Venting Unhinged vent thread

[AbusedInnocent]

Just a random vent thread with no real topic.

I'm so lonely it actually hurts so much, if anyone has advice to cope with loneliness without actually talking to anyone please let me know.

My DMs are open but I understand everyone's too busy with their own problems to bother helping others.

Every time someone I know has a physical health problem they receive so much support from everyone but when depression makes me attempt suicide and almost die everyone thinks it's fine, like it's somehow my fault, I've even been told that I'm intentionally choosing to remain depressed.

Nobody understands that every day in my life is actual torture, either way they don't care.

I haven't felt safe in years, I just wish to find any kind of comfort, I have no safe space anymore.

I've been dissociating for hours every day I'm starting to believe my own fantasies, like they could ever come true.

I hate how this world has affected me, what it has made me become, I'm constantly at my limit, I now have zero tolerance for any minor inconveniences.

Thanks for taking the time to read.

 

[dauntra17]

This time around, I deal with the loneliness because it's going to be over soon, for me. But IDK how to deal with it ongoing, we're not meant to be alone I don't think. I'm sorry you're in so much pain. I'd be happy to talk with you

 

[cutiepatootiew/rizz]

Just a random vent thread with no real topic.

I'm so lonely it actually hurts so much, if anyone has advice to cope with loneliness without actually talking to anyone please let me know.

My DMs are open but I understand everyone's too busy with their own problems to bother helping others.

Every time someone I know has a physical health problem they receive so much support from everyone but when depression makes me attempt suicide and almost die everyone thinks it's fine, like it's somehow my fault, I've even been told that I'm intentionally choosing to remain depressed.

Nobody understands that every day in my life is actual torture, either way they don't care.

I haven't felt safe in years, I just wish to find any kind of comfort, I have no safe space anymore.

I've been dissociating for hours every day I'm starting to believe my own fantasies, like they could ever come true.

I hate how this world has affected me, what it has made me become, I'm constantly at my limit, I now have zero tolerance for any minor inconveniences.

Thanks for taking the time to read.

in febuary of 2024 I hung myself after a breakup, as a result I traumatized two boys, one of them being my ex and he will never talk to me again. He even went so far as to block me on social media after the incident. I recently turned 18 (August 13th) and have decided to come to this page to as a last resort.

 

[AbusedInnocent]

in febuary of 2024 I hung myself after a breakup, as a result I traumatized two boys, one of them being my ex and he will never talk to me again. He even went so far as to block me on social media after the incident. I recently turned 18 (August 13th) and have decided to come to this page to as a last resort.

I'm sorry about how your ex reacted, welcome to the forum and feel free to create your own threads, nobody will judge you.

 

[cutiepatootiew/rizz]

I'm sorry about how your ex reacted, welcome to the forum and feel free to create your own threads, nobody will judge you.

the note I wrote him.

 

[AbusedInnocent]

the note I wrote him.

I'm sorry he didn't understand your pain, I don't think OCR will be able to decode the image so I can't really translate it.

Have a look around the forum, there's plenty of cool threads around.