I liked the guy. he was a bit weird but in a good way. Being a serial liker was his way to connect with people and it was funny, every time I posted something I knew it wouldn't be long before my little bell lights up.
Alchemist
Warlock
- Apr 3, 2019
- 709
Normally this is not done but this is going going to be an exception to avoid some people blaming others and making pointless drama. I'll just say that it was a deserved ban for breaking rules multiple times and being toxic, racist, animal abuser, and homophobic. Nothing else will be said about the matter from this side.
woxihuanni
Illuminated
- Aug 19, 2019
- 3,299
My gut feeling is often right, and I knew the moment I joined here and somebody started liking everything, it was a sick stalky thing and ignored them outright. Then, among many other things, I saw that he said drug users were subhuman in a thread involving ford. I know ford was beyond caring about a little troll here when he was already hounded to death by a mob outside of his house, but that was as low as it gets. And no, autistic people do not behave like this. Fishing for people's worst experiences, whatever. I'd also say that anybody who is here even though they are not suicidal or able to offer medical/legal information, they turn out to be twisted in some way, preying on people's pain.
We all have our issues, maybe we have more serious ones than most who aren't on here... I am pretty new here so was unaware of the person's views apart from him liking my posts often. I trust that the mods here are doing a fair job of protecting the site and it's members, and whatever led to the ban was probably not a spur of the moment one-time offence.
I also feel for those who aren't well, who have suffered a lot and for a long time, are in great despair and constant distress, all of which caused them to have opinions or values and behaviours that are/were offensive to others.
Not an excuse, but I feel for all of us who lead agonizing lives we wish to escape from.
I also feel for those who aren't well, who have suffered a lot and for a long time, are in great despair and constant distress, all of which caused them to have opinions or values and behaviours that are/were offensive to others.
Not an excuse, but I feel for all of us who lead agonizing lives we wish to escape from.
woxihuanni
Illuminated
- Aug 19, 2019
- 3,299
I admire your compassion, but this person did not even want to escape from anything or have unbearable pain by his own admission. Indeed bad experiences breed hard opinions, and I probably have my own fair share, but you don't call people who are literally at death's door subhuman to their face because they used drugs. The treasure in this forum is how much compassion we have for one another, even if we have very different circumstances, without judging. I've seen immense gentleness here from a girl with psychopathic traits. Because it is all a choice. We choose to be destructive or not, whatever the issues we might have.
I'm just saying i feel for everyone who isn't well, because before this period of my life when all was good, I definitely was ignorant, less compassionate and more judgemental.
ericwilkinson
Member
- Jun 25, 2019
- 94
Hey guys, anyone here just waiting for their method? I need €12 to buy my ingredients from the dark web in my country (shipping will take a day) and I'll try....most likely will be gone by the end of the month.
Hey, does anyone here know what happened to sólstafir?
I used to be a poster on here. We met through this forum and used to talk a fair amount on discord, but after I left we eventually didn't talk for a fairly long time (this wasn't because of a fight though or anything like that). After a while I tried to contact her again, but she and our messages were totally gone from my discord for some reason and from that point on I didn't really have any way of contacting her.
I just really want to know what happened to her and if anyone here knows something or knows if she said anything about what she was going to do..
I used to be a poster on here. We met through this forum and used to talk a fair amount on discord, but after I left we eventually didn't talk for a fairly long time (this wasn't because of a fight though or anything like that). After a while I tried to contact her again, but she and our messages were totally gone from my discord for some reason and from that point on I didn't really have any way of contacting her.
I just really want to know what happened to her and if anyone here knows something or knows if she said anything about what she was going to do..
Rocksandsand
Specialist
- May 26, 2019
- 396
Ha anyone heard anything about @zajebistakaczka? She self banned but then came back but has been awfully quiet 
woxihuanni
Illuminated
- Aug 19, 2019
- 3,299
Ha anyone heard anything about @zajebistakaczka? She self banned but then came back but has been awfully quiet
Not a single peep. Maybe she withdrew because of the comments on the goodbye thread, I don't know.
Okay, I promise this will be my last post now and I apologize for spamming, but can you tell me if she just left without saying anything? Like, was she just gone one day?
Made4TV
A hopeless hope junkie
- Sep 17, 2018
- 574
@iHeartRockArt
Some time ago there was an IHeartRockArt. I can't even tag her anymore. Either that, or I hallucinated her. What happened?
Some time ago there was an IHeartRockArt. I can't even tag her anymore. Either that, or I hallucinated her. What happened?
Nah, I remember her as well. I don't know if she was going to ctb, but I definitely do recall her saying that she wanted to take a break from moderation. Perhaps she is taking a break from the site as whole as well.
Dawn0071111
Hungry Ghost
- Dec 9, 2018
- 570
This nifty little fellow, from what I heard, turned out to be an animal abuser. There was quite a bit of anger when he was discovered.
I don't know who made the original discovery. AFAIK, he's banned for being a terrible human being.
stellabelle
ethereal
- Dec 14, 2018
- 3,919
She left the site. I talked to her a couple of months ago but it's been a while since. (This was well after she left.) I think she is alive and doing her best to get on day by day. She's really a wonderful person. I know she said she hadn't been back to check the site or lurk so I think she's doing other things, which I hope makes her happy.
HelensNepenthe
Thoughtful poster
- Jan 17, 2019
- 835
Checking in.
Father threatened to beat the fuck out of me last week.
Father threatened to beat the fuck out of me last week.
DepressionsAHo
Heaven gained a new ho
- Feb 15, 2019
- 831
I don't think newer members would remember him but if my memory serves me correct, he was a mod. Does anyone know what happened to @DF90 ?Mod or administrator. Something like that
since the goodbye thread from Suicidal4Ever is closed, I'll take the opportunity here to wish him peace.
Does anyone keep in contact with @Dead beat dad Always enjoyed reading his posts in the months before I signed up. Seemed like such a nice guy.
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Midnight
Beyond solace
- Jun 30, 2018
- 624
@Joannf what a stupid way i lost contact with you. I wonder often if you're still alive and if yes how you are doing. I know you'll probably never read this but i miss our conversations. Farewell joannf.
MichiyoCornell
Member
- Sep 8, 2019
- 34
Does anyone know what happened to BlackJack? Any confirmation?
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 6,687
It has been a long time, but I still miss @TiredHorse and his company. He's a really cool guy and also contributed to the forums quite a bit, especially things with EB and N2 methods. I am assuming he either went away from this forum and is alive and well, or if he did CTB, I hope he found peace.
Darkhaven
All i have left is memories
- May 19, 2019
- 979
There was a memorial/tribute thread made by another user who knew her.
She took N so i'd say she did indeed peacefully passed away.
Also the user who did the goodbye thread seemed sure that she was no longer among us.
She is going to be missed, but on the other hand, she may be in peace now and that's wonderfull.
Im2high4this
I’m done here. Zero connections. Won’t miss it.
- Jun 13, 2019
- 126
Anybody ever stay in contact with @Desperate_Soul After she self banned? I miss her
TheBlackSwordsman
Student
- Apr 24, 2019
- 115
I am relatively new here, I just came across the pill handbook thread and I noticed one post that said 3 members he knew were successful with sn and one of them was named eden. Not sure if it's appropriate to post this here, but earlier in this thread is a link to her obituary. There are many comments from loved ones, even recent ones. Reading them is bringing tears to my eyes the way they describe her, I wish I had gotten a chance to communicate with her. I hope she knew how loved she was or at least it seems that way(oftentimes u never truly know.) I know it was her decision to make, I hope she found what she was looking for. I truly wish we could all find a way to stay alive that we could tolerate, but I know for some of us, that just isn't a reality.
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