Venting Walking alone in the night , during the "festival" season . Maybe do mind reading this dumbass sob story

[lunar02102009]

Just walking alone in the night , In India its supposed to be Diwali tomorrow so everyone's celebrating lighting fireworks and the whole deal , people look happy with each other , couples are well even happier as they have someone to comfort and hug them warm and tight during their well not so good moments , meanwhile I am just..suffering in silence , cold and lonely along with no one to comfort me . I might as well just celebrate the festival lighting cigarettes. I just wonder if i get hit by a car and die on the spot , will i ever be happy with all the warm and tight hugs? I dont think so but oh well , ig it is what it is . I wish to have that feeling one day or just die and maybe go somewhere better or stop existing . Its amazing arent it? Some people have everything they want and others dont. I thank you for reading if you have , if you havent well who gives a shit im jus another random ass dude venting on here nothing special. Anyway people have always left me , i have never left anyone so i guess theres something wrong with me ig. Here is a quote that i will never get to say to anyone and which describes my dumbass sob stories.





"You and I are perfect for each other , never believe anything else"





"Du und ich sind perfekt füreinander. Niemals gab es zwei Menschen, die sich so sehr liebten wie wir. Glaub niemals etwas anderes."

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

Somthing eternal,,
Your words captured the hollow ache you experienced during this perfectly. Surrounded by joy, yet profoundly alone...
That sentiment about never leaving anyone,,
it's a quiet torture.
That quote is devastatingly hopefully bittersweet, Thank you for sharing your sorrow,,,Lamp,, it resonates with me even while coming from completely different circumstances yet i can relate to those late night smoke walks during festival times, your pain expressed here on sasu it feels remarkably understood, im not you so I cant claim understand,, but in my own way do..

I feel resignation with your post,,you clearly want to have something real, and like you , i still lack that something "real" that seemingly no one truly wants,,
I tend to be to nihilistic for my own good, because again like you and your loneliness,, i too am still alone.

I have nothing hopful to share myself but I cant help but feel for your pain..