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okyeah
Arcanist
- Jul 20, 2018
- 425
How am I supposed to accept my life earning 16.50/hr ($13/hr after taxes) with massive student loan debt and no personal life to speak of? How am I supposed to maintain hope and enjoy my job when my personal life has shown the same trend of unhappiness since high school? What is the difference between my life and slavery? My life is actually worse than slavery because of the extreme alienation that hasn't left me since I was young. I would gladly accept this shitty life if I had someone to love and care about. But that would have happened by now if it was ever going to fucking happen. The fact is that there is something fundamentally wrong and uncurable about me. Big reason I need to die.
The only way out of this hell is either killing myself or becoming some sort of extreme success - which is having a career of extreme responsibility (doctor, lawyer, etc.). Then you barely have any time at all in your life - another version of shit. I just have daydreams in my head that this success would improve my personal life also...But that's all a bunch of shit and deep down I know it.
The only way out of this hell is either killing myself or becoming some sort of extreme success - which is having a career of extreme responsibility (doctor, lawyer, etc.). Then you barely have any time at all in your life - another version of shit. I just have daydreams in my head that this success would improve my personal life also...But that's all a bunch of shit and deep down I know it.