posso falhar. Não consigo encontrar SN. Pular? Afogar-se após overdose de benzodiazepínicos? CO é um pouco arriscado.

Já pensei em me afogar, mas parece muito doloroso

 

[NegevChina]

Já pensei em me afogar, mas parece muito doloroso

I thought of overdosing ambien when in shallow water, loose consciousness and then drown painlessly

 

[fvckfamily]

Pensei em tomar uma overdose de Ambien em águas rasas, perder a consciência e depois me afogar sem dor

oh it's so worth it

 

[Tac0Johnz]

maybe today or until sunday ideally

 

[FuneralCry]

For now I still suffer, I've suffered for far too long but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, it causes me so much pain how I cannot just die peacefully to finally escape from all the suffering and cruelty in this existence I never would have wished for that I never would have chosen, I'm always so tired of being trapped in this cruel, painful existence.

 

[Unspoken7612]

Unfortunately I have missed the "September window". I now plan on killing myself in late March.

Why wait that long?

- my brother's birthday is in early October
- my father and aunt have birthdays in late October
- one of my friends, who I am worried might blame herself, has a birthday in November
- Christmas in December
- January is a cliched time for suicide which I would rather avoid. I also have a cousin and a vulnerable friend with January birthdays.
- my cousin and uncle have birthdays in February
- myself and another cousin have early March birthdays

Killing myself in late March maximises the "recovery time" before any of my family or close friends have birthdays. But I can "safely" kill myself any time between late March and late June, though I'll try to avoid late May when one of my cousins has a birthday. My cousin is getting married in mid-July, so I would like to kill myself at least a month before. If I miss that window then I will wait until mid-August, to avoid the wedding and my younger brother and mother's birthdays. I have a few friends with birthdays in August but if I am still alive then I will only avoid killing myself perfectly on their birthdays.

 

[fvckfamily]

talvez hoje ou até domingo idealmente

Me too

 

[anopenwound]

I'm thinking Christmas this year. I can't even bear the thought of spending it alone.

 

[ctbsd24]

I don't have a set date. I'm one of those people just kind of teetering on the edge waiting for the next really bad thing to happen in my life before I commit to a date lol. Probably just my lame way of holding onto hope that life will get better for me.

 

[Demi-Fiend]

No definitive date, it keeps on being postponed.

 

[Hunter2005]

I'm looking to do this after my 26th birthday next month if I can find the right method.

 

[hereornot]

I've already exhausted all my options. In addition to the lack of motivation in life, the decisive issue is money I had 2 grands dollars to receive last month from my brother and another 5 grands dollars to receive this month.

It would be enough because I'm already working and even if there are pending situations in which he harmed me, that would be enough to start over. Because he hasn't paid what he owes me, he doesn't respond to messages and he certainly knows what the outcome will be and is betting on the profit he will make with my death.

I have enough to live on today and tomorrow, Saturday, either I commit suicide or I die of hunger. And my brother and lawyer who stole hundreds of thousands of money from me will profit if no one challenges

 

[hauntyoueveryday]

I have a little over two weeks, it doesn't feel real

 

[Leyna]

I'm honestly kind of debating with myself on when to do it. I need to wait until I can get ahold of benzos, so it'll at least be another week or so. I'm going on a trip in January and I feel like that would be the best time to do it since my family won't be around but I really don't want to wait that long.

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

sometime in October, as every year without fail in November my life gets 100x worse. Can't do that again.

 

[fallendevil]

I plan on doing it after I graduate college and earning a high ranking post-grad job to "prove" myself as worthy after being nothing but an incompetent burden for years.