Discussion What are you waiting for?

[lost1]

Anyone else considered night night method, seems pretty quick and done right you don't Choke out you black out

 

[spectraltease]

My failed attempts are stopping me. I tried to hang myself so many times yesterday. I don't understand what I'm doing wrong.

What do you mean? Just take a strong rope, watch a video how to tie a gallow. Take a high door. Then tie one end on the door handle, trow the other end with the gallow over the door and than take a high thing and happy hanging. (Its a method what Im talking about, its in your hands what you do with that.) good luck
Or a tree. Ps: dont do it if you dont know how

 

[NotMeAnymore]

I'm trying to stick to my long-term plan. Best case scenario, I'll CTB two years from now.. Resisting the urge to make an impulsive attempt is an everyday challenge, though. Hopefully I'll be able to hold on long enough to see it through, I'm really trying- I want to end things the right way.
Besides, if I were to rush into it right now, I'd be risking more than I'd have any feasible chance of succeeding.

I'll admit there are still times I feel lost. After all, my reason for not killing myself now and continuing to live is so I can kill myself later.. The more I think about it the more I realize how pointless and laughable my existence is.

I'm stuck without a viable mode to ctb in a household willing to call in Adult Protective Services-- meanwhile I'm so weak from not being interested in food that I'm unable to plan moving out -- which I have to "or else" -- biggest catch 22 ever; and I have NOBODY outside this house to talk to.

I'm also old and technologically disadvantaged -- using a phone I hate -- in THE worst place to be (the US) -- they took my gun away from me before I even considered that method (I'm female), and all remaining methods are so unreliable.


I feel like a chimpanzee in a research lab. I wish I could plan to cbt as you are, onyour own terms, but I only feel 100% trapped now.

 

[Roberto]

I'm a coward. Always have been, always will be.

Me also. But sometimes when I'm desperate (so long I haven't been), the ctb idea weights more than fear.

 

[eldiablo666]

I'm leaning towards using my N from D which I bought in March this year but I'm already skeptic due to the time past since I bought it and that it may not be as effective as if it would have been in March. I feel like if it's the last thing I do, why not buy a fresh, new batch?

D said it would expire in 2024 but I'm not sure I can even trust that.

Been keeping it in refrigerator since purchase.

 

[scenery]

I'm scared of the pain it will bring my mom and dad.
I'm scared of never seeing them again, or them seeing me alive again.
I don't want to cause anyone any more unnecessary pain.