Long time lurker, 1st time poster. After months of non-stop, all-day thoughts, I've finally made the decision to peace out. I am going with the EB direction and have already got the equipment, I just need to do the actually prepping part. So far my jumbled mind has these plans:
If you have any thoughts, opinions, advice, anything that I might be missing, I would appreciate it. Somehow I always forget important things so it's easier to have a second opinion!
- Break up with fiance. (I live with him and don't work so I am home all day. If I just disappear he will know something is up and I don't want him to find my body. Plus, the day of I will come back and pack up all my stuff & leave notes so it's a bit easier on him.)
- Write suicide notes and leave them at home.
- Check into a hotel for a couple days. (this way, my last few days will be peaceful and silent.)
- Set up a new bank account and transfer my savings into it. (I will leave the information with my fiance, I have a couple thousand I want to leave to pay for the funeral. It's just him and my Grandma left to deal with my mess.)
- Maybe take a pretty headshot for my funeral (Staying pretty even after I go!).
- Leave a note on me/ in my hotel room telling them who to call when they find my body, along with where my notes are hidden. (I am going to have them call my Father In Law, he's the only one who could handle that news, plus he's a cop.)
- Hopefully join my mom and finally find peace.
If you have any thoughts, opinions, advice, anything that I might be missing, I would appreciate it. Somehow I always forget important things so it's easier to have a second opinion!
