Ever since i was 12, i have been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts, ive been on anti depressants till 14. I was turning 15 in 2017 and started abusing drugs, like Acid, weed, and mushrooms,i became so addicted and messed up and still Am, hah... I even started selling myself to my drug dealer for Acid, I was below an ant at that point. I still do the same, I've been raped while on drugs, everything you can think of, i regret finding them, by them i mean my friend. My friend was not addicted but they did acid every week, they introduced me to their dealer and we became great friends, best friends even, we talked so much, every day, every night, I lost contact with the friend that introduced me to the dealer and I don't know what happened to them. I'm now, as i told you, an addict, I am sorry if I already said some of the stuff that i wrote, I have short term memory loss. And as to this day, I am still a stupid idiot that gets fucked for drugs by my dealer.
I just want this to stop, I'm sorry if this is not the right place but I have nowhere else to vent, the helplines are out of the question because I and my dealer would be arrested, and I don't want him to get arrested, i just want to stop taking drugs and live a normal life, I'm tired of this.
I just don't know where else to post this since it gets me in trouble talking about explicit words. I'm truly sorry if i triggered someone, or pissed them off, I just wanted to vent somewhere, Thank you. I sound idiotic.
I just want this to stop, I'm sorry if this is not the right place but I have nowhere else to vent, the helplines are out of the question because I and my dealer would be arrested, and I don't want him to get arrested, i just want to stop taking drugs and live a normal life, I'm tired of this.
I just don't know where else to post this since it gets me in trouble talking about explicit words. I'm truly sorry if i triggered someone, or pissed them off, I just wanted to vent somewhere, Thank you. I sound idiotic.
