Wayfaerer
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- Aug 21, 2019
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So to those who know me, I had always intended to close my account) before I made my exit but I may not get the opportunity. I'm back but not for long as new developments have occurred in my life. Due to unrelated reasons, I was goaded into the psych ward a couple of weeks back for the first time. Seeing how it was involuntary, I have permanently lost access to a dear hobby of mine for a long time. The experience leading up to and being in have been the most dehumanizing experience of my life and it was jaw-dropping the methods they had used to get me, like something straight out of a movie like the truman show. The diabolical Stasi-esque tricks and gaslighting, it was just pure evil but surely "good intentioned" in their minds. It was so extreme that I can't even tell which of my memories were in reality or fantasy. This was the final straw I needed and now I am intent to follow through with the plan I had made years ago now: SN at midnight when things get too bad. Well, things have finally passed the proverbial point of no return and I have little if anything left to look forward to in the future. I want out of this living nightmare.
I am in such a rush now that I am not even typing this on my computer (which is down) but on my parent's using a proxy installed on a USB drive. I have my face buried into the monitor because I lost (or maybe "lost") my glasses at the facility so pardon any mistakes I make in typing all of this. Anyway, what I need is some advice. Fortunately despite scouring my room they had missed the poison which I had intended to take. I bought SN a year in advance but could not bring my depressed and weary self into scoring the anti-emetic which is much harder to get here in the States than SN. Seeing how I no longer have the time or money or privacy as my parents undoubtedly distrust me after they had discovered that I was not really in school or looking for a job, I'm going to have to make-do with what I have. The question I pose is how likely is it that I can CTB with just the SN and no AE? I know it's good to have and I know it's recommended but I just can't get it. For awhile now I've also been having trouble with finding a free copy of the PPHe which has been extremely frustrating. If I can get some helpful tips from users I would be very grateful.
On another note, I also don't want to close my account prematurely so if I'm gone for too long now, assume I'm gone for good.
PLEASE HELP
I am in such a rush now that I am not even typing this on my computer (which is down) but on my parent's using a proxy installed on a USB drive. I have my face buried into the monitor because I lost (or maybe "lost") my glasses at the facility so pardon any mistakes I make in typing all of this. Anyway, what I need is some advice. Fortunately despite scouring my room they had missed the poison which I had intended to take. I bought SN a year in advance but could not bring my depressed and weary self into scoring the anti-emetic which is much harder to get here in the States than SN. Seeing how I no longer have the time or money or privacy as my parents undoubtedly distrust me after they had discovered that I was not really in school or looking for a job, I'm going to have to make-do with what I have. The question I pose is how likely is it that I can CTB with just the SN and no AE? I know it's good to have and I know it's recommended but I just can't get it. For awhile now I've also been having trouble with finding a free copy of the PPHe which has been extremely frustrating. If I can get some helpful tips from users I would be very grateful.
On another note, I also don't want to close my account prematurely so if I'm gone for too long now, assume I'm gone for good.
PLEASE HELP
