Try to make a break from SS

[Regen]

Hello,

I'm not so much active here, because I struggle with English and do longer texts with the translator, so always a bit cumbersome. But I am here almost daily for about two years and feel very much at home. I often hate how people treat each other and the animals and the environment. I hate this whole show and who is the best, most beautiful, most powerful. I don't see any sense in life, you slave away to die. I don't know life without permanent depression, I don't know how it feels without depression. I have tried to end it several times.

But now I have to make a decision, I have children who need me. It is not their fault that they are in this world and that I am suffering. I have to go on for them because their lives would be irreparably damaged if I leave. A dead mother is always the worst option. I have therefore decided that I must take a break from SS otherwise I will not manage to stay in life....

It will be very hard for me. Please keep your fingers crossed that I manage to stay away for a few months. I don't know if I will make it as I feel at home here.

I am going to attend another 12 step meeting to look for some kind of substitute, people who understand what it means to suffer and who you don't have to hide from. I have done this before and it was good.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for this place! No matter what direction you go, I wish you peace, love and hope with all my heart!!!! One time I will come back, but actually I need a break for the life of my children.

 

[FuneralCry]

Living really is tiring and I get that it can be hard to carry on. However I understand you feeling like you need to stay for your children. I wish you the best.

 

[fruit-loops]

You have a reason to keep trying. I know, it's hard but you are right about how terrible will be for your children to deal with your death.

I wish you all the best and I hope this new perspective change can drive you the best outcome. A big hug for you and your family

 

[Callie Arcale]

Your children are blessed to have a mother who loves them. I wish you and your family all the best

 

[PrincessInWhite]

Hello,

I'm not so much active here, because I struggle with English and do longer texts with the translator, so always a bit cumbersome. But I am here almost daily for about two years and feel very much at home. I often hate how people treat each other and the animals and the environment. I hate this whole show and who is the best, most beautiful, most powerful. I don't see any sense in life, you slave away to die. I don't know life without permanent depression, I don't know how it feels without depression. I have tried to end it several times.

But now I have to make a decision, I have children who need me. It is not their fault that they are in this world and that I am suffering. I have to go on for them because their lives would be irreparably damaged if I leave. A dead mother is always the worst option. I have therefore decided that I must take a break from SS otherwise I will not manage to stay in life....

It will be very hard for me. Please keep your fingers crossed that I manage to stay away for a few months. I don't know if I will make it as I feel at home here.

I am going to attend another 12 step meeting to look for some kind of substitute, people who understand what it means to suffer and who you don't have to hide from. I have done this before and it was good.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for this place! No matter what direction you go, I wish you peace, love and hope with all my heart!!!! One time I will come back, but actually I need a break for the life of my children.

I am SO proud of you. If I had children I know I couldn't be around here too much either. Your kids are lucky to have someone who is willing to fight so hard to be here with them.

 

[Broken Chimera]

A lot of people take breaks from here. I hope you can pull through for you and your children. Much love to you.

 

[Regen]

I am really deeply touched by your so loving answers! I would not have expected this at all. I appreciate it very much. The support from you really helps me to try. Because it's hard to push back the longing for the darkness enough to be there for my children.

When I leave here I will carry your answers in my heart and they will remind me to keep going. Thank you so much! Much love to each and every one of you.

 

[Pluto]

You are doing the right thing. To have children to love, and to be loved, is perhaps the ultimate reason to push on. I wish you every blessing.