ArchmagePrincess
Magical Princess of Death
- Aug 31, 2022
- 146
At this point I don't think I'll need anymore money. Still scary not to have an income in this world probably just been conditioned that not having a job = worry about it profusely.
I was on a walk to one of my jobs early in the morning. I started freaking out again over being mugged or kidnapped by people who'd stop in front of me and shout slurs, and ran back inside cause I got too overwhelmed. I thought about how my boss would just not care and yell at me for being late again despite me explaining my issues before. So I went back inside worried a lot, thought it over, and eventually just said fuck it, I'm not going back. I'm not spending my last days on earth making someone else rich while I'm made more miserable.
Things are still weird privacy wise and I don't have the opportunity to CTB yet because of that. But for now I want sometime to just not exist in the workplace for once in my life. I can visit parks, libraries, go to the duck pond, hike somewhere, watch anime, spend time with friends.
The biggest reason I feel the need to CTB even ignoring all the trauma I've been through is just capitalism forcing me to spend most of my energy and waking hours working for mean people. There are plenty of things I like about living, I just can't do hardly any of those things when it's all work work work then recover from work so you can get back to work. I think my savings will last about a month before I need to hop on the bus. So until then I'll live my life as a free woman for a month and leave before this backwards ass society forces me to work again or turns me homeless.
I was on a walk to one of my jobs early in the morning. I started freaking out again over being mugged or kidnapped by people who'd stop in front of me and shout slurs, and ran back inside cause I got too overwhelmed. I thought about how my boss would just not care and yell at me for being late again despite me explaining my issues before. So I went back inside worried a lot, thought it over, and eventually just said fuck it, I'm not going back. I'm not spending my last days on earth making someone else rich while I'm made more miserable.
Things are still weird privacy wise and I don't have the opportunity to CTB yet because of that. But for now I want sometime to just not exist in the workplace for once in my life. I can visit parks, libraries, go to the duck pond, hike somewhere, watch anime, spend time with friends.
The biggest reason I feel the need to CTB even ignoring all the trauma I've been through is just capitalism forcing me to spend most of my energy and waking hours working for mean people. There are plenty of things I like about living, I just can't do hardly any of those things when it's all work work work then recover from work so you can get back to work. I think my savings will last about a month before I need to hop on the bus. So until then I'll live my life as a free woman for a month and leave before this backwards ass society forces me to work again or turns me homeless.
