Venting Vent thread

[The Disqualified]

One of my posts these days got deleted for being too vague I think. So I created this thread to vent if it is all fine.
Don't want to cause problems for the forum. Just want to vent out my suffering and let my thoughts out of my head.

 

[The Disqualified]

1)

Suicide is the only way I am getting out of this one. Suicide is the only way out for me. There is no way I am getting out of this one but suicide. Suicide is the only way I am escaping my suffering.

Suicide truly is the only way I see myself ending my suffering. Suicide is the only way I am getting out of this one. There is no way I am getting out of this one but suicide. Suicide is the only way I am getting out of this one.

I just want to end my suffering. Suicide is the only way to end my suffering once and for all.

 

[The Disqualified]

2)

They are gonna find me out anyday now. I am doomed. Doomed. Anyday now they are going to find me out.
What I did was risky, but I did it anyway, impulsively. But they were nice to me. They saw me as just another one. Just that.
I don't read reality correctly, this is where my problem lies.
I feared they were going to find me out. Like everyone was looking at me, gossiping to each other, talking behind my back, and, at that moment, the truth would finally be revealed. But nothing happened. I really don't see reality correctly. There is something fundamentally broken about my brain. I don't see reality correctly. I don't see things the way other people see it. My brain is ruined from so much trauma. I am not normal. I just want to run away and find peace. I must run away while I can.

 

[The Disqualified]

3)

I really am a horrible failure