Discussion What could be removed from your existence rn, or added, that would make you wish to live again?

[zekeyaeger]

A lot of us here seek CTB because there is something fucked in our lives. For me it is CPTSD which has made me disabled, unable to have a stable job and do a bunch of stuff, and loss of hearing hasn't helped too. But if those weren't there, I wouldn't mind living, really.

What's the situation for you?

 

[me_when_:D]

I don't care much about my suffering at this point in life, but I really dislike failing others, my executive dysfunction fucks up my university and work, where some people rely on me.

So if I could at least be able to do a bare minimum, I wouldn't see CTB as my only option

 

[FuneralCry]

Nothing, I'd never wish for existence, I just don't see existence as something desirable, I don't see existence as something worth having in the first place, I'd personally always prefer to painlessly cease existing than be burdened with this futile, cruel existence that I never would have chose, for me ceasing to exist is something positive as it's the permanent end to all suffering, I have no interest in existence rather I just wish for the peace of eternal, dreamless sleep instead, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all. And what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, I find it terrifying how a human can exist for so long, I'd never wish for the burden of existence, I wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never existed at all.

 

[zekeyaeger]

Nothing, I'd never wish for existence, I just don't see existence as something desirable, I don't see existence as something worth having in the first place, I'd personally always prefer to painlessly cease existing than be burdened with this futile, cruel existence that I never would have chose, for me ceasing to exist is something positive as it's the permanent end to all suffering, I have no interest in existence rather I just wish for the peace of eternal, dreamless sleep instead, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all. And what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, I find it terrifying how a human can exist for so long, I'd never wish for the burden of existence, I wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never existed at all.

I get this.

 

[Overwhelmed52]

The insecurity.

 

[Forveleth]

Absolutely nothing. I am Done(TM) with living and life. Take away my abusive partner and give me $200M and I would still CTB.

 

[divinemistress87]

I agree I also have cptsd and disabled. I hate being in survival mode

 

[BllyNoM8s]

Remove all of my neurodivergence and my mental illnesses, remove ten-to-fifteen years from my age, add like millions of dollars or something to my family's bank accounts, and remove all of their mental issues.

Pretty much re-work my entire life from the ground up

 

[ham and potatoes]

Removing my anxiety and depression would be a nice start

 

[Regen]

Add the joy, remove the fear.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't really think that there is anything that would make me want to live again unless if you were to somehow remove all of the suffering and pain that occurs within this planet but I honestly can't even imagine what a pain-free world would look like. I'm so skeptical of that idea to where I feel like it's a paradox. Alternatively, if you were to just change my neurotype to make me want to live, that would probably make me want to live. It's scary as to how the brain determines everything and how tampering with my brain could instantly change all of my views and personality

 

[zekeyaeger]

I don't really think that there is anything that would make me want to live again unless if you were to somehow remove all of the suffering and pain that occurs within this planet but I honestly can't even imagine what a pain-free world would look like. I'm so skeptical of that idea to where I feel like it's a paradox. Alternatively, if you were to just change my neurotype to make me want to live, that would probably make me want to live. It's scary as to how the brain determines everything and how tampering with my brain could instantly change all of my views and personality

I get this, brain is a fucked thing.

 

[Young]

This will sound too materialistic, but if they gave me 1 million, I would sort of fix my life quickly.

But materials aside, if you remove the hatred and traumatic childhood memories from me, I would be a totally different person. Maybe happy as well.

 

[zekeyaeger]

This will sound too materialistic, but if they gave me 1 million, I would sort of fix my life quickly.

But materials aside, if you remove the hatred and traumatic childhood memories from me, I would be a totally different person. Maybe happy as well.

Same.

 

[kitkat9234]

Lots of money would help. And a Time Machine.

 

[Ashu]

A foreskin. (Added.) I ain't jokin.

 

[zekeyaeger]

A foreskin. (Added.) I ain't jokin.

I did know a person who was affected by circumcision. I am sorry you had to go through that

 

[Young]

A foreskin. (Added.) I ain't jokin.

I'm sorry they did that to you. That barbaric practice needs to stop. Hearing news like this makes me angrier.

 

[zenshiii]

Lots of money would help. And a Time Machine. Same here

 

[pachamacha]

myself removed but defeats the question

there is no chnage or ideal or anything my brain is the problem as long as my brain is inside this skull it is all the same

i would not want brain transplant or surgery or lobotomy any out there not feasible options for the brain i resent a future me trapped with loss of awareness nothing is different only less aware same shit coperate system a happy go lucky living in the sick world that harms i feel resentful i would rather stay aware and see it through till the end no happy ending in naivity or igronence the scars are tainted

 

[pariah80]

Well, the world itself is going down the toilet. So, I'm going to do it regardless. I'm done living in hell.

 

[executivelydefunct]

Shame about my own past decisions and behaviour

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I would never want to live no matter the circumstances .

i don't want anything from this evil world and evil life

 

[-nobodyknows-]

It's completely unrealistic for someone like me, but I think having a partner or a close friend I could talk to and spend a good amount of time with would help a lot

 

[Grim days]

To answer the title:
Removing the sickly corruption that's seeped into every single aspect of life. Everything is hollow and saccharine now. Clowns and fools are worshipped as examples to follow, even in arts and professions.
The long list of medical issues that have tormented my body & mind my whole life.
The deep hatred, revulsion, and rejection most medical professionals appear to have for any young man who has the audacity to be seriously ill.

This world is broken, I'm beyond repair.
I wouldn't wish my life on anyone.

 

[bluejorvik]

If I could get the surgery I've been waiting 8 years for (gotta love the UK healthcare system) and if I could find a new job, I think I would feel better. Dreading Christmas with this stuff hanging over me

 

[Darkover]

well i need my teeth fixing my parents never took me to the dentist
my left shoulder dislocated 20 years ago since then it has dislocated 10 times
i took a paracetamol overdose 15 years ago leading to my stomach lining being damaged
8 years ago i got tinnitus and brain injury from listening to music with big headphones on
i was diagnosed with schizophrenia 20 years ago
i would need all the above fixing just to able to concentrate long enough to do some programming everyday would be nice

 

[pariah80]

I would never want to live no matter the circumstances .

i don't want anything from this evil world and evil life

I feel the exact same way.