Venting Venting- it's getting to just be too much

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the person I love has been lying to me from the start. I've lost the love of my kids. I make half the money I used to. At this point, I am worth as much dead as I am alive. I have NOTHING to look forward to.

I can't think of anything to keep me here. I'm hoping my kids are strong enough to not CTB after I go. I know my youngest will be, but not sure of my oldest. I'm just so fucking tired. I feel like I have nothing left.

i have my SN. I just want some Meto to complete the chemicals. (PLEASE pm me if you have a source) I hate myself and I hate putting people thru my BS any longer. I've lied, I've cheated, I've tried to buy love, and I've hurt people time and time again. I have nothing to contribute. i don't know why I'm here.

I am so comforted that the SN is on my bookshelf, ready to take me away.

 

[jodes2]

I've PM'd you with meto source. Sorry you're suffering

 

[AnonymousS]

the person I love has been lying to me from the start. I've lost the love of my kids. I make half the money I used to. At this point, I am worth as much dead as I am alive. I have NOTHING to look forward to.

I can't think of anything to keep me here. I'm hoping my kids are strong enough to not CTB after I go. I know my youngest will be, but not sure of my oldest. I'm just so fucking tired. I feel like I have nothing left.

i have my SN. I just want some Meto to complete the chemicals. (PLEASE pm me if you have a source) I hate myself and I hate putting people thru my BS any longer. I've lied, I've cheated, I've tried to buy love, and I've hurt people time and time again. O have nothing to contribute. i don't know why I'm here.

I am so comforted that the SN is on my bookshelf, ready to take me away.

I am very sorry to read of your struggles, i at the very least have no family, children etc to worry about. I mean that in the warmest sense, i am very socially isolated. It's been this way for years so it has been easier for me i think to attempt to end my existence seriously expecting to not survive. I have some really lovely friends online, but things can get extremely hard. I am not going to criticise your loved one, but i hate being lied to. If you cannot at least be honest, really what is the point ? I hope you find your peace, and i would rather you find it in life, but like most people on this forum, i totally understand and respect your decision whatever that may be. Take care.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would feel so comforted at having the option of SN. Existing certainly is cruel, torturous and painful, so I hope that when the time is right for you to leave this world you find the freedom that you wish for.