Venting [vent] feeling like an asshole.

[synthcadia]

sorry i haven't been on here in a while. been better overall. also been in china.

i just went through and blocked everyone that i had done anything sexually with.

i know i shouldn't, but i feel like an asshole. i feel like i just left people without an explanation. i just wanted to respect my boyfriend, but i feel like a fucking asshole to those people who did respect my relationship.

i just hate myself for being in that position in the first place.

 

[U. A.]

If your current boyfriend pressured you into blocking people you still had a healthy and non-threatening relationship with that is a huge red flag.

 

[maylurker]

how is it in china? is it worth travelling?

 

[synthcadia]

If your current boyfriend pressured you into blocking people you still had a healthy and non-threatening relationship with that is a huge red flag.

in this case, it was people i had done sexual stuff with in the past. when he explained it, he explained it as others not respecting my relationship.

i don't know, he didn't feel comfortable with it.

how is it in china? is it worth travelling?

100000% absolutely. i can't speak about all of china but just my city. it's not like what the media portrays as much.

i am also a foreigner so take what i say with a grain of salt. but as someone who is 1/2 west asian, it feels a little bit closer to home

If your current boyfriend pressured you into blocking people you still had a healthy and non-threatening relationship with that is a huge red flag.

actually some of them i feel like didn't respect the relationship i was in. idk.

i knew my intentions were pure. i think my bf was also looking out for my best interest.

i don't personally think it's a red flag