Help Video request + timeline of my SN ctb next week

[ElyNoFantasy]

Hello everyone !

I'm Ely, non binary, 24, from France.
If nothing goes wrong, I'll receive SN Thursday and book an hotel as soon as I get it to ctb without anyone hearing me. (So the day will depend of the availability of the hotel, but probably the same day).

Is anyone interested in taking a video of me this day to document the process for other people and if possible post the video here ? (I know I would have liked to see videos of SN ctb; so if I can contribute with my own experience, I'd be happy !)
It would probably be Thursday 16 at 6pm or 7pm (time in France).

Here is what I will do :
- test the SN with my blood to check it turns brown
- book an hotel with sound insulation
- go to the hotel (obviously)
- take anti emetics and headache medicine 1h before
- making 3 batchs of SN drink, 25g in 50ml water (using a scale and a small measuring cup I both got on the jungle)
- using mouthwash in hopes I don't feel the taste of SN as much
- drink the SN
- if I vomit in the first 10 minutes, drink another shot
- lay down and enjoy.

Thank you for your answers.
I hope everyone who reads this find peace in life or in death.

 

[Anonymous_A]

It's interesting when people document their experience with sn. Even tho there's not a shitload of legit documents, it's pretty much all the same outcome.
Follow the guide, or even just take enough sn whilst fasted. Once it's consumed it will taste shit, hold your nose to somewhat help. You'll either be sick or won't, you'll show increased breathing, may even give off other indications of poisoning. Then you'll fall/lay down and contemplate vomiting…if you keep it down and don't be sick, your breathing will gradually reduce and you'll die.

Kudos to you for wanting to document the whole process, takes guts to go though with it all together.
Imo, it's not something I could do, it would put somewhat of an expectation on myself

Whatever you decide to do, you've got it all planned out and I hope you find peace in whatever you decide to do

 

[BobMorane]

Put some music while you're at it !

 

[ElyNoFantasy]

It's interesting when people document their experience with sn. Even tho there's not a shitload of legit documents, it's pretty much all the same outcome.
Follow the guide, or even just take enough sn whilst fasted. Once it's consumed it will taste shit, hold your nose to somewhat help. You'll either be sick or won't, you'll show increased breathing, may even give off other indications of poisoning. Then you'll fall/lay down and contemplate vomiting…if you keep it down and don't be sick, your breathing will gradually reduce and you'll die.

Kudos to you for wanting to document the whole process, takes guts to go though with it all together.
Imo, it's not something I could do, it would put somewhat of an expectation on myself

Whatever you decide to do, you've got it all planned out and I hope you find peace in whatever you decide to do

Thank you for your kind answer and further information !

Put some music while you're at it !

Awesome idea, I almost forgot xD

Salut, tu peux me MP si tu veux. Je serais là quand tu le feras si ça t'intéresse.

Thank you, I'll PM you ! It will probably be easier to speak french when I will CBT and feel sick :)

 

[Neowise]

I'm sorry your life has made you make this desicion, I assume it is final?
I find it really brave of you that you want to have your final moments documented for any people who might follow your path. I'm sure you would be a hero to many.

Is anyone interested in taking a video of me this day to document the process for other people and if possible post the video here ?

I should be home at that time, if it is your wish I could record or just be there for you if you want company.

 

[ElyNoFantasy]

I'm sorry your life has made you make this desicion, I assume it is final?
I find it really brave of you that you want to have your final moments documented for any people who might follow your path. I'm sure you would be a hero to many.


I should be home at that time, if it is your wish I could record or just be there for you if you want company.

Yes it is final. Even if I somehow failed, as soon as I returned home from wherever I would ctb again with the pills I've been stocking for months and a very sharp knife I've bought.

Thank you, it means a lot ! But it won't cause any trouble for me. I just want to be ''the change I want to see in the world'' at the end, especially to help other who suffer like me ctb more peacefully with more resources !!

Thank you for offering that, but @watereyes should be there to document that day :)

 

[aminend]

Yes it is final. Even if I somehow failed, as soon as I returned home from wherever I would ctb again with the pills I've been stocking for months and a very sharp knife I've bought.

Thank you, it means a lot ! But it won't cause any trouble for me. I just want to be ''the change I want to see in the world'' at the end, especially to help other who suffer like me ctb more peacefully with more resources !!

Thank you for offering that, but @watereyes should be there to document that day :)

U Give this community very valuable thing by document ur passing i hope every thing goes forward completely peaceful for u if this is ur choice

 

[ElyNoFantasy]

U Give this community very valuable thing by document ur passing i hope every thing goes forward completely peaceful for u if this is ur choice

I want to be there for this community. Just as this community has been there for me. I would never have known about SN if it weren't for this website in the first place. ^^
Thank you !

 

[weallneedtovent]

I want to be there for this community. Just as this community has been there for me. I would never have known about SN if it weren't for this website in the first place. ^^
Thank you !

Same here. I'd seen loads in the UK news over the last 6 months about suicide by "cooking ingredient that cost £4" but really struggled to find out what it was

 

[phoenixx]

I don't know what you're going through or what made you decide to do this but I hope you're able to find peace, Ely. Remember, even if it doesn't go to plan, this community is here for you. Don't be afraid to come back. I wish you the best of luck and I hope your journey is as painless and peaceful as possible!

(Also I'm sorry I'm unable to answer you question, but I wanted to say this to you!)

 

[ElyNoFantasy]

Thank you @Sereg0r !
I'm sorry to all those for whom this video could have been useful but there was a problem delaying my SN order and I don't know when I'll receive it anymore...
As I can't stand life anymore, I'll ctb with my previous method : lots of anxiolytics and sleeping pills and some knife game on my arm and neck, in some underground place difficult to find. I just hope no one will wander the same labyrinth as me and find me before I die.
So, sorry for the documentation about SN. I won't be able to do that finally ! But I'm relieved I can ctb as soon as Monday with my previous method as I have everything ready for this one !
Please wish me luck, I will need it for no one to find me too soon !

 

[ItsTimeToExit]

Sorry about your SN troubles.

It's not a mistake to delay your CTB till you get SN or find another supplier, but you must do what you feel is right for you.

 

[StevieNixs]

Hello everyone !

I'm Ely, non binary, 24, from France.
If nothing goes wrong, I'll receive SN Thursday and book an hotel as soon as I get it to ctb without anyone hearing me. (So the day will depend of the availability of the hotel, but probably the same day).

Is anyone interested in taking a video of me this day to document the process for other people and if possible post the video here ? (I know I would have liked to see videos of SN ctb; so if I can contribute with my own experience, I'd be happy !)
It would probably be Thursday 16 at 6pm or 7pm (time in France).

Here is what I will do :
- test the SN with my blood to check it turns brown
- book an hotel with sound insulation
- go to the hotel (obviously)
- take anti emetics and headache medicine 1h before
- making 3 batchs of SN drink, 25g in 50ml water (using a scale and a small measuring cup I both got on the jungle)
- using mouthwash in hopes I don't feel the taste of SN as much
- drink the SN
- if I vomit in the first 10 minutes, drink another shot
- lay down and enjoy.

Thank you for your answers.
I hope everyone who reads this find peace in life or in death.

Just sent you a PM ..not one to dissuade you x

 

[FreeZebra]

@ElyNoFantasy
Can you PM please?
I 'm looking for SN.
Thanks

 

[NoPointToContinue]

Thank you for thinking about other people like yourself even in your death. I wish you best whether you ctb or not.