University was such a disappointment

[sonnyw]

I've always loathed school. Between having no friends and being bullied, I thought about CTBing every day. I held onto the hope that university would be the "reset" everyone promised, that those would've been the best years of my life. I even heard it from people who, like me, hated high school but managed to turn everything around in college.

It was all a lie. I hate it even more here. Not only am I still a loner, but I feel like a failure every day because I'm struggling academically while everyone else seems to breeze through. It's going to take me much longer to graduate, if I even make it that far.

I eventually stopped attending lectures. The commute was draining, the professors were awful at teaching (I learn better on my own anyway), and it was soul crushing to watch everyone else socializing and talking about parties while I sat there in total silence.
I tried to be social, but it never stuck. People will talk to you one day and then look right through you the next.

As for the professors, they are some of the most arrogant people I've ever met; they seem to take a twisted pride in failing students just to stroke their own egos.

I actually enjoy the subject matter, but the environment is toxic. My expectations have been completely destroyed.

 

[Pluto]

 

[lpdsvm]

I am not sure. Try using AI. Use it and ask questions. It wont be tired if you say "I don't know" every response.
make sure ai self checks because it makes mistakes.