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Im ngl everyone saying its super brutal and stuff like that but looking at the video im really not seeing the brutality that people described. Sure it looks uncomfortable and there's a lot of vomit but im really not seeing the brutality in this.
I don't think it was brutal, but certainly uncomfortable for sure.

That being said I've done extensive amounts of dxm which would cause me to vomit for 20 sometimes 30 minutes straight. I'm well acquainted with nausea, vomiting (which i sorta enjoy), and panic. I remember once taking a ginormous dose of dxm and just puking my soul out over the toilet and feeling like I was literally dying. I was in shock and later on couldnt believe the body could go through so much psychological distress. Hopefully SN with benzos timed correctly shouldn't be too bad in comparison.

I have GERD/LPR and oftentimes I have indigestion, fermentation, stasis of stomach contents and end up having to vomit everything out. I often have to induce it myself and get it out in multiple goes - 3 to 4 times in one attempt with maybe 5 or 6 attempts in total until the stomach is completely empty and all one gets out is bile. I get terribly weak and shaky and can't even stand on my legs after I am done.

There's a difference between that and what we see on the video in the sense that what I have to do often is voluntary and what we see in the video is quite the opposite where the guy is trying his best to keep the contents in but they get out anyway despite his best efforts and him having to re-swallow it back with his saliva and everything..There is definitely a higher distress component attached to vomiting when it's involuntary like that IMO.

But despite all of that, I think I'll still take it. I suppose there are other forms of CTB like drowning or jumping which seems to be much more painful that I can't even contemplate of. I can barely come to terms with FSH or partial hanging as a back up method. Comparatively, I'll take SN over those methods anyday for sure.
 
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xXSufferingXx

Enlightened
Feb 21, 2025
1,207
what should someone say in a pharmacy to get anti vomit tablets?
 
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JeyJeyOfJeypore

Student
Jun 4, 2026
160
This guy puked soon after taking the SN, and he kept puking... How are we supposed to drink a second dose in such circumstances? And he didn't take a second one. And in the case you can take a second one what's the point? You will puke right after taking it...
That sucks...
And he looks so cute too
Couldnt make it past 4:44

And even up to there... just seeing his grimacing face made me hold my mouth and bite my hand
 
lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Experienced
Jan 11, 2026
276
Hmm... this isn't food poisoning, right? Unless you are saying SN poisoning resembles food poisoning. Sorry I think I misunderstood. But yes if there are easier and available methods this is probably not everyone's first pick. I think it's more of an availability thing for me.
I mean food poisoning caused by vegetables and fruit that are not washed properly can be worse than SN. Food that can easily go bad.
 
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FiryPheonix

FiryPheonix

Member
Mar 7, 2026
27
I mean food poisoning caused by vegetables and fruit that are not washed properly can be worse than SN. Food that can easily go bad.
I see what you mean. I guess what ur trying to say is we go through things which are more painful in day to day life so this shouldn't be too bad in comparison. There are much worse experiences you can go through than SN poisoning.
I don't think it was brutal, but certainly uncomfortable for sure.



I have GERD/LPR and oftentimes I have indigestion, fermentation, stasis of stomach contents and end up having to vomit everything out. I often have to induce it myself and get it out in multiple goes - 3 to 4 times in one attempt with maybe 5 or 6 attempts in total until the stomach is completely empty and all one gets out is bile. I get terribly weak and shaky and can't even stand on my legs after I am done.

There's a difference between that and what we see on the video in the sense that what I have to do often is voluntary and what we see in the video is quite the opposite where the guy is trying his best to keep the contents in but they get out anyway despite his best efforts and him having to re-swallow it back with his saliva and everything..There is definitely a higher distress component attached to vomiting when it's involuntary like that IMO.

But despite all of that, I think I'll still take it. I suppose there are other forms of CTB like drowning or jumping which seems to be much more painful that I can't even contemplate of. I can barely come to terms with FSH or partial hanging as a back up method. Comparatively, I'll take SN over those methods anyday for sure.
Yeah when people were talking about brutal agony is was expecting to see something much worse. At least when I think of agony I picture people trashing and writhing and screaming and crying, that kind of stuff. I mean I've had worse vomiting spells after taking dxm which would have me puking foam. This honestly looks like a fairly peaceful way to go out even compared to a lot of natural causes of death.
IDK man I'm telling you that you can get access to Fentanyl. If you got SN I'm willing to bet you obtained it through the dark web AKA the TOR browser. Assuming that's the case, on those same marketplaces you can find any drug including SN you can find fentanyl and nitazenes. Nitazenes in particular have been getting more popular as the major marketplaces have since banned Fentanyl (as of the early 2020's these marketplaces made these shifts particularly because of the big emphasis/crackdown on fentanyl and the website owners not wanting that much head/attention from the feds) and what came about after was just all the fentanyl pill pressers turning to nitazenes instead. Literally purchase ANY oxycodone pill listing on any DW marketplace that isn't listed as a script and there's a good 99% chance it was made with Fentanyl or nitazenes (which are stronger than fentanyl). Or even better just DM the vendor and ask for their ingredients. 99% of the oxycodone pill pressers right now use isotonitazene and will straight up tell you so in their products listing description.

Sorry. I should clarify that I DON'T despise the people of China, Bangladesh, and Korea but rather was just using their government as an example of countries who's academic systems have driven their students to commit suicide. When I say I despise the country I really meant its government body and not anything more. I didn't mean to come off as disrespectful if you were referring to my comments. Feel free to delete any of them you find not complacent with the rules.

I don't blame you at all. Out of curiosity how are you doing now? Are you in China currently or not? How has that all been for you? (assuming you're comfortable elaborating). I ask because it's not often I see someone directly post on here saying they've had direct experence with China's very intensive educational enviornments.

It's apparently 9 seconds short of being a 12 minute video. Granted it seems he spent the first minute making the solution before finally drinking it. Although I'm not sure as its quite hard to tell and I only briefly jumped through the video. Even in the event with AEs and benzos that shit just looks so brutal. I don't know man. I just wish there was a more secure method this site could use to ensure there were no minors outside of a checkbox that says "Yeah, I'm 18" because if there was then I'd literally just be posting the listing links to nitazenes and fentanyl (also assuming they changed the rules to allow because as of now they don't). Not because I want any of you reading this to CTB (I hope all of you can find solace WITHOUT ending your own life), but just because in the event you DO decide to do it, you don't have to do it in such a brutal manner like this. That's why I referred to SN as a "dumb" method. Not only do you need other drugs typically on top of the SN for it to work but a lot of people have to involve heavy equipment and at that point it just becomes ridiculous and risky. At best, you pass peacefully but at worst (and unfortunately seemingly more realistically) you get real close to death and have permanent damage done to your body or you DO die but you go out in a real brutal way like that kid. That's why I really don't understand why everyone here glorifies that method over the rest (particularly as it relates to drug-induced methods when we live in a fentanyl and nitazene ridden world). It seems the most costly/expensive and it seems to have a pretty low success rate in terms of delivering a peaceful death unless you absolutely 1000% know what your doing and have the right equipment. Nobody who is depressed deserves to go out the way he did. He likely just wanted a safe and peaceful exit. Poor kid man :/
Could i ask what about the video seemed so brutal to you. All im seeing is vomiting and anxiety. What I'm not seeing is any thrashing in pain, screaming, etc. I hope we are watching the same video.
 
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lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Experienced
Jan 11, 2026
276
IDK man I'm telling you that you can get access to Fentanyl. If you got SN I'm willing to bet you obtained it through the dark web AKA the TOR browser. Assuming that's the case, on those same marketplaces you can find any drug including SN you can find fentanyl and nitazenes.
But there can legal issues if someone gets caught for getting opioids etc. No one will be put in jail for ordering SN. They will just confiscate it at best. How do they even get it via the dark web internationally.
 
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ZeroRedz02

Member
May 21, 2026
88
Ohhhh okay. See, this makes a TON more sense. I've always thought you guys sourced it via TOR. Not I understand why SN is much easier to get for you guys than nitazenes and fentanyl. I guess my suggestion would be to learn how to use TOR. I posted a basic tutorial on setting it up a bit ago I'll repost it here:

1. Download TOR. This part is the simple part. If you can't get past this step then you might as well give up here lol. You literally just download the program like any other.

2. Run it

3. Turn your security level to the highest. I believe by default when you install TOR it's on standard (or "Safer"... but either way both are bad and you wanna change it to the "safest" option) and you want to change that. To do this, when TOR is open on the top right you should see a shield icon. Click that, and then click the blue settings button. You'll be then taken to your settings where you'll see "security level". Click the "change" button and make sure the option that is selected is the "safest" mode. Then, click "save and restart". Now when it restarts and you go to click the shield icon it should tell you that you're on the "safest" security level. If it shows that then you did it right.

4. You want to do bridging via TOR. This helps hide your internet traffic. To do this open TOR and to the right of your search/URL box and next to the sheild icon should be a button with three horizontal lines. Click it, then go down and click settings. In the settings search bar just type "bridges" and you'll see a result. Then, click "Select a built-in bridge" and choose snowflake and click ok. Boom, your done. If you're in a strict country and for example under the firewall of China then perhaps obfs4 or WebTunnel are a better option for bridging so if that's the case for you click one of those instead of snowflake. Do research on the options as ultimately each option hides your traffic in unique ways.

4. Now you need to disable your TOR's javascript. To do this go into your search bar where you'd type any normal search or URL and type "about:config" and click enter. You'll be given a warning to "proceed with caution" and that's fine. It's just a warning essentially saying that if you don't know what you're doing the settings you change could ruin the performance or security of TOR. Click "Accept the Risk and Continue". Then, at the top in your config it should have a search bar that says "search preference name". Click that search bar, and then type "javascript.enabled". You'll then see an option called "javascript.enabled" with it turned to True. To the right of that it should have an icon you can click (I can't really describe the icon its like two horizontal half arrows pointing in opposite directions). Click it and then it should turn the true to false. If it did then congrats you did it right and you turned it off.

If you wanna go the extra step you can even add an extra layer of security via a VPN but you shouldn't need to if you enabled bridging. But a tutorial for that is two google searches away. And if you had trouble following any of these steps then YouTube is your best-friend for more visual aid to follow along.

Now that you have the proper setup to browse these .onion links safely, If you wanted to hypothetically buy drugs from one of the marketplaces and wanted to access them but don't know where to go then tor.taxi will be your best friend. It gives access to the most user friendly markets to start out with alongside other good resources. From tor.taxi you could hypothetically go on DH and as I said previously buy whatever I've previously mentioned there.

I hope that helps. That's as much as I'm willing to say as I think with anything more it'll be considered sourcing and I'll be banned.

They said you can't overdose on nitazenes or fentanyl? If that's what you meant then well I'm not sure who told you that but they absolutely couldn't be further from the truth. Fentanyl and Nitazenes are amongst the most potent opioids in the world. Visually, the tiniest little spec of fentanyl can kill you (2-3 MG's) and microscopic pieces of nitazenes can can kill you (doses as low as 500 ug/micrograms). If you're saying the overdoses can be reversed then yes that's true: with a drug called naloxone (commonly referred to as narcan) medics can reverse it, but with nitazenes and fentanyl now being readily available (some hundreds of times more potent than fentanyl) it takes a ridiculous amount of Narcan to reverse it. Especially if you're intentionally committing suicide and just ingesting an entire gram or more of nitazenes. Something to note also is that since they're so potent the chance of success is nearly 1000%. Unless you have a medic who is right next to you on standby the moment you ingest it there's little to no chance they're bringing you back from a nitazene OD. With SN you need to worry about "what if this goes wrong and I end up waking up a vegetable?". With SN you have all these worries. However, with fentanyl or nitazenes, the success rate is an absolute guarantee compared to SN where it depends on seemingly 10+ factors which is a risk I wouldn't take.

Don't thank me. Thank you! Thank you for taking the time to answer my questions. It was really neat learning your perspective. It's so sad they force you guys to be so in line if there's only one way you can approach life. Truly believe in yourself. I promise you'll go on to do great things with your life regardless if you go to college or not. Best of luck to you friend.
Ok, but the courier is still a risk who will come to bring this drugs to you? As it is a Tor seller btw i am sure they have personal couriers isn't like that?
 
SadCryingBunny

SadCryingBunny

Specialist
Apr 10, 2025
309
I watched the video. What an awful way to go. I'm sticking to Nitrogen & Exit Bag, I hope I don't convulse like this guy did.
 

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