ScaredCutter
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- Oct 16, 2025
- 17
im so useless, growing up i didnt do many things for myself because of how i was raised, i technically had it easier than most because my parents (mostly my mum) would do most things for her children but, when growing up those habits still stayed with me. I can dress myself, brush my teeth, wash myself and such basic things but i lack so much motivation and rely on her to do things like washing my hair, brushing my hair, turning on a shower, making my food/drink, my dad taking me to school, relying on my mum in situations where i need to speak (doctors).
I'm honestly so hopeless and useless, i try to look at the brighter side because atleast im not like my 15yo brother who still acts like a toddler and can hardly do anything for himself (hes purposely like this and refuses to do anything). but, im always wishing i could do more for myself, i lack so much motivation and energy, even if i take classes on food education, having a dietitian with my eating habit and behaviour, something to help with my social anxiety, going out freely and whatever else. i complain about how i cant do much for myself and i just feel miserable because of it, im probably overracting. i cant tell what my situation is like for me because growing up, my dad mostly told me that "you have this and that", "you get this even when x, y, z..." and "i have ptsd so... [downplaying how i feel]". i only say im lazy because i have no other way of viewing it, i told my mum about it before but, all i can do is cry, im only seen as lazy and unwilling to try anything.
i cant admit to how many times i shower per week or how many times i brush my teeth because its just so embarrasing, i get put down by it from my parents anyways. i get told how easy it is to do the things i cant do because of i lack so much motivation and energy. i get told i dont even try or that im just not willing to give anything a go. i've tried cooking before from a class in year 8 (a lot of lessons and hands on work), ive tried brushinhg my hair and washing it but i always failed, i dont understand what quantity to use for shampoo and conditioner. i just stay in my bedroom often, i go to school when i have to and i just play on my computer or phone. i have no irl friends.
i dont know why id keep going when im just losing the ability to do anything. i wanna learn the drums, get a certif in animal studies, work with cats, meet up with my boyfriend and become somewhat financially stable. but i cant even reach those goals, whats the point on moving forward when u cant even make an ounce of progress???
its such a joke, im 18 and im expected to atleast do everything myself and wouldnt need to rely on my parents unless i really had to. i turn 19 in december. idk what itd be like once im 20
I'm honestly so hopeless and useless, i try to look at the brighter side because atleast im not like my 15yo brother who still acts like a toddler and can hardly do anything for himself (hes purposely like this and refuses to do anything). but, im always wishing i could do more for myself, i lack so much motivation and energy, even if i take classes on food education, having a dietitian with my eating habit and behaviour, something to help with my social anxiety, going out freely and whatever else. i complain about how i cant do much for myself and i just feel miserable because of it, im probably overracting. i cant tell what my situation is like for me because growing up, my dad mostly told me that "you have this and that", "you get this even when x, y, z..." and "i have ptsd so... [downplaying how i feel]". i only say im lazy because i have no other way of viewing it, i told my mum about it before but, all i can do is cry, im only seen as lazy and unwilling to try anything.
i cant admit to how many times i shower per week or how many times i brush my teeth because its just so embarrasing, i get put down by it from my parents anyways. i get told how easy it is to do the things i cant do because of i lack so much motivation and energy. i get told i dont even try or that im just not willing to give anything a go. i've tried cooking before from a class in year 8 (a lot of lessons and hands on work), ive tried brushinhg my hair and washing it but i always failed, i dont understand what quantity to use for shampoo and conditioner. i just stay in my bedroom often, i go to school when i have to and i just play on my computer or phone. i have no irl friends.
i dont know why id keep going when im just losing the ability to do anything. i wanna learn the drums, get a certif in animal studies, work with cats, meet up with my boyfriend and become somewhat financially stable. but i cant even reach those goals, whats the point on moving forward when u cant even make an ounce of progress???
its such a joke, im 18 and im expected to atleast do everything myself and wouldnt need to rely on my parents unless i really had to. i turn 19 in december. idk what itd be like once im 20
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