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Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
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I was and am influenced by the suicide of my childhood friend's dad 20 yrs ago. I didn't realize suicide was an option until he died. I heard of people doing it but I didn't know them.

Knowing he could do it gives me strength. He was so cool. I'll probably visit his grave before I do it.

Famous epitaph: "As you are now, once was I. As I am, you shall be."
 
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CommitSudoku

never interfere with a lifespan reaping
Feb 12, 2022
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Considering this question makes me sad. I feel like as you mentioned in your experience, as soon as someone closer to someone else kills themselves, they become more aware it is an option. After that I think it's more dependent on the person. I feel like some people might be more inclined to consider suicide than others, or if they were closer/dependent on whoever died it will hit them harder. Others might be stronger or more experienced with grief to get through things better. I wouldn't want to influence anyone to want to consider suicide more with my passing if possible, but I know I will hurt some people. I don't know how much I'll influence anyone after I'm gone but hope they all can keep living and find happiness without me.
 
Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
1,683
Considering this question makes me sad. I feel like as you mentioned in your experience, as soon as someone closer to someone else kills themselves, they become more aware it is an option. After that I think it's more dependent on the person. I feel like some people might be more inclined to consider suicide than others, or if they were closer/dependent on whoever died it will hit them harder. Others might be stronger or more experienced with grief to get through things better. I wouldn't want to influence anyone to want to consider suicide more with my passing if possible, but I know I will hurt some people. I don't know how much I'll influence anyone after I'm gone but hope they all can keep living and find happiness without me.
I think the grief of someone who knew me well will overwhelm them when they go over my life in their mind and realize it was horrifically bad and fucked up through no fault of my own.
 
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wCvML2

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Nov 15, 2021
452
honestly, I have a suicidal friend that I think will ctb regardless of what I do. I don't really think I'll inspire a new idea for anyone.
 
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CommitSudoku

never interfere with a lifespan reaping
Feb 12, 2022
524
I think the grief of someone who knew me well will overwhelm them when they go over my life in their mind and realize it was horrifically bad and fucked up through no fault of my own.
Do you think this person has already considered suicide or experiencing your death would be the first time they would?

On a slight aside, I worry a slight bit that should I go (honestly hoping I do soon) I might negatively impact those who are here but might be doing a bit better. Since we're all already in hard circumstances, and we can end up supporting each other while we're around.
 
Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
1,683
Do you think this person has already considered suicide or experiencing your death would be the first time they would?

On a slight aside, I worry a slight bit that should I go (honestly hoping I do soon) I might negatively impact those who are here but might be doing a bit better. Since we're all already in hard circumstances, and we can end up supporting each other while we're around.
I think there will be at least one person who will suddenly realize ctb is an option.

People on here won't know. I'll just stop coming
 
Jred

Jred

Sadness covers me like a blanket.
Apr 26, 2022
33
A loved one of mine did in the past few years. Very loved, had the support of the entire, very large, family when their mental health declined, and because of that, I don't think anyone expected them to CTB, but they did. So many people were devastated, so many loose threads left for those people to tie together as a result, while they grieved. But life went on for every one of them. They're spoken of lovingly, not like some selfish villain, just remembered. The suicide isn't spoken of, I imagine because it hurts.

The only thing keeping me here is fear and my family. When this loved one passed, I watched a world come down, but get built back again. It gave me some hopeful reassurance that my family will do the same when I'm gone.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I do not think so, in my case. We will all die eventually and my death will be insignificant. I will eventually be forgotten about, it will be like I never existed in the first place. If I was to die sometime soon, I do not know anyone who is suicidal anyway. To me, it does not matter what would happen after my death as I will not be there to see it. All life is so temporary and meaningless after all.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
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I don't care if my own CTB influences anybody I know, all I know is my own intense psychological pain, and there's only one solution for me to get rid of it
 
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VKVK

VKVK

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Oct 18, 2021
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My SO could possibly end up doing it, which is something I really don't want. Apart from her and a parent I don't have anyone else in my life so whatever. I have a friend I sometimes talk to who's suicidal as well and I wonder if that'd push him over the edge or give him strength otherwise.
 
WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,429
My mother very well could. That's something I fear. However, I know she worries what is going to become of me if I pass away, so in addition to ending my own suffering CTBing will alleviate her of that worry.
 

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