Venting Well, I guess this is it. Goodbye post.

[endofafoxtwo]

First, thanks to everyone that came and spoke with me in my thread yesterday.
I really appreciated and continue to appreciate it.
I'm getting kicked out of the place I've been sleeping even though I did absolutely nothing to anybody here, just been minding my own business.
They want me to go to the shelter, but I am not going to one of those fucking places again. Never again. So, this is the end of the line.
My plan is to withdraw what money I have in savings, clean up, get a cab, go buy a copious amount of weed, go out into the wood, walk until my legs refuse to carry me, smoke/eat it all until im sufficiently numbed, then I am just going to sever arteries until I lose the ability to move. I wish I had more time to prepare a better way, but it is what it is. At least I will die relatively quickly, and the pain will be transient.
My body won't be found, I am leaving it for the wildlife.
Thank you to everyone here and elsewhere who has been kind and compassionate with me. It means so much to me, you can't possibly know. I'll check the thread every few mins til I leave for the woods; I'll send a final message when it is time to go. Again, thank you guys so much. Gods bless you, truly.

P.S. Here's probably the most effort I have ever put into an artwork in my life. I may suck at drawing but I hope you like it anyways ^^. Cheers everybody.

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry life has been horrible for you and I wish you a peaceful journey into the void, unknown. I like your drawing as well, it encapsulates a peaceful gate into the unknown and the message is clear.

 

[Jezzibell]

My thoughts are with you. I pray that it will be a peaceful passing. Xxxxx

 

[GasMonkey]

I am just going to sever arteries until I lose the ability to move.

Doesn't seem like a reliable CTB method.

 

[MentalStefan]

I'm very sorry that you've been driven to make this decision. I wish you a peaceful journey and good luck

P. S. Besides I chose, in some respects, a quite similar method to you. Now I'm slowly spending my savings on opiates and if there is a rapid collapse of my health or I run out of cash then I will just take a golden shot and say 'goodbye' to this sh*thole (if it doesn't succeed then I will use SN).

 

[StaticCryBabye]

You've suffered a lot. I'm so sorry about what happened to you. I hope your passing is peaceful and that you will finally rest and let go of all the pain you've been holding.

 

[starlover]

Prayers for your journey. Your art is touching, thank you for that.

 

[Nortu]

Truly hope it'll go peaceful for you. Safe travels

 

[deliriousPhysicist]

I wish you peace and comfort my friend.

 

[endofafoxtwo]

haha.. went into the bathroom to cry on my way to the ATM, and my nose started bleeding.
Pro tip: it turns out saltwater and blood mixed together makes a huge fucking mess, so now I am going to have to spend and extra half hour cleaning this up. The absolute state, hah...

 

[Letgo]

I am sorry for all your suffering. I wish you peace and rest. Will be thinking of you.

 

[thecolourgold]

Wishing peace for you in the end.

 

[Dead Meat]

Bless you Beautiful Soul @endofafoxtwo your art really spoke to me,and I'm so sorry to see you go. Really wish you a very pleasant and comfortable journey on your way to everlasting peace and tranquility

 

[MildlyBetter]

Good luck, and I hope you find peace.

 

[pompompurin]

I'm very sorry for you, hope you find peace in whatever comes after death

 

[Azzuree]

You've been through enough. May whatever comes after death grant you eternal peace.

 

[storeboughtisfine]

Be safe where you go and go in peace. I wish it hadn't come to this. You deserved dignity and respect. I hope the end comes peacefully.

 

[FuneralCry]

That method does sound quite risky to me but anyway I hope that you find the freedom that you are searching for.

 

[lilpeep]

I am so sorry life handed you such a shit filled spoon. I have the best high of your lifetime, and that your final moments are ones of peace. I'll smoke a bowl for you brother

 

[RoundaboutResolved]

Wishing you a peaceful & successful journey to whatever comes next!

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

Peace and pain-free awaits friend, Good luck!

 

[unexplainedExplorer]

o7
good luck, have fun. your story will live on, and we hope your return to stardust will be blissful. farewell.

 

[rêve]

Saw your post earlier today, didn't dare to reply since it had been some time since it was posted. I hoped for you to get treated better, but here we are. I hope you have a good rest my friend. If you want to talk a bit before your last breath, feel free to reply. Farewell.

 

[endofafoxtwo]

Nerves are starting to set in a bit. I am only taking enough food and water for a one way trip so i know I won't pussy out, but fuck do I wish I didn't have to resort to such a violent method. I'd honestly much rather go by fentanyl overdose or something, but I got what I got so... it's this or something I am not willing to bear again. I have no choice.

I want to make a statement on how much I hate fake fucking sympathy.
Asshole boomer who kicked me out bumps into me on my way out, 30mins late because I had to clean up all that blood, and says "oh... you're still here?" Goes on to tell me about how he made some calls to the shelter so they would let me in, like he's doing me some huge fucking favor. "You got to help yourself too, you know." He says.
Fuck. Right. Off.
If anybody ever wanted to help me, they could have came and talked to me when I was sobbing in the corner for hours. They could have made any attempt to get to know me as a person. They could have offered me a real place to rest my head while I get my feet under me. But of course, they don't. Because these fucking people, humanity at large, has no interest in helping people. They just want inconveniences and sore thumbs removed from their fake as fuck sanitary world. I hate it. I hate it so fuccking much.
As a sort of "fuck it why not, cant make things worse" I stopped at some hotels on the way here to see if they were offering work with accomidations. I ask the front desk if they are hiring and if their manager is here and they say, "No, sorry, but we can pass it forward." Then, behold! The manager of the hotel walks behind the counter and down a staff hallway.
Im so fuckibg sick of people.
My only condolence is that, ironically, I am not being treated much differently than a fox tends to be, haha.. FUCK.

This world is such a fucking downer, man.
There should be one more wifi connection point on my way out of town, ill make my final post from there.
Bless you all.

Saw your post earlier today, didn't dare to reply since it had been some time since it was posted. I hoped for you to get treated better, but here we are. I hope you have a good rest my friend. If you want to talk a bit before your last breath, feel free to reply. Farewell.

I can talk but just for a short time until I finish this meal.
Yeah, I hoped id be treated better too. Hope hasn't ever done much other than give me heartbreak, idk about you.

 

[Kiraya]

First, thanks to everyone that came and spoke with me in my thread yesterday.
I really appreciated and continue to appreciate it.
I'm getting kicked out of the place I've been sleeping even though I did absolutely nothing to anybody here, just been minding my own business.
They want me to go to the shelter, but I am not going to one of those fucking places again. Never again. So, this is the end of the line.
My plan is to withdraw what money I have in savings, clean up, get a cab, go buy a copious amount of weed, go out into the wood, walk until my legs refuse to carry me, smoke/eat it all until im sufficiently numbed, then I am just going to sever arteries until I lose the ability to move. I wish I had more time to prepare a better way, but it is what it is. At least I will die relatively quickly, and the pain will be transient.
My body won't be found, I am leaving it for the wildlife.
Thank you to everyone here and elsewhere who has been kind and compassionate with me. It means so much to me, you can't possibly know. I'll check the thread every few mins til I leave for the woods; I'll send a final message when it is time to go. Again, thank you guys so much. Gods bless you, truly.

P.S. Here's probably the most effort I have ever put into an artwork in my life. I may suck at drawing but I hope you like it anyways ^^. Cheers everybody.

i hope you find peace. goodbye

 

[rêve]

I'm really sorry to hear this. I wish we had more time to speak, but you got to do what you got to do. This really sucks though, sometime people think they help, but they are just adding more to the rage, this little fire that is inside of us. Sorry for not responding earlier, I didn't stop thinking about you in the mean time.

 

[endofafoxtwo]

No worries anon.

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Per ardua ad astra

 

[NorthernMonkey]

I love your artwork. I could see that as an album cover. I hope you are feeling ok, well as ok as can be expected. I wish I could help you, can you not get a hotel just for tonight so you aren't rushing everything?

 

[rêve]

When do you think you'll be going?

I love your artwork. I could see that as an album cover.

Forgot to mention it earlier, but yeah he is right. You can see it was made thoughfully.