Honestly, when i seriously think about this one, i came to a conclusion that all of my problems, including huge levels of stress, depression, lack of self worth, social skills, constant anxiety and "suicidality", all have a single cause. It's all about how i look. Simple as that.
I'm not talking about monster level face or one eye or something, I've somehow managed to have few relationships and friends. But i always was standing out from others. Couldn't blend in enough. It was enough to cause a hell, in my school times, after school, etc. I was abused on daily basis. Beaten. Treated like worst from others, dehumanized like some kind of clown and never taken seriously. My voice was never heard. It still is like that today. It ruined my mind permanently. It affected my life on all levels. Worst shit is, i can still remember myself, my mental state before elementary school when i was OK inside with me. Now i am like dry husk in comparison, and i think i will never be able recover from that.
So, that is my main cause of stress. Sorry if i messed up my post language-wise. I'm bad English writer lol.