Weird situation

[Capsicum_Corral]

I'm just curious if anyone else has any thoughts about this. It's ok to think I am simply schizophrenic. I believe my situation is real but I definitely have mental health issues.

In my non-professional understanding of schizophrenia, beside being incurable, the main day to day problem is that knowing you have it doesn't help, and doesn't prevent the symptoms of paranoia and such from appearing to be valid perceptions.

When I first heard about Targeted Individuals (TIs) and gang stalking, I ended up watching a ton of videos they posted on youtube. While their beliefs are technically possible with pinhole cameras and all kinds of monitoring technologies, these unfortunate individuals were 100% exhibiting blatant symptoms of mental illness. Not just because they'd 'uncovered plots against themselves', but clearly far beyond that.

1.) Why keep the naked pictures and videos a secret from me? Plenty of people have naked pictures and videos sent out or on the internet and their family, friends, or coworkers notify them. How does it help anyone by keeping it a secret from me?
2.) Why are these people doing this to me? What is the purpose? I'm not even embarrassed anymore and honestly just confused. What bothers me the most is that nobody will admit these pictures and videos exist. It's like a giant game to everyone.
3.) Is it possible there is a gag order in place by the police/courts or my employer?

1. Agreed that there seems to be no basis for keeping naked pics and videos of you a secret from you in particular.
2. No one admitting to seeing pics and videos, along with no apparent purpose, points at least a little bit towards your own perceptions possibly not working correctly.
3. Gag orders DO exist, but are reserved for pretty special occasions.

If you've been involved in weird sex cult activities with important people, then there may be a (tiny) chance these pics and videos are real. I wish I could tell you I think that might be a possibility. However, the way you talk about this and the way you describe what you believe is happening is not leading me in that direction. I think you said you have a doctor now? Hate the idea of going on drugs, but that might be worth talking to your doctor about. Lifestyle changes might help too. Maybe if you could be in a place where you don't encounter so many random people, and perhaps be more in nature?

From everything you're saying here, it does sound like it's a problem you're having with your perceptions. I hope you can get that worked out or minimized in some way.

 

[noaccount]

Phone sex or "cam sex" is a perfectly okay and healthy thing for consenting people to do, a way that many people choose to experience intimacy, and everyone deserves to be safe in doing so.
Unfortunately, - "Revenge porn" or "leaking nudes" (a sexual exploitation crime), is a common problem in today's society.

 

[Gordy99]

I'm so sorry this is happening to you.

Thanks. I'm assuming you believe that I am actually being spied on? I might be schizophrenic or have a mental illness but the rookit detections don't lie.

In my non-professional understanding of schizophrenia, beside being incurable, the main day to day problem is that knowing you have it doesn't help, and doesn't prevent the symptoms of paranoia and such from appearing to be valid perceptions.

When I first heard about Targeted Individuals (TIs) and gang stalking, I ended up watching a ton of videos they posted on youtube. While their beliefs are technically possible with pinhole cameras and all kinds of monitoring technologies, these unfortunate individuals were 100% exhibiting blatant symptoms of mental illness. Not just because they'd 'uncovered plots against themselves', but clearly far beyond that.


1. Agreed that there seems to be no basis for keeping naked pics and videos of you a secret from you in particular.
2. No one admitting to seeing pics and videos, along with no apparent purpose, points at least a little bit towards your own perceptions possibly not working correctly.
3. Gag orders DO exist, but are reserved for pretty special occasions.

If you've been involved in weird sex cult activities with important people, then there may be a (tiny) chance these pics and videos are real. I wish I could tell you I think that might be a possibility. However, the way you talk about this and the way you describe what you believe is happening is not leading me in that direction. I think you said you have a doctor now? Hate the idea of going on drugs, but that might be worth talking to your doctor about. Lifestyle changes might help too. Maybe if you could be in a place where you don't encounter so many random people, and perhaps be more in nature?

From everything you're saying here, it does sound like it's a problem you're having with your perceptions. I hope you can get that worked out or minimized in some way.

A lot of gangstalking victims have mental illness which is why they are targeted. There are though some victims who are normal and yet still get targeted. It's easier to target someone with a mental illness because they are less believable when they complain about the bizarre things happening to them along with the harassment. The victims (including myself) sometimes go far beyond the harassment because it's difficult to distinguish between the gangstalking and bad luck. Also, once you have been victimized for a long time you start to believe that these people are capable of just about anything which isn't necessarily true.

1.) I agree. The whole thing seems odd.
2.) I disagree. I don't have the magic answer but it's definitely possible for everyone to keep it a secret from me if they want to. It might be odd but it's definitely possible.
3.) Perhaps I'm a special occasion which is why nobody has told me anything. I get the feeling that the police are investigating something else going on in my life and are using me as bait to catch a group of people doing something. There has been sabotage going on at my job for a very long time that I have information about. There are insurance companies and other companies that have lost thousands or possibly millions of dollars because of this sabotage. I don't agree with the sabotage but some of it helps me with my job and makes me look like a hero. So I don't know if there are two groups of people here or one group. One group is helping me and the other is screwing with me or it's all the same people.

By the way, did you look at my screen shot of the rootkits on my computer? To clarify a little...the rootkits are detectable by this program but can't be removed. Every time I try to remove them the process fails.

 

[ThriveOrDie]

Thanks. I'm assuming you believe that I am actually being spied on? I might be schizophrenic or have a mental illness but the rookit detections don't lie.

I believe it is possible but I am not an expert on gang-stalking or schizophrenia

 

[Capsicum_Corral]

By the way, did you look at my screen shot of the rootkits on my computer? To clarify a little...the rootkits are detectable by this program but can't be removed. Every time I try to remove them the process fails.

Just glanced. "I am not good at computer", as the meme goes. I think rootkits are a type of malware that gives the operator control over your computer?

Not necessarily too late now, but if or when you get a new computer, get uMatrix for your browser so you can block or enable all elements websites want to load onto your device. If that's too much work for every website, uBlock Origin is a more automatic script and malware blocker, but with a bit less control.

I hope you're able to get this ended, resolved, or mitigated. That's gotta be pretty uncomfortable. I know I would be.

 

[Gordy99]

Just glanced. "I am not good at computer", as the meme goes. I think rootkits are a type of malware that gives the operator control over your computer?

Not necessarily too late now, but if or when you get a new computer, get uMatrix for your browser so you can block or enable all elements websites want to load onto your device. If that's too much work for every website, uBlock Origin is a more automatic script and malware blocker, but with a bit less control.

I hope you're able to get this ended, resolved, or mitigated. That's gotta be pretty uncomfortable. I know I would be.

That is correct. I'm not sure if there are 5 separate groups of people spying. Not 100% sure. I just know they have control over my computer.

I bought a new computer in October, 2021. Within 10 minutes of connecting it to the internet I had a rootkit. The only website I visited was the one to download spydll remover. I use ublock origin. The rookits aren't coming from websites I am visiting. They are coming from the people who are spying on me. They have all of my devices/router/modem hacked. I can change the computer or phone every day and it will be hacked. I can change the router and modem and they will be hacked. I have been dealing with this for years. I even re-formatted computers in the past and the rookits always come back.

The sad part is that traditional programs like Malwarebytes and Kaspersky do not detect these rootkits. The only program that detects it is spydll remover. As far as I can tell it's custom malware that is difficult to remove.

 

[noaccount]

That is correct. I'm not sure if there are 5 separate groups of people spying. Not 100% sure. I just know they have control over my computer.

I bought a new computer in October, 2021. Within 10 minutes of connecting it to the internet I had a rootkit. The only website I visited was the one to download spydll remover. I use ublock origin. The rookits aren't coming from websites I am visiting. They are coming from the people who are spying on me. They have all of my devices/router/modem hacked. I can change the computer or phone every day and it will be hacked. I can change the router and modem and they will be hacked. I have been dealing with this for years. I even re-formatted computers in the past and the rookits always come back.

The sad part is that traditional programs like Malwarebytes and Kaspersky do not detect these rootkits. The only program that detects it is spydll remover. As far as I can tell it's custom malware that is difficult to remove.

I do not know much about how this works, but would it be ok with you if I showed the spydllremover screenshot to someone I know who does cybersecurity work professionally?

 

[Gordy99]

I do not know much about how this works, but would it be ok with you if I showed the spydllremover screenshot to someone I know who does cybersecurity work professionally?

Yes I am fine with that. Unfortunately the author of the spydll remover program stopped updating it in 2016. If you know people that have any ideas as to how to remove the rookits then please let me know. You can always PM me if you don't want to post here. Also, let them know that the rootkit detections only appear if I run the spydll remover program as an administrator. I right click the .exe and click run as administrator and then I run the scan.

 

[Disappointered]

This is such a crazy and sad story...because it has happened to others and is indeed possible. I used to think it was an interesting but a bit far-fetched conspiracy theory. But like so many "outrageous" conspiracy theories, as time goes by it becomes more and more plausible. I'm sorry you have to deal with this OP.

Curiously, the reason I found this thread today was that I was looking for a thread in which I could ask a computer question but something totally bizarre just happened today (!) that I believe falls into this category ("gang stalking" / cointelpro / police provocation). It's fucked up and forces me to try to overcome SI with greater urgency. Anyway.

The question I am hoping someone can answer is:

When you bookmark pages on your browser does that mean the page keeps generating a cookie every time you open the browser?

 

[Gordy99]

This is such a crazy and sad story...because it has happened to others and is indeed possible. I used to think it was an interesting but a bit far-fetched conspiracy theory. But like so many "outrageous" conspiracy theories, as time goes by it becomes more and more plausible. I'm sorry you have to deal with this OP.

Curiously, the reason I found this thread today was that I was looking for a thread in which I could ask a computer question but something totally bizarre just happened today (!) that I believe falls into this category ("gang stalking" / cointelpro / police provocation). It's fucked up and forces me to try to overcome SI with greater urgency. Anyway.

The question I am hoping someone can answer is:

When you bookmark pages on your browser does that mean the page keeps generating a cookie every time you open the browser?

I am curious as to why you think my story is plausible when everyone else thinks I am just mentally ill. Any clue as to why everyone out there is keeping the pictures/videos a secret from me? My best guess is there is a gag order but I could be wrong.

To answer your question I think visiting the website generates a cookie and not the bookmark itself. I don't think a new cookie is generated every time you visit sites unless you are regularly clearing your browsing history and cookies in the browser.

 

[Disappointered]

I am curious as to why you think my story is plausible when everyone else thinks I am just mentally ill. Any clue as to why everyone out there is keeping the pictures/videos a secret from me? My best guess is there is a gag order but I could be wrong.

To answer your question I think visiting the website generates a cookie and not the bookmark itself. I don't think a new cookie is generated every time you visit sites unless you are regularly clearing your browsing history and cookies in the browser.

These organized harassment scenarios are so bizarre and outrageous that i think there isn't always a perfectly rational explanation. I think some of it is psychological experimentation to see how people respond. If it's happening because of the photos it could be carefully released to subjects who've already been initiated into some sort of social structure that enables minor levels of control over them, such as being told not to ever mention it for whatever reason, however implausible it may seem to an objective observer. The idea of a gag order could be one way of achieving that, even if there isn't a real one.

 

[whatevs]

These organized harassment scenarios are so bizarre and outrageous that i think there isn't always a perfectly rational explanation. I think some of it is psychological experimentation to see how people respond. If it's happening because of the photos it could be carefully released to subjects who've already been initiated into some sort of social structure that enables minor levels of control over them, such as being told not to ever mention it for whatever reason, however implausible it may seem to an objective observer. The idea of a gag order could be one way of achieving that, even if there isn't a real one.

The most likely explanation is that Gordy is delusional. If I were Gordy I would at least consider it, given that there isn't any actual proof of what Gordy says they are doing. For example, why not look on mental health forums and check what people that admit to having paranoid delusions talk about?

I assure you it's an exact copy of what Gordy narrated. Nonsensical monitoring and harassment of a nobody that no one would invest those kind of resources in, lack of proof that they try to justify like Gordy with "they would hack the cameras if I put them/they hack them if I already have them", etc.

 

[Disappointered]

The most likely explanation is that Gordy is delusional. If I were Gordy I would at least consider it, given that there isn't any actual proof of what Gordy says they are doing. For example, why not look on mental health forums and check what people that admit to having paranoid delusions talk about?

I assure you it's an exact copy of what Gordy narrated. Nonsensical monitoring and harassment of a nobody that no one would invest those kind of resources in, lack of proof that they try to justify like Gordy with "they would hack the cameras if I put them/they hack them if I already have them", etc.

Except that it is plausible and organized harassment does happen, so whatever mental illnesses OP may or may not have doesn't change anything. "most likely" shouldn't negate other possibilities and he's already considered mental illness.

 

[whatevs]

Except that it is plausible and organized harassment does happen, so whatever mental illnesses OP may or may not have doesn't change anything. "most likely" shouldn't negate other possibilities and he's already considered mental illness.

I don't think so, I interacted with the OP in another thread and he hasn't considered it. Considering it is to really pretend that it's a delusion for a while and see how it goes.

Organized harassment for someone that has no sworn enemies and isn't famous isn't a thing.

 

[unraveling]

The sad part is that traditional programs like Malwarebytes and Kaspersky do not detect these rootkits. The only program that detects it is spydll remover. As far as I can tell it's custom malware that is difficult to remove.

There are unethical people who claim you have a problem and then magically, they are the only ones who can fix it. And of course, charge you money for it. When reputable companies like Malwarebytes and Kaspersky can't find any rootkits but this completely no name joke spydll company can, it's safe to disregard anything they say. There are lots of companies like this on the internet, and let me guess, you found this company cos it had a "pop up" on your computer while you were visiting some random website. No ethical antivirus company does that, unless you already previous have that program installed and you're paying them a monthly subscription to protect your computer. And even then, there would only be a small notification in the bottom right hand corner of your screen and depending how you set the program up, it would either automatically take care of it or ask you what you wanted the computer to do with it.

Again, there is NO serious ethical professional antivirus company which will put a giant pop up on your computer. ALL of those can safely be ignored.

Anyway sweetie, I am so very sorry, that's a horrible diagnosis for anyone to have. You however are being very very brave and it sounds like you're actually doing super, with only a few symptoms and handled pretty well with meds! But, and gently now, it does sound like some form of schizophrenia to me. A mental health issue is more plausible then someone starring in their own Truman Show with Jim Carrey

Stay well and keep posting about this if it makes you feel better and not be afraid to tell people here what you need. Maybe you want people to stop telling you that they think it's schizophrenia and would rather people just say that they don't think X is a gangstalking because Y? It's up to you.

 

[Disappointered]

I don't think so, I interacted with the OP in another thread and he hasn't considered it. Considering it is to really pretend that it's a delusion for a while and see how it goes.

Organized harassment for someone that has no sworn enemies and isn't famous isn't a thing.

I don't know what he said in the other thread but in this one he's responded to people - who have never been with him or anywhere in proximity to him during the incidents - telling him it's schizophrenia. He's freely deliberated with other posters about the fact that he's been on meds that make him feel calm and that his diagnosis isn't schizophrenia. He's shown them screenshots of his computer.

I guess he should pretend it's all in his head and see what happens, maybe for a set period of time with a support friend - not a therapist. What period of time? A month? Are trustworthy people going to be overseeing the situation? It's worth trying but if he doesn't change his mind after a month does it go to six months? Does it go to a year? Does it go to seventeen years? Does it go on indefinitely like psychotherapy?

The only other thing he could do would be to shovel more schizo treatment pills down this throat and see if the same thing continues. But if the social situations and harassment disappear, will it be because the pills - which he takes already and said make him feel more calm as is the experience with most who've ever taken them even in small doses off-label - made his perceptions dull? Because the pills made his behaviour less noticeable, whereupon people forgot about him and consequently, what he believes are jokes about rumours of photos died down? Or because all this time he needed to have his perceptions altered by large doses of the right medications - that could prevent someone from ever really knowing what's going on around them - that finally expunged events that never existed outside of his mind? There's no way of knowing so I guess if he's not famous or doesn't have sworn enemies we should just assume he should medicate himself and then we can be sure(?) that it was always in his mind.

To be fair though, I'm not sure it's prudent to insist that organized harassment for someone with no enemies (that we know of) never happens. I guess if you really believe bad people don't ever organize among themselves and that the system is transparent about its resources and works perfectly, then that possibility can be negated by great people in an infallible system with easy to understand totally transparent finances and ethically perfect secret activities. In that case people could feel fine about imposing an armchair psychiatric diagnosis on a situation in order to explain it. They could justify their belief by talking about likelihoods - which people would then argue about within the already contested premise that the system never cheats, thereby ascribing unwarranted probity to everything emanating from the system and denying warranted probity to anything emanating from sources the system has already "discredited" - but they'd still be wrong to claim it's impossible.

I don't see nearly as much reason to have confidence in human nature or society's checks and balances so I think it's plausible that a form of organized harassment has happened to OP. The OP has attempted to explain things by recalling that he used to be on video a lot over the internet. That sounds like a plausible scenario that could be used as a foundation for subtle and deniable social harassment. Since I don't have as much faith in the world as some do, I conclude, based on the limited proximity to the situation that I have, that organized harassment shouldn't be ruled out and that it's actually all the more plausible given the OP has already been in treatment for mental illness yet still believes it's organized harassment.

@Gordy99 Have you tried pretending it's not real? I hope you can attempt something like that with the help of unbiased people (again, not therapists and in fact, not most people). I do hope some sort of effort at "considering" that it's exclusively in your mind by pretending it is can resolve the situation, even though it still won't prove that everything you've experienced thus far and the explanations you came up with were exclusively in your mind and incorrect. However, it could make whatever may or may not be real disappear for whatever reason. Including reasons other than that you're schizophrenic.

 

[noaccount]

There are sadly entire websites of pathetic predatory freaks like kiwifarms that are devoted entirely to finding people to mob and harass for no fucking reason at all.

No e-diagnosing people or falsely claiming medical authority here.

 

[Gordy99]

These organized harassment scenarios are so bizarre and outrageous that i think there isn't always a perfectly rational explanation. I think some of it is psychological experimentation to see how people respond. If it's happening because of the photos it could be carefully released to subjects who've already been initiated into some sort of social structure that enables minor levels of control over them, such as being told not to ever mention it for whatever reason, however implausible it may seem to an objective observer. The idea of a gag order could be one way of achieving that, even if there isn't a real one.

These scenarios are definitely bizarre and unfortunately hard to prove. I agree that it's psychological experimentation to some degree. The rest of it in my opinion is entertainment for these people. It's like watching a movie or TV show.

The most likely explanation is that Gordy is delusional. If I were Gordy I would at least consider it, given that there isn't any actual proof of what Gordy says they are doing. For example, why not look on mental health forums and check what people that admit to having paranoid delusions talk about?

I assure you it's an exact copy of what Gordy narrated. Nonsensical monitoring and harassment of a nobody that no one would invest those kind of resources in, lack of proof that they try to justify like Gordy with "they would hack the cameras if I put them/they hack them if I already have them", etc.

We are going to have to agree to disagree on this one. I am not delusional. I stated in this thread and other threads that I have some type of mental illness and that I am on medication. You can have a mental illness and still get targeted by this harassment. If you don't believe in gangstalking/organized harassment then you probably will never believe my situation (which is fine). I don't know why these people spend their time harassing a nobody like me. It truly doesn't make sense but it doesn't change the fact that it's happening. If it makes you feel better...this type of harassment is happening to lot's of other people. Perhaps the harassment is not identical but it's still happening in some form.

There are unethical people who claim you have a problem and then magically, they are the only ones who can fix it. And of course, charge you money for it. When reputable companies like Malwarebytes and Kaspersky can't find any rootkits but this completely no name joke spydll company can, it's safe to disregard anything they say. There are lots of companies like this on the internet, and let me guess, you found this company cos it had a "pop up" on your computer while you were visiting some random website. No ethical antivirus company does that, unless you already previous have that program installed and you're paying them a monthly subscription to protect your computer. And even then, there would only be a small notification in the bottom right hand corner of your screen and depending how you set the program up, it would either automatically take care of it or ask you what you wanted the computer to do with it.

Again, there is NO serious ethical professional antivirus company which will put a giant pop up on your computer. ALL of those can safely be ignored.

Anyway sweetie, I am so very sorry, that's a horrible diagnosis for anyone to have. You however are being very very brave and it sounds like you're actually doing super, with only a few symptoms and handled pretty well with meds! But, and gently now, it does sound like some form of schizophrenia to me. A mental health issue is more plausible then someone starring in their own Truman Show with Jim Carrey

Stay well and keep posting about this if it makes you feel better and not be afraid to tell people here what you need. Maybe you want people to stop telling you that they think it's schizophrenia and would rather people just say that they don't think X is a gangstalking because Y? It's up to you.

Ok...I think you are confused or misread my past posts. Spydll remover is a program and not a company. The program was written by an individual person and last updated in 2016. It's the only program that detects the hidden rootkits on my computers but I never said it could remove them. In fact I previously mentioned that spydll remover is unable to remove the hidden rootkits.

@Lovequenel I don't feel like quoting more posts. I have already tried to pretend my situation isn't real and it does not work. My brain and mind know it's real because people I know and interact with regularly talk about it. I overhear their conversations. "Did you get the video of Gordy jerking off?" That is a real comment a female made to another female several years ago. I didn't conjure up the statement. I have increased my medication and all it does is make me tired. It doesn't convince me that my situation is fake.

 

[whatevs]

These scenarios are definitely bizarre and unfortunately hard to prove. I agree that it's psychological experimentation to some degree. The rest of it in my opinion is entertainment for these people. It's like watching a movie or TV show.



We are going to have to agree to disagree on this one. I am not delusional. I stated in this thread and other threads that I have some type of mental illness and that I am on medication. You can have a mental illness and still get targeted by this harassment. If you don't believe in gangstalking/organized harassment then you probably will never believe my situation (which is fine). I don't know why these people spend their time harassing a nobody like me. It truly doesn't make sense but it doesn't change the fact that it's happening. If it makes you feel better...this type of harassment is happening to lot's of other people. Perhaps the harassment is not identical but it's still happening in some form.



Ok...I think you are confused or misread my past posts. Spydll remover is a program and not a company. The program was written by an individual person and last updated in 2016. It's the only program that detects the hidden rootkits on my computers but I never said it could remove them. In fact I previously mentioned that spydll remover is unable to remove the hidden rootkits.

@Lovequenel I don't feel like quoting more posts. I have already tried to pretend my situation isn't real and it does not work. My brain and mind know it's real because people I know and interact with regularly talk about it. I overhear their conversations. "Did you get the video of Gordy jerking off?" That is a real comment a female made to another female several years ago. I didn't conjure up the statement. I have increased my medication and all it does is make me tired. It doesn't convince me that my situation is fake.

I can sense how much you are suffering. I believe you are delusional but your pain is real. I hope you stop suffering and you have my support. I'm a mental illness sufferer too. I only interact with your threads to try to help you and hopefully it doesn't look in any other way.

 

[noaccount]

Anyway, we don't do victim blaming here.
We don't believe, or pretend, that every person who's been stalked and victimized by mobbing websites like that has been "a bad person" or otherwise deserved it.

Hope everyone reading here at Sanctioned Suicide knows that we honor their choices about life/death, and fully acknowledge the cultural and political horrors that push so many to suicide, which are worth grieving and are never condoned here.

 

[Gordy99]

I can sense how much you are suffering. I believe you are delusional but your pain is real. I hope you stop suffering and you have my support. I'm a mental illness sufferer too. I only interact with your threads to try to help you and hopefully it doesn't look in any other way.

I wouldn't say I am suffering. I am just very confused about why naked pictures and videos are being kept a secret from me. I don't even care about an explanation for the harassment. I would be satisfied with just seeing the pictures/videos and given a lot of money.

Dear Gangstalkers,

I command you to send the content to whatevs.

You should be receiving the content shortly lol

 

[whatevs]

I wouldn't say I am suffering. I am just very confused about why naked pictures and videos are being kept a secret from me. I don't even care about an explanation for the harassment. I would be satisfied with just seeing the pictures/videos and given a lot of money.

Dear Gangstalkers,

I command you to send the content to whatevs.

You should be receiving the content shortly lol

I'm looking forward to those spicy pics, haha.

But on a serious note, you do have some angst related to gang-stalking, don't you? That's why you make these threads. These persecutory delusions must be very fucking stressful. I have social paranoia and any slightly offensive remark sends me into hours of rumination. And I feel that people in their cars are observing me unfavorably, etc.

 

[noaccount]

@RainAndSadness @Meretlein @Persephone ❦ - If you're not familiar, the website in question is one where mostly queer people and disabled / neurodivergent people are being mobbed/trolled, and I really don't think Sanctioned Suicide is meant to be a platform for saying that those victims are bringing it on themselves by being "morally questionable" or "not working on their mental problems enough."

 

[Gordy99]

I'm looking forward to those spicy pics, haha.

But on a serious note, you do have some angst related to gang-stalking, don't you? That's why you make these threads. These persecutory delusions must be very fucking stressful. I have social paranoia and any slightly offensive remark sends me into hours of rumination. And I feel that people in their cars are observing me unfavorably, etc.

I'm expecting a private message with the content if you receive it and an apology for calling me delusional :)

I guess I do have some anger towards the gangstalking. Again, I don't have the exact motives pinpointed. I can only speculate. The gangstalking is just so ridiculous at times that I don't even know what to do. Dried paint marks on clothes, kitchen cabinets, my bathroom floor, and my car are just ridiculous. I have other examples but I don't really care to share them.

I used to get offended when people made remarks behind my back and to my face. Honestly, I don't really care now what other people think of me.

 

[noaccount]

Gordy I'm so sorry that someone is falsely claiming authority to call you 'schizophrenic' while he's simultaniously... praising and promoting websites that exist solely to stalk and harass people.

 

[Gordy99]

Gordy I'm so sorry that someone is falsely claiming authority to call you 'schizophrenic' while he's simultaniously... praising and promoting websites that exist solely to stalk and harass people.

It is what it is. I have learned to accept the fact that certain people won't agree with me.

By the way... @whatevs I don't really get stressed out that much. The medication helps control stress and makes me very calm.

 

[PurpleMonkey]

Hey Gordy! Little late on the train here but wanted to pitch in my 2-cents.

The matter of whether or not the pictures are real is irrelevant: the fact is that they are real to you. We think therefore we are, and your online activity during your young adulthood has made you feel perpetually judged, mocked and vilified. That's a super unfortunate burden to bare and you should know that there is no shame in engaging in online eroticism with or for consenting adults. It's a victimless activity and while it may go against your current attitudes it is not a phase that you should hold against yourself.

Beyond getting further inquiry into your mental health, I'd recommend speaking with counsellors about your past use and/or participation with pornography and emotionally navigate those memories. As a survivor of SA, the best remedy is simply to talk about it; to divulge your honest feelings and slowly but surely shake that stigma off your shoulders.

 

[whatevs]

Gordy I'm so sorry that someone is falsely claiming authority to call you 'schizophrenic' while he's simultaniously... praising and promoting websites that exist solely to stalk and harass people.

I don't think I praised them, but I find some of their stuff interesting yes. I don't know what you are trying to do here. Saying that I like some kiwifarms threads where you find info there is nowhere else of some people I follow doesn't mean I'm into harassing anyone. I only liked that aspect of that forum, the information unearthed, not the harassing if it was talked about.

And yeah, the two or three people I saw with threads in it were at best dishonest with their audience.

Obviously you are the one encouraging Gordy's issues while pretending to have the higher moral ground. And trying to get someone banned just because they like some edgy Internet culture is also super slimy. Good luck with that.

 

[Gordy99]

@whatevs So did you receive the content yet or what?

I know most people don't believe in gangstalking/organized harassment and that is fine. The police in some capacity are definitely investigating it and watching it happen to me. I had some conversations over the phone in the recent past that I vividly remember (my phones are tapped). Something happened to me this week that leads me to believe the police are investigating my situation more than I thought. It's almost as if they are pretending they aren't when in reality they are. What they did this week was actually quite clever. It took a little while for me to piece this particular instance together. I'm purposely being vague because I don't want to give away what they did. The bottom line though is that it feels like the police are always one step behind which is a problem. I hope their clever activity helps nudge things in the right direction.

Anyway, I hope one day very soon I can get closure even if the harassment doesn't stop. Also, @PurpleMonkey I'm not necessarily carrying a burden from my past. I did some weird stuff in my past and it isn't who I am today. I have changed. I just don't think it's fair to have this content that occurred in the past to be spread to millions of people. As I said in the first post of this thread...I'm not embarrassed anymore and more so just confused. I just want to see the content and get a lot of money to help with my situation. There are a lot of companies that have failed to protect me in regards to this content that is being sent around.

 

[PurpleMonkey]

With the utmost respect, unless you're a politician, business man, mobster, sex offender, celebrity, diplomat, oligarch or cult leader, the police will not be monitoring your communications. The government can and will detect certain trigger words that might indicate illegal content and then, if those words are used frequently in a recurring manner by a single source then they investigate. Reading how intelligent and respectable you are, it's clear that you are an upstanding citizen and that nobody - police or otherwise - would consider you to be a person of interest in any investigation.

I've done sketchy shit on the web before, and have made plenty of embarrassing sexed-up videos before. If a grand conspiracy of sharing content was possible for a commoner like you or me then it would be directed to me as well and I would be privy of it. But I assure you, neither one of us are being targeted. We're only targeting ourselves.[