Venting Vent

[Lostandfound82]

I'm so fed up with this life. Bipolar fucking sucks. I always end up back to square one in this never ending cycle of mania and depression. The lows are so devastatingly low but fuck the mania feels so good. Even though I enjoy the mania there's always the possibility of psychosis and that's worse than the depression. I wish my cycles didn't last so long each part is a full year. I have roughly 8 more months left of this low and I feel so desperate to just get out I'm tired of the ups and downs.

 

[SuicIdiot]

I get it. And everyone just says "well it's part of your disorder." Fuck that. That doesn't help me at all. I hate how every time I feel like I'm breaking the cycle, it's a dead end and I end up right back where I started.

 

[no.one]

I'm so fed up with this life. Bipolar fucking sucks. I always end up back to square one in this never ending cycle of mania and depression. The lows are so devastatingly low but fuck the mania feels so good. Even though I enjoy the mania there's always the possibility of psychosis and that's worse than the depression. I wish my cycles didn't last so long each part is a full year. I have roughly 8 more months left of this low and I feel so desperate to just get out I'm tired of the ups and downs.

i'm also bipolar, and i cant agree more with you. it completely fucking sucks. i am also in the low period. i find myself hoping i can somehow switch myself into mania just for the energy and high. i am more self destructive during that time, but boy do i feel better! i hate this cycling. the meds are not helping, they either keep me neutral or low.

i just wanted to comment and say you're not alone. this bipolar life fucking sucks.

 

[Lostandfound82]

I get it. And everyone just says "well it's part of your disorder." Fuck that. That doesn't help me at all. I hate how every time I feel like I'm breaking the cycle, it's a dead end and I end up right back where I started.

Yup and it's the worst feeling whenever you find yourself back in the low place you fought so hard to get out of. Idk how I can keep going through this over and over it never gets easier.

i'm also bipolar, and i cant agree more with you. it completely fucking sucks. i am also in the low period. i find myself hoping i can somehow switch myself into mania just for the energy and high. i am more self destructive during that time, but boy do i feel better! i hate this cycling. the meds are not helping, they either keep me neutral or low.

i just wanted to comment and say you're not alone. this bipolar life fucking sucks.

I can also be very self destructive not actually realizing how bad I was until I come down from the mania. I wish u the best.