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nocturne

New Member
Jan 9, 2020
2
Or depression caused by weltschmerz which is despair at how wretched this world is and how powerless we are to change it.

Did not know there was a word to describe how I feel. Thanks for this.

I find it saddening that our mere existence depends on the suffering of other creatures and destruction of the environment: animals are exploited and killed for food, and even if you are vegan you'd still have an environmental footprint. There's also climate change, the world's dwindling resources, wars, selfish leaders, poverty... I understand that there are people who try to make the world a better place, but I can't help but feel that these aren't enough to overcome all the bad things in this world. It seems that those who have the power to make positive changes don't want to change things out of selfishness.
 
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Lavendermoon

Lavendermoon

Member
Jan 12, 2020
8
Rapists, murderers, liars, people who hurt innocent people, alcohol, having hypothyroidism, social workers, authority, feeling judged for being victim to something they don't understand
 
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StillWaiting

StillWaiting

Need cats to comfort me
Jul 28, 2018
550
It started when I realized how I wasn't able to work to have enough money for future survival as everything just become more expensive

It makes me realized that I will be stucked in the rat race and nothing is exactly fun and worth going through all these pain and suffering
 
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Nem

Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
1,489
Mom died when I was nine and that blew the fuck out of me. Things were tough as hell when that happened let me tell you and they only got worse
Peace/hugs
 
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issyishere

issyishere

Goodnight and always remember that’s life
Nov 5, 2019
441
mine is a bit different. i never had suicidal ideation until my health tanked. my body seems to have betrayed me and now im always in chronic pain. nothing the doctors do helps with the pain and im getting more tired and tired of dealing with it. im living a personal hell.
 
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goomsoom

M - 30
Jan 17, 2020
173
low self confidence, social anxiety, unable to live upto expectation of "society" then things started going downhill with no hope. I don't want to be stuck in this never ending rat race without any happiness. Now my main problems are I am broke, lonely (don't even have friends) with health issues. FML -_-
 
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Jul 31, 2018
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Health issues, being isolated, not being able to function or sleep because of health issues. They say. ..at least you have your health... well yeah for me I can cope with anything except the inability to cope :I
 
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BabyYoda

BabyYoda

F*ck this sh!t I'm out
Dec 30, 2019
552
Not being loved by others, especially guys
 
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BadRNG

Conflicted
Jan 11, 2020
58
Being unable to get attracted to girls no matter how hard I try , and then hearing it's a choice
 
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NerdyNihilist

NerdyNihilist

Member
Nov 27, 2019
28
- Social anxiety
- Trust issues
- Constant mood swings and restlessness
- Body dysmorphia
- Always feeling envious of people with "normal" lives
- Always having to pretend that I'm "okay", especially when I visit my family, just so I don't get yelled at for being an ungrateful sack of shit
- Thinking that I'm slowly becoming insane
- Can hardly focus on anything
- See nothing ahead of me
- Lag on RuneScape
 
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littlelady774

littlelady774

running on empty
Dec 20, 2018
708
obsessive rumination, shame, childhood bullying, and feeling like I was never able to truly fit in.
 
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DepressedAngel

DepressedAngel

Life is exhausting
Dec 4, 2019
146
An abusive father, not being able to trust people around me, anxiety, thinking too much about everything and just feeling worthless as well as not having good coping mechanisms. My coping mechanisms that are good just don't help as much as cutting...
 
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lizinha

Student
Feb 6, 2019
144
Anything minor thing can trigger it. I'm a very sensitive person so I break down very easily and it's dificult for me to get out of it afterwards.
 
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azucaramargo

azucaramargo

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2018
1,010
As the title implies, I am curious as to what you guys think causes depression. I think for me, I just stopping trying and put myself in a mental box. Part of the reason was outside my control, but part it was also an existential crisis. I felt like it doesn't really matter what I do or accomplish. I feel like no matter how big of a legacy you make for yourself time will eventually erase all that. We are just temporarily here, may as well have fun. I guess I am a nihilist is that way. The problem with that is there is no long term decision making/goals, and eventually it just all feels empty.

These videos encapsulates what I am talking about.


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poverty, neglect, romantic rejection, forced celibacy, the feeling that no one is in my corner, glamourlessness, austerity, paucity, whatever the opposite of largesse would be, no spontaneous smiling or laughing. Oh man, this is making me so sad! Thank you for asking this question, though.
Loneliness, boredom, jealousy, and shame. Everything's so bleak.
Ooooh, jealousy! That's a good one, @PartingGlass. This post sounds similar to something I'd write (or feel)
 
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LittleJem

Visionary
Jul 3, 2019
2,598
It's... complicated.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to paint myself as some special case.
I did a lot of self digging. I do that when I go to walks on the weekends. I do a lot of walks. Through those walks I've concluded that my depression comes from a cycle and a half.

Cycle 1:
I am epileptic.
Epilepsy is a seizure disorder.
Seizures cause anxiety, depression, and stress because I can't trust myself to not have a seizure in public and have medics called on me.
Stress is a well known trigger for seizures.
Stress in general causes me to have seizures.

Cycle 2:
I am epileptic.
Epilepsy is a seizure disorder.
Seizures cause anxiety, depression, and stress because I can't trust myself to not have have a seizure in public and have medics called on me.
Medics are fucking expensive!
I stress over money.
More stress seizures.

Cycle 3:
I am epileptic.
I take meds to control it.
Meds have the potential side effects of MORE FUCKING SEIZURES.
Med related seizures.

I can probably go on and describe another five good cycles.
There IS hope: temporal lobecotomy - a surgery to hack off my temporal lobe, gain control over the seizures and seen me off of the meds.
Once/if that actually happens, weird shit will unfold. Happy weird shit. I wish for that shit to unfold.

My friend is a doctor and her son takes some kind of cannabis or CBD for epilepsy
. Could that help you?
 
iknowwhatyouredoing

iknowwhatyouredoing

something inside turned the lights out
Jan 30, 2020
29
probably a combination of chemical imbalances and a bunch of unhealthy coping mechanisms that reinforce those feelings
 
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Life sucks

Visionary
Apr 18, 2018
2,134
It started randomly for me. But when I analyze it was because of the former problems and to dissociate from childhood which was filled with sexual abuse and other problems. I think a part of what we call depression is my mind trying to save me. There are many other problems in life that caused it, also how life itself actually is depressive.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,852
Many causes, both external and internal. Externally, my environment and living situation as well as life in general. Internally, well it's the old stuff that I never understood, fully gotten over, nor accepted. I don't believe it is because of a chemical imbalance, but rather how life is and how my environment shaped me to become who I am.
 
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AlreadyGone

AlreadyGone

Taking it day by day
Jan 11, 2020
917
Just a lost of hope. I feel as if I have never truly been happy. I have tried for 10 years to fix it and every year I would tell myself I need to work harder, but life constantly reminds me that happiness is just not in the cards for me. It is not something I want to cope with and as a result, I am depressed.
 
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Mort

Mort

No use to know one
Feb 15, 2019
622
Just looking in a mirror and seeing my sad little shitty face that reminds me of a failure at life. Sum one who a wast of space a oxygen thief sum who never did any thing with his life. O and let people use me and walk all over me ones was thinking of haveing welcome tattoo on my forehead. And the thought of i might live for another 50 years no no way . I cant do that going to have to grow a pair man up and get the job done and CTB . Do one thing right in my life knowing my luck sum do gooder try help and save me .
 
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diyCTB

Mage
Oct 28, 2018
573
Fear of people, inability to focus with people, inability to understand people, hyper sensitivity, inability to work.
 
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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
Fear of people, inability to focus with people, inability to understand people, hyper sensitivity, inability to work.
wow, I understand, how do you manage going through the day?
 
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diyCTB

Mage
Oct 28, 2018
573
wow, I understand, how do you manage going through the day?

I depend a lot on my mom, especially grocery shopping. I am almost always at home because I feel safe there. I don't have friends. I am 36 years old man.
 
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helpmehelpme

helpmehelpme

self and collective help
Jan 25, 2020
76
Seeing through dark lens?

Germanic gene plague? Corpses ...

On my back? Guesses
 
dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
I depend a lot on my mom, especially grocery shopping. I am almost always at home because I feel safe there. I don't have friends. I am 36 years old man.
Try testosterone bro, at least an hormone Bloom test, at least , and evento of you dont is the only thing that worked on me
 
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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
That was blood test, not bloom test :)
 
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herondale

Member
Aug 17, 2020
8
As the title implies, I am curious as to what you guys think causes depression. I think for me, I just stopping trying and put myself in a mental box. Part of the reason was outside my control, but part it was also an existential crisis. I felt like it doesn't really matter what I do or accomplish. I feel like no matter how big of a legacy you make for yourself time will eventually erase all that. We are just temporarily here, may as well have fun. I guess I am a nihilist is that way. The problem with that is there is no long term decision making/goals, and eventually it just all feels empty.

These videos encapsulates what I am talking about.


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For me it's the PTSD and DID though I think my hyperthyroidism also contributes a lot, and my family who doesn't care at all. I thought I was doing better but I think all along I was just fooling myself to be happy. I don't want to do anything, I feel empty and I don't really feel like helping myself. It is just impossible to fix me.
 
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muffin222

muffin222

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2020
1,188
PTSD caused by childhood trauma, the cruelty of the world, Asperger's
 
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ocd is bad

ocd is bad

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Jun 26, 2020
206
Loneliness and low self esteem are the main ones for me
 
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