anorexic-pigeon
Member
- Feb 29, 2020
- 38
I tried slitting my wrists tonight. Probably got through the epidermis before I stopped. That's not even as deep as I've gone before. I feel like shit and a coward. I can't do anything right...
Since you're new to this forum, welcome to SS. I'm so sorry to hear about your failed attempt, you are not a coward and I can sympathize with how you feel. Personally, I wouldn't recommend slicing your wrists as a ctb method because it's unreliable, painful and could potentially leave you worse off than before.
For resources, feel free to read the resource compilation thread as well as this list of warnings thread.
For resources, feel free to read the resource compilation thread as well as this list of warnings thread.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/a-list-of-warnings.9207/
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rntmss
Taking it one day at a time
- Feb 7, 2020
- 197
You're not a coward. Don't ever think that.
We're all human and on a very basic level, we all want to keep living. Don't fault for yourself foryour genetic makeup.
We're all human and on a very basic level, we all want to keep living. Don't fault for yourself foryour genetic makeup.
anorexic-pigeon
Member
- Feb 29, 2020
- 38
Thank you. I'm just very emotional right now. I really just want to die but seeing my own blood like that... I wanted to throw up.
It's the most reliable method I have available to me
Though I don't want to lose movement in my hands. I'm a guitarist and if I'm really not suicidal(which I know I am) I couldn't bear to not play
SadHam
Once a happy ham, now a sad ham.
- Feb 9, 2020
- 26
Your not a coward, I want to kill myself constantly. And I still haven't, although I too feel like a coward. Your a human and have base levels of survival instincts that are hard to overcome. Above that it's tough, to let go from this. Few do it it despite the suffering. Possibly one of the hardest things to do in life. Just being here messaging right now puts you in the top 1% of humans with capacity to survive against your own self. Think of all the ignorant masses their that suffer without considering an exit. Masses and masses of free slaves. Welcome to the tyranny of true conciousness. We all live here a unique version of a personal hell. Funnily enough I think together we would all live somewhat peaceful, but separated and impoverished most of us are. Sending love, sorry for my rambles, request art and I'll paint it for you when I have private space to create.
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
Ur far from a coward, my love..u chose prob one of the most difficult methods...sending love 
AlreadyGone
Taking it day by day
- Jan 11, 2020
- 917
There is nothing cowardly at all when it comes to CTB. It takes a lot of courage to actually go through with the act.
PhilosOfDoom
Experienced
- Nov 22, 2019
- 207
You're not a "coward." You went through and attempted such a painful method. Not to mention, gory. You've already gone through what's caused you to do this, and now you're enduring actual attempts. That's one hell of a determination. If you ever want to talk, I'm free. People on this site are meant to be a community, so whether you recover, fail an attempt, feel down, or anything else, feel free to talk to members. Good luck.
