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anxious_depressive
I'm in despair
- Dec 21, 2021
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I'm sending you a hug.Yeah :( That's how mine is at the moment.
I'm sending you a hug.Yeah :( That's how mine is at the moment.
Ohh, I unfortunately can no longer listen to music.
It's not that I don't like listening to music. When I was well I listened to music every day and several times a day. And first thing in the morning. But I realized that I can only listen to music when I am well. I haven't listened to a single song in months. If I listened to music now I would listen to sad songs and I would get more depressed.Oh that's interesting for me I have to listen to music constantly.
But when I have too much energy and get too manic that's when I can't listen to music at all because then I get really lost with the music and it's too intense for me to handle.
It's not that I don't like listening to music. When I was well I listened to music every day and several times a day. And first thing in the morning. But I realized that I can only listen to music when I am well. I haven't listened to a single song in months. If I listened to music now I would listen to sad songs and I would get more depressed.
I'm so sorry. I understand you. Life is really unfair and hard. Feel free to PM me anytime.Reflection.
Which is quite fucking pointless, counterproductive, and outright unhealthy.
I am a blob.
Blob of uselessness, depression, hatred, grief, frustration, poor choices, bad circumstances, lack of self esteem, and unnecessary internalized turmoil that repeats like a store soundtrack.
It is the most fucking pointless thing in the world.
I am fucking depressed.
I wish I could have had a better outcome, decision making process, relatives, and the support that I needed in the years that it was most crucial to my development.
It is not fun, it is not funny, it is not a joke, it is a life destroyed that went on and destroyed others.
It is a painful reality of what happened and how it happened, what led to it, "solidified" it, and molded it to be stuck this way.
Ohhh give your dog a hug for meBrowsing SS while my dog snores next to me on the bed.
I shall <3Ohhh give your dog a hug for me