Discussion What are you doing in your final days/hours?

[Velvetwhisper]

Well, in my last days I will probably just go out and do something fun like going for a walk and making peace with what I'll do and eat some nice food. In my last hours I'll just prepare my tools to CTB. In my last few minutes I'll record a video saying goodbye...

 

[kyhoti]

I'll throw out most of the useless items, box up the stuff to donate, pre-position my last will and testament, eat a good meal, catch the sunset, pray, then complete the plan.

 

[newjourney]

Well, in my last days I will probably just go out and do something fun like going for a walk and making peace with what I'll do and eat some nice food. In my last hours I'll just prepare my tools to CTB. In my last few minutes I'll record a video saying goodbye...

I like the idea of going for a walk and making peace. Are you thinking in nature or like old places you used to enjoy etc?

 

[Velvetwhisper]

I like the idea of going for a walk and making peace. Are you thinking in nature or like old places you used to enjoy etc?

Just a walk around where I live because it's kinda nostalgic. It reminds me of how I used to go out for walks when I was younger. Hope this answered your question .

 

[newjourney]

Just a walk around where I live because it's kinda nostalgic. It reminds me of how I used to go out for walks when I was younger. Hope this answered your question .

Yes yes! That sounds really cool, memories are a precious thing

 

[ThatGuyOverThere]

Probably nothing, I'll most likely struggle to even comprehend what is around me, as I'd be solely focused on not messing up my attempt. I'd spend more time making sure that every little aspect goes to plan, as to the point I won't focus on any possible distractions. So probably just sit around impatiently until it's time.

I don't have a very good relationship with anyone, either friends or family, so I have no need nor want to speak to them prior.

 

[SleepingBliss]

This is what I have in mind if there is no ctb partner

1. Day -3 : I will go play soccer because I have always loved playing soccer ever since I was a kid.

2. Day -2 : I will go to the beach, take in the breeze and ocean water smell, enjoy the sunshine, then go to my favorite restaurant for lunch or dinner.

3. Day -1 : I will go hiking up in the mountains (there is this spot that's secluded from everything and just surrounded by beautiful nature), I am gonna enjoy that view, and then go home and cook my all time favorite meal as my last meal, and then that night I will watch my all time favorite tv show Prison Break.

4. On the day : wake up, put on some good sad music, take prerequisite meds for sn, prepare sn, and start a goodbye thread, drink sn, update the goodbye thread until I am gone.

The most important thing on the day of my death is that I won't make a big deal out of it, no reason to be scared or feel anxious, I have felt enough fear, anxiety and despair in my lifetime that I will be damned if I allow them to steal my peace on my final day. I will just show up, do what I need to do, endure what needs enduring with sn and get my rest.

I like this, I am currently at the beach enjoying it for the last time. I'm trying not to focus on what I won't be able to experience again. I'm taking my SN when it arrives in the post so I am in my last few days, if it arrives tomorrow then it is my second last day. I will prepare my sn in shot form, just a small amount of water and the salt and shot it back, no worry or trying to drink too much water with it. I will have another with me for backup and I will be in a secluded wooded spot. Once I have taken it I will send my goodbyes to my friends on snapchat. I will mention I have already taken the poison so there is no need to convince me otherwise and then I will listen to music and enjoy the nature around me. I plan to take a lot of melatonin prior to try sleep but I'm not sure it will work as effectively. This is my plan, I want to keep it plain, simple and stress free to ensure I follow through.

 

[Mywill]

I am going to watch the sea, drink some gin and tonic and wait for the sunset. Before that, I will flash all electronics I have, and delete accounts, cancel subscriptions, maybe some Mcflurry and hot chocolate.

 

[Traveller12724]

I like this, I am currently at the beach enjoying it for the last time. I'm trying not to focus on what I won't be able to experience again. I'm taking my SN when it arrives in the post so I am in my last few days, if it arrives tomorrow then it is my second last day. I will prepare my sn in shot form, just a small amount of water and the salt and shot it back, no worry or trying to drink too much water with it. I will have another with me for backup and I will be in a secluded wooded spot. Once I have taken it I will send my goodbyes to my friends on snapchat. I will mention I have already taken the poison so there is no need to convince me otherwise and then I will listen to music and enjoy the nature around me. I plan to take a lot of melatonin prior to try sleep but I'm not sure it will work as effectively. This is my plan, I want to keep it plain, simple and stress free to ensure I follow through.

Your plan sounds good but did you see the goodbye thread of cocotxbase and how she was found and saved from the woods, your friends may be send the police and try to track you, that's the only worry about your plan

 

[SleepingBliss]

Your plan sounds good but did you see the goodbye thread of cocotxbase and how she was found and saved from the woods, your friends may be send the police and try to track you, that's the only worry about your plan

I am going to turn my phone off before arriving so location will not be known. But I will look at thread now, thank you

 

[newjourney]

I like this, I am currently at the beach enjoying it for the last time. I'm trying not to focus on what I won't be able to experience again. I'm taking my SN when it arrives in the post so I am in my last few days, if it arrives tomorrow then it is my second last day. I will prepare my sn in shot form, just a small amount of water and the salt and shot it back, no worry or trying to drink too much water with it. I will have another with me for backup and I will be in a secluded wooded spot. Once I have taken it I will send my goodbyes to my friends on snapchat. I will mention I have already taken the poison so there is no need to convince me otherwise and then I will listen to music and enjoy the nature around me. I plan to take a lot of melatonin prior to try sleep but I'm not sure it will work as effectively. This is my plan, I want to keep it plain, simple and stress free to ensure I follow through.

Thanks for sharing!

I hadn't given it much thought about if you plan too much stuff that it could serve as a distraction and give reasons not to follow through. This is interesting

 

[SleepingBliss]

Thanks for sharing!

I hadn't given it much thought about if you plan too much stuff that it could serve as a distraction and give reasons not to follow through. This is interesting

I don't want to do anything too exciting or possibly thrill myself into SI being higher. I just want it over and done with and to end this chapter. And if there is something else after then I will face that head on

 

[thinvy]

Hopefully I'll have all the boring things like setting up my will all taken care of ahead of time, so I think ideally, i'd like to go home.
I don't really care what all I do, but I wanna take a nice bath, with hot water and fancy soap and bath bombs and lots of bubbles. I want to go eat at my favorite brunch spot, and my favorite mexican spot. Maybe I'll go and get a cheese steak from my cheese steak place. if I have time, I wanna go visit my dad's grave and sit and talk to him for a bit.
That's kind of it. I wish I had more exciting things to do, but honestly, I just want to have a decent bath before I die. I only have a shower at my apartment and I miss soaking in the tub.

 

[newjourney]

Thought I'd bump this thread as it seems to have got quite a lot of interest. I'm still working on my own final week plan but will post it soon

 

[Defenestration]

eat and sleep

 

[Epikur]

I´ve been hesitating for so (way too) long. Cowardice. Still stronger than my constant death wish. The most likely demise for me is spontaneous. No plans, because they would make me hesitate as always so far. Fear rising. Considerations. Moral struggle. Bullshit. Best way is a good bottle of booze, a noose, and a stool to step on. No farewell letter, no last meal, no last trip, no fuzzing around. Ok, I have somehow managed to arrange the most important things, including my funeral and testament.

 

[newjourney]

Bringing this back. Hopefully others find this useful too

 

[Trav1989]

I'll walk deep into the woods in the middle of nowhere, down a bottle of SN water, leave a message for my ex who will likely listen to it hours later, find a nice spot to lay at, then just let everything drift away without a thought in the world as I pass out and CTB.

 

[outrider567]

Probably eat a ton of bacon, and Haagen Daas Strawberry Ice Cream

 

[newjourney]

I just realised I never actually wrote about my final week/days…

Well for the final week I began by renting some airbnbs and just chilling out mostly. Played some online games, watched movies and ordered a lot of takeaway but also cooked some good meals and probably drank a bit too much rum but it was fun.

Went to the gym a few times and was never a massive fan of swimming but went for my final swim a few days ago and jumped in the hot tub alone afterwards. That was actually really nice!

Last few days I travelled to London with the intention of visiting so many places but really just did more of the same. I did go shopping in Oxford street, visited Camden and ordered a ton of good food. Managed to get the worst weed ever off a random person but as I'd quit for over 6months it was actually pretty strong. I did visit like two escorts but to be honest I got more out of the social interaction than anything else as I decided to ghost family/friends for the last week and half.

I started the AE schedule yesterday and currently 1hr 15 from taking SN. I've started the water fast and will be taking final AE/paracetamol in approximately 15-30mins.

This last day has been quite surreal. I ordered a really nice chicken with garlic confit just sauce and then fasted. I went out for a walk a few hours ago but didn't stay out. Came back to the hotel room and listened to music. Watched Paddleton movie. Listened to more music. Cried a few times but more like joyful crying, I didn't feel anxious. For the last few hours I've just been trying to finish the final day playlist. I didn't know what I wanted to die listening to… it's actually harder than I thought it would be.

But here we are. It's almost time… I didn't want to take over my own thread and actually never intended on doing a final post but I couldn't leave this unfinished.

Would I change anything? Probably not. Would I do it all again? Probably not.

Thank you everyone for sharing and let's keep it going :) It brought me a lot of good ideas and I hope it helps more people like it helped me.

 

[EmptyCurtainCall]

light a candle listen to some music , take a couple hits off a blunt ideally

 

[mint]

Just waiting for it to be over. Everything else is a distraction.