"They figure me a dead mafucka but I'm just a mafucka that wanna be dead"
11 days left.
So I'm here again.
It's early in the morning.
Looked at the package tracker.
Meto should finally will be here today.
Everything is starting to disappear.
It's finally starting to hit me that my days are numbered.
I marked of another thing on my last to do list.
Recorded my last song with someone I cared for.
I don't know what to do in this moment.
I feel light, surprisingly.
Yet, I know I ain't dealt with shit.
This can easily change at any moment.
I was an internal mental wreck yesterday.
And after I made the song I felt heavy.
Like I knew internally that things where finally coming to a close.
Update:
Last post I talked about a mistake.
In a moment of vulnerability I blurred some lines I shouldn't have.
I know that if anyone finds out what I have done it will destroy my family.
11 days left.
So I'm here again.
It's early in the morning.
Looked at the package tracker.
Meto should finally will be here today.
Everything is starting to disappear.
It's finally starting to hit me that my days are numbered.
I marked of another thing on my last to do list.
Recorded my last song with someone I cared for.
I don't know what to do in this moment.
I feel light, surprisingly.
Yet, I know I ain't dealt with shit.
This can easily change at any moment.
I was an internal mental wreck yesterday.
And after I made the song I felt heavy.
Like I knew internally that things where finally coming to a close.
Update:
Last post I talked about a mistake.
In a moment of vulnerability I blurred some lines I shouldn't have.
I know that if anyone finds out what I have done it will destroy my family.
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