Cee
cute girl
- Sep 22, 2018
- 81
Ive been having some abnormal bleeding...Im on birth control and not supposed to get my period yet but Im bleeding as if im on it which is very startling as ive been on this birth control for a while and never experienced this before. Cried a lot, decided tomorrow ill take a piss test just to see.
Im praying for negative because if its positive ill be going thorugh an abortion process which will most likely end in my suicide. I havent posted on here in MONTHS so people probably assumed i went through with it... unfortunately not, i was just finishing up my senior year of high school and I just graduated so yay for me i guess ! If the test is negative ill be calling my doctor anyway to ask about this abnormal bleeding, and if its positive ill be making an appointment right away with planned parenthood. Probably would use my savings money so my moms insurance wouldnt be notified. Im actually looking forward to college and feeling less suicidal than usual, but if this turns out to be an issue, I guarantee ill end up dead or back in the hospital. Ive never wanted to have kids and i actually hate them and get very irritated when around kids, im not mean to them or anything but I definitely would not be a functional human if i had one, especially right now which is probably the most inconvenient time.
Ive been with my boyfriend about 7 months but we're both only 18 and Im not sure the relationship will even last. but idk, im bleeding, im nauseous, headaches, backpain... most of this is normal for me but still im very scared and very worried. Could just be stress making the symptoms worse but I want to test just to be sure, and then again whenever my doctors appointment is, and ill also probably switch over from the pill to the nexplanon arm implant, simply because its more effective and not prone to human error. Ill try to keep you updated if anyone actually cares which you probably dont, but the next few days/weeks have the potential to decide a lot about where my life goes, or, doesnt go.
Im praying for negative because if its positive ill be going thorugh an abortion process which will most likely end in my suicide. I havent posted on here in MONTHS so people probably assumed i went through with it... unfortunately not, i was just finishing up my senior year of high school and I just graduated so yay for me i guess ! If the test is negative ill be calling my doctor anyway to ask about this abnormal bleeding, and if its positive ill be making an appointment right away with planned parenthood. Probably would use my savings money so my moms insurance wouldnt be notified. Im actually looking forward to college and feeling less suicidal than usual, but if this turns out to be an issue, I guarantee ill end up dead or back in the hospital. Ive never wanted to have kids and i actually hate them and get very irritated when around kids, im not mean to them or anything but I definitely would not be a functional human if i had one, especially right now which is probably the most inconvenient time.
Ive been with my boyfriend about 7 months but we're both only 18 and Im not sure the relationship will even last. but idk, im bleeding, im nauseous, headaches, backpain... most of this is normal for me but still im very scared and very worried. Could just be stress making the symptoms worse but I want to test just to be sure, and then again whenever my doctors appointment is, and ill also probably switch over from the pill to the nexplanon arm implant, simply because its more effective and not prone to human error. Ill try to keep you updated if anyone actually cares which you probably dont, but the next few days/weeks have the potential to decide a lot about where my life goes, or, doesnt go.
