Was given hope

[Flying Away]

I decided not to ctb because i was given hope. Less than a week later its taken away. I was a fool to believe. All i do is mess up. In more pain and anguish than ever. If I had just ignored it everything would be over but i believed there was a chance of happiness. Now thats all disappeared today. No more waiting, no more believing in the chance of normalcy. Tonight it ends. Now it ends. 7pm lights out for good. Thank you everyone.

 

[Darkover]

whats your method to kill yourself tonight at 7pm? hanging? sn? jumping? what

 

[FuneralCry]

This life is so cruel and unfair. I can imagine that it must be devastating to lose the hope that you had. I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you. I wish you relief from suffering in whatever happens.

 

[Trilucid]

I am wishing you the same as FuneralCry!
It's sad... That there is a point where everything ends.
Sooner or later... We are all, heading for the stars.

I am wishing you peace. Freedom. May you find out what you truly seek.

 

[Tmbass]

Nothing crueller than being given hope only to have it taken away. Sorry, what ever happens I hope you find peace.

 

[Flying Away]

And yet it rears its ugly head once more. Feels like the universe is playing a game with me. Im confused and dont know weather to hope one more time or think screw it and go now. What should i do. The hope given is what i want but cant go on with it being constantly taken away. Someone please help me. One thing would change everything but it comes and goes so often. Im a screw up and feel i cant have a normal happy life. Fought this for so long. Fight has gone. Only one person can save me but universe keeps playing games.