Discussion User Discussion Megathread

[I’vehadenough]

Just wait for A. It's certainly no coincidence imo that as soon as A takes a short break, every other letter of the alphabet emerges with an apparently easier means of obtaining N.

Yeah but A hasn't replied to my email

 

[Sun Stealer]

How did you find out about this?

Police

 

[weedoge]

It's a long shot but did anybody speak with PhilistineEars? He made some good posts about CO generator and then went quiet, seemed determined, knowledgeable and can only assume he succeeded. RIP if that's the case and thank you.

 

[worldexploder]

It certainly looks as if LMK was scam-adjacent, from what l gather he was offering to collect N on behalf of others.

Obviously the ctb thread is locked, yet the post l made, quoted here by Schopenhauer, has been deleted from it.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-guess-this-is-it.7320/page-2#post-125412

I honestly can't understand why this is removed yet the rest of the thread is allowed to stand, unless this forum prefers comforting myths to inconvenient truths.

That is so fucked up if true! What you are saying makes a lot of sense. He messaged me about N before. I also heard about T. Didn't someone say he lived in California?

 

[Chinaski]

That is so fucked up if true! What you are saying makes a lot of sense. He messaged me about N before. I also heard about T. Didn't someone say he lived in California?

Jesus. Seems like I'm the only person he *didn't* PM. What a piece of shit.

 

[worldexploder]

Jesus. Seems like I'm the only person he *didn't* PM. What a piece of shit.

Agreed! We don't need frauds like that on SS.

 

[Goldie]

On Thursday, the user 'lovemykids' posted a farewell thread in the main forum, detailing his impending passing from N ingestion. I didn't see this play out in real time, l woke up to see it a few hours after the event. Like most people here, l was genuinely affected it by it. I'd interacted with LMK previously, not long after he'd acquired his N, and it was clear he was having difficulty summoning the required courage. I remember assuring him that this was natural and he shouldn't rush into it if he wasn't ready. When l then saw his goodbye thread, a thread which differed from most in that he actually went out of his way to live blog events as the N took hold, l was moved by not only his determination and courage, but by his decision to relay it back to this little online community, which took some strength of character. For any of us looking towards N as a method, this thread would be truly inspirational. I certainly found it to be so, given lovemykids' apparent bravery. As someone in the thread wrote, it was a "surreal" read, but one l knew I'd go back to whenever l needed to find courage of my own. That thread is here:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-guess-this-is-it.7320/

Later that day, a user called Spartacus registered. His first post was in that thread. A peculiar debut post, certainly, and was followed up with other posts mainly around the testing of N - LMK was regularly posting about sampling N as a test, and now Spartacus was posting the same thing. They also shared the same idiosyncratic posting style; typing in staccato lines rather than a body of text, abandoning most punctuation, use of "u" instead of "you", and more besides. A quick glance at their respective messages suggested they were identical voices.

Being deeply affected by his farewell thread, l shared these concerns with a couple of other users, and was advised to report to admin. I did so, and it's not for me to speak on their behalf but you will notice the thread is now locked.

I can assure you it gives me absolutely zero pleasure in posting this, but l fear this forum has been misled and manipulated in a very damaging way by this particular user, who faked a live-blogging of an apparently peaceful and affecting passing only to re-register a few hours later. Attempting and failing is fine, I've failed several times, yet it's to the credit of this forum and those who use it that this community is never anything other than supportive of its members, however l felt it was important that l share my concerns about this now before LMK's apparently peaceful passing, with its associated courage, determination and strength of character of the individual, became some piece of legend when it is apparent to me that this is clearly not the reality.

I suspect I may be given the hard ban for this. If so, peace to you all.

I've reported many of your posts. I don't like your attitude at all.

I'm most countries in the World it is innocent until proven guilty... You have no evidence that the new account is actually Lovemykids and it is a big shame you managed to manipulate the mods to agree with you.

Real or fake? The discussion should be in in the thread and not here. Anyone can then make up their own mind.

 

[Goldie]

Same, you don't know what happened, you don't know what to hope.
I've been in this situation another couple of times, at the end you lack closure.

I've been ON and OFF from forums for several months sometimes, never thought or wondered if anyone would have been missing me, I've been OFF when I felt "better" and was farther from suicide and also when I was more focused and closer to it, so you never know.

I'd like everyone were at peace with everything

Yes I'm the same. When I feel better I'm usually not here as much. Although sometimes I feel bad in a way that I can't take all the depressing posts.

In the unlikely event I do feel better I will make a thread that I am ok and wouldn't want to leave you in limbo.

On the other hand if I do ctb I might not want to do a goodbye thread. I would hate for it to be attacked and discredited the way that Lovemykids' thread was. It would be like someone pissing on my grave.

 

[Chinaski]

I've reported many of your posts. I don't like your attitude at all.

I'm most countries in the World it is innocent until proven guilty... You have no evidence that the new account is actually Lovemykids and it is a big shame you managed to manipulate the mods to agree with you.

Real or fake? The discussion should be in in the thread and not here. Anyone can then make up their own mind.

Report each and every one of my posts if you like. Go and order a ton of N from 'T' while you're at it. I don't care.

I honestly don't give a shit for whether or not you like my 'attitude', either.

 

[Chinaski]

Real or fake? The discussion should be in in the thread and not here. Anyone can then make up their own mind.

I agree. That way it would be much more visible as a PSA. The mods instructed me to put it here instead and locked the thread.

 

[Schopenhauer]

Jesus. Seems like I'm the only person he *didn't* PM. What a piece of shit.

Indeed. What finally convinced me of his bad intentions was the fact that he PMd most of the regulars here with details of his new N source. He even offered someone to pick up the N from T and mail it to her (or deliver in person, I can't recall). What a noble soul...

I think you were the first to figure it all out, and alert everyone else (I was certainly unaware before you pointed it out to me). You should be thanked for it.

 

[Chinaski]

Indeed. What finally convinced me of his bad intentions was the fact that he PMd most of the regulars here with details of his new N source. He even offered someone to pick up the N from T and mail it to her (or deliver in person, I can't recall). What a noble soul...

I think you were the first to figure it all out, and alert everyone else (I was certainly unaware before you pointed it out to me). You should be thanked for it.

Thanks for this. I feel like I've spent all weekend on this and, as you can see, it's not going down well with everybody.

 

[Chinaski]

I might even send you some bottles from A for FREE if it will get you to shut up.

I wish I'd known that much, much earlier.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Thanks for this. I feel like I've spent all weekend on this and, as you can see, it's not going down well with everybody.

It's strange how that went down, if it is the same user. What would they have to gain by doing this? There's no shame in saying it didn't work out or they got cold feet or whatever. I suppose in theory it's none of our business, but it would still be nice to know what happened as I for one am always curious as to the N method. Hopefully we get some clarity at some point.

 

[Chinaski]

It's strange how that went down, if it is the same user. What would they have to gain by doing this? There's no shame in saying it didn't work out or they got cold feet or whatever. I suppose in theory it's none of our business, but it would still be nice to know what happened as I for one am always curious as to the N method. Hopefully we get some clarity at some point.

I think it's pretty much tied up with this thread, sadly

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...urns-out-to-be-a-scam.7242/page-2#post-127760

 

[Dani Paradox]

I was also messaged by Lovemykids asking if I was interested in purchasing N. He said that he helped out multiple users on this forum by hooking them up with a seller in LA. I declined.

 

[Schopenhauer]

I was also messaged by Lovemykids asking if I was interested in purchasing N. He said that he helped out multiple users on this forum by hooking them up with a seller in LA. I declined.

That guy was really scum. I'm so angry at myself for having believed his honesty (I also declined his offer, by the way). I foresee difficult times ahead with proactive N scammers.

 

[Deafsn0w]

That guy was really scum. I'm so angry at myself for having believed his honesty (I also declined his offer, by the way). I foresee difficult times ahead with proactive N scammers.

That's why you shouldn't trust anyone on the internet

 

[sadsoul]

That's why you shouldn't trust anyone on the internet

And in real life

 

[weedoge]

That guy was really scum. I'm so angry at myself for having believed his honesty (I also declined his offer, by the way). I foresee difficult times ahead with proactive N scammers.

Don't worry too much. There have been plenty of N scammers for a long time (just google for N sellers and you'll see a lot) the only difference is now, as you say, they're proactive. It's really only an issue for people who aren't vigilant and don't want to read or believe anything discounting these guys.

I really think all we can do is stress, repeatedly, ONLY BUY FROM SELLERS IN THE PPH. No matter what good things you've heard, no matter what forums you see them on, no matter who tells you they're legit. Only buy from PPH.

If you can't do that then find a different method please, for your own sake.

 

[TheLastTrip]

That guy was really scum. I'm so angry at myself for having believed his honesty (I also declined his offer, by the way).

I'm angry at myself too, I thought he was completely legitimate and was even sad when seeing his exit thread :(

I took his advice/contact details, but fortunately the difficulty of getting bitcoins delayed things until I just gave up as he was being too pushy.

 

[Schopenhauer]

Don't worry too much. There have been plenty of N scammers for a long time (just google for N sellers and you'll see a lot) the only difference is now, as you say, they're proactive. It's really only an issue for people who aren't vigilant and don't want to read or believe anything discounting these guys.

I really think all we can do is stress, repeatedly, ONLY BUY FROM SELLERS IN THE PPH. No matter what good things you've heard, no matter what forums you see them on, no matter who tells you they're legit. Only buy from PPH.

If you can't do that then find a different method please, for your own sake.

I agree 100%. I'd never send money to someone claiming to have N. I had never considered N as a viable method for this very reason. Until I found out about the PPH, that is.

But I'm angry at having believed his sad story about his family, and how his ex-wife took his kids away from him. What a crass manipulator.

 

[weedoge]

I agree 100%. I'd never send money to someone claiming to have N. I had never considered N as a viable method for this very reason. Until I found out about the PPH, that is.

But I'm angry at having believed his sad story about his family, and how his ex-wife took his kids away from him. What a crass manipulator.

This is why I can be really cold and blunt sometimes, can't risk getting wrapped in certain emotions :( Really sorry for you and anyone else who believe this shit.

 

[TheLastTrip]

This is why I can be really cold and blunt sometimes, can't risk getting wrapped in certain emotions :( Really sorry for you and anyone else who believe this shit.

I'd love to have that kind of switch in me. I'm like a puppy, I always want to trust people, want to help people, make people happy, it rarely ends well, lol.

 

[weedoge]

I'd love to have that kind of switch in me. I'm like a puppy, I always want to trust people, want to help people, make people happy, it rarely ends well, lol.

When I first went into the "real world" I was the same, trusted people to a stupid degree, I didn't even understand that like you should be weary around drug dealers/users. All this streetwise kinda stuff I never knew it. I spent a number of years being spat on repeatedly. Now I flipped and just can't seem to trust anybody, I don't like being this way because it's harder to maintain friendships and stuff, but also the only way that I manage to stay somewhat sane and calm.

 

[TheLastTrip]

Ha yes, I was tricked into drugs at about 16 by trusting someone who gave me a freebie because they 'liked me'.

I'm sorry you had to create that hard shell, but I am glad you could as being the way I am is maddening.

 

[weedoge]

Ha yes, I was tricked into drugs at about 16 by trusting someone who gave me a freebie because they 'liked me'.

I'm sorry you had to create that hard shell, but I am glad you could as being the way I am is maddening.

God fucking same here. Although they didn't push me, I just asked when I was at my lowest point and couldn't comprehend the risks. It's crazy how fast things can go from "I know I shouldn't do that" to being right in the middle of it. Thank you anyway, appreciate that a lot.

 

[TiredHorse]

In memoriam(?):

@Lilly
@ForestLove
@WaitingForTheBus

Unless others know otherwise.

 

[TheLastTrip]

I was there when Lilly posted about going, it was in the middle of another thread I believe so she didn't have a separate goodbye thread. I can't comment on the other two.

 

[sadsoul]

I was there when Lilly posted about going, it was in the middle of another thread I believe so she didn't have a separate goodbye thread. I can't comment on the other two.

I think I do remember Lilly having a separate goodbye thread, but I could be wrong.