Well I always come back here

[Jamesun]

Hello, it's me again, strangely I always come back here, I feel confident being here.
Lately I feel horrible, I feel like I'm a disappointment to everyone who knows me, I feel like I've exhausted my friends, lately I feel like I'd be better off dead.I feel helpless knowing that I am even useless and a coward who cannot end his pathetic life, I feel cornered, I genuinely want to leave, I want everyone to forget me and disappear.
I want to leave but I don't want to hurt people around me and I'm also a worthless fucking coward who can't just genuinely kill me I don't know what to do anymore I want it all to end

 

[Zero Two]

I get what you are saying :( today I had a great day until everything fell apart. Now im back here and i remember how useless i am and how miserable my life truly is. Some days are just worse than others and it sucks, having to live without wanting to live fucking sucks.

 

[Jamesun]

I get what you are saying :( today I had a great day until everything fell apart. Now im back here and i remember how useless i am and how miserable my life truly is. Some days are just worse than others and it sucks, having to live without wanting to live fucking sucks.

You know, I feel a little calm knowing that there are people who feel exactly the same as me.You know, I feel a little calm knowing that there are people who feel exactly the same as me.

 

[Zero Two]

You know, I feel a little calm knowing that there are people who feel exactly the same as me.You know, I feel a little calm knowing that there are people who feel exactly the same as me.

Im so sorry you have to go through this :( i really think no one deserves to feel this way. Sadly its the life we have, the fucked up brain we live with, others dont understand but youre not alone. Theres a couple of us who struggle with this sadly.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's really understandable just wishing to be free from all the suffering as it's true that existing here certainly is so torturous, I think that if someone struggles to leave this world it doesn't necessarily mean that they are cowardly as suicide really is so unnecessarily difficult in this horrible world.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I'm right there with you my friend, and you are definitely not alone here. Most of us here feel the same way.
I'm lucky that I have nobody in this world but myself: I am completely alone. Yet, I understand how dreadful it must feel to be worried about leaving loved ones behind.
Loved ones chain you to this dreadful world, so therefore you are stuck in a kind of push-pull limbo. You desperately need to leave this existence, yet the chains of love for your family and friends keep pulling you back .

 

[plain_jane]

I think as long as you're asking the question whether you want to live or not, you can't be called a coward. If your actions say you want to live for the day, then there's nothing cowardly about it. Truthfully, it's a scary kind of person who doesn't hesitate to kill someone, even if that someone is themself.
Whether or not you choose to cease to breathe, I will carry you in my thoughts.
Slightly off topic, but I also very much enjoyed the Monster anime.