Venting Welfare check completely destroyed my trust in my therapist

[willitpass]

I started my first session with this therapist telling her that I have high chronic suicidal thinking and did not want a therapist who was going to just call 911 in a panic. She assured me she was comfortable with that and was not going to do anything rash and understood I have a high baseline. I have been doing rough lately, and my suicidal thoughts have been worse, however I was actually feeling okay today and was looking forward to a session to be able to process through some other things. She had me fill out a suicide risk screener prior to our session, however those are not an accurate risk assessment for me because as I stated, she is aware of my high chronic suicidal thoughts. I came into session and pretty much immediately she said I needed to get someone to take me to the ER or she would call 911. I told her I didn't need to go, I was not going to do anything, and I felt plenty safe to go home. After about 10 minutes she made it clear she was not going to change her mind. I left and went home. Obviously I got welfare checked.

She knows my trauma with hospitals. She assured me she was comfortable with my high suicidal thinking from the get go. And while I've been doing worse lately, I was actually doing decent today. I have not reached a point of even actively planning a date to CTB. My eating disorder has been bad, including laxative abuse, but I am not medically unstable yet. I have not been self-harming. And when I say there is not a damn thing a hospital can do for me anymore, that is no exaggeration. I have no trust in her. I don't think I will be returning to therapy.

 

[CravingPeace]

Definitely don't return to her. She clearly can't keep her word.

 

[bankai]

Quite unprofessional and absurd. Therapists aren't supposed to force you into anything. They aren't supposed to take unilateral decisions. They've got to work with you.




Also, what's this about laxative abuse? Does it have anything to do with your username?

 

[Rynalia]

Bail and never look back. A therapist that can't respect you nor work with you is not worth your time nor your money.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Yeah, I'd say any trust you had with them is certainly broken now.

 

[qualityOV3Rquantity]

Also, what's this about laxative abuse? Does it have anything to do with your username?

Laxative abuse is quite common among people with eating disorders, because of the desire to feel empty/lighter. I don't have an ED and thus don't want to misrepresent anything, but this is my understanding.