
tiltedcompass
I just want to sleep forever man...
- Jul 25, 2025
- 20
Some time ago I vented about how I tried to strangle myself with a long, thin rope. The intention wasn't to ctb, but to see if I could make myself pass out. I was going through a lot of mental pain and didn't want to be awake, that was the full reason why I did it.
Maybe I was being too naive about the whole thing because now I keep overthinking it.
Do others see what I did as some kind of attempt? Even if it wasn't the initial intention, now it feels like it. Especially since I kept repeatedly strangling myself for days until my throat started hurting (it still does, but a lot less). Did I go too far for someone who isn't actively suicidal? Maybe I could've died by accident if I continued, who knows, I'm not even smart enough to know if that's possible.
Sorry for the rambling, but my question is: What exactly constitutes a suicide attempt? Is it determined by yourself or others? Or is it more related to how "serious" the injury was?
For example: Some wouldn't call stepping close to a ledge, with the intention of jumping but backing out, a suicide attempt since there's no injury. But others do consider it an attempt.
Again, sorry for rambling but I'm feeling a bit confused about what I did.
Maybe I was being too naive about the whole thing because now I keep overthinking it.
Do others see what I did as some kind of attempt? Even if it wasn't the initial intention, now it feels like it. Especially since I kept repeatedly strangling myself for days until my throat started hurting (it still does, but a lot less). Did I go too far for someone who isn't actively suicidal? Maybe I could've died by accident if I continued, who knows, I'm not even smart enough to know if that's possible.
Sorry for the rambling, but my question is: What exactly constitutes a suicide attempt? Is it determined by yourself or others? Or is it more related to how "serious" the injury was?
For example: Some wouldn't call stepping close to a ledge, with the intention of jumping but backing out, a suicide attempt since there's no injury. But others do consider it an attempt.
Again, sorry for rambling but I'm feeling a bit confused about what I did.