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cookies

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Jul 2, 2023
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If you haven't seen my preparations post, please view it. I haven't deviated much from my plan, so I'll update based off of that.

I lit my starter at 4:06. I used approximately 3.5 pounds. I calculated needing two pounds, but am taking the extra.

I used these coals
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I let them burn in the chimney starter for 2 hours. I forgot to take a pic.

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I put large gravel in the bottom of the bucket. Maybe a quarter way up. Poured the chimney starter into the bucket. I also picked up the brick it was on and poured the ashes into the bucket at well.

6:06 dumped started in bucket and put in tent.

6:13 CO meter read 450ppm
6:16 CO meter read 750ppm
6:21 CO meter maxed out at 1000

I will check the CO every 30 minutes while my final batch is burning.

My thoughts are that if my meter only goes to 1000, I need to assume that's the highest it'll be in the tent. According to the chart, I will need about 2 hours of exposure to CO levels at 1000ppm. I will check the levels throughout the next two hours. As long as my meter stays maxed, I should be successful.

I will continue to update.
 
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CuerpoMuerto

CuerpoMuerto

BRB, Looking up LD50 of My Meds
Aug 21, 2023
33
It is devestating the lengths we have to go through to CTB. I hope you find the peace you are looking for ā¤ļø
 
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cookies

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Jul 2, 2023
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Didn't realize it was so close to time for a 30 minute check in. At 6:44, levels are still maxed to 1000
 
ipmanwc0

ipmanwc0

Doctor Sleep
Sep 15, 2023
639
If you haven't seen my preparations post, please view it. I haven't deviated much from my plan, so I'll update based off of that.

I lit my starter at 4:06. I used approximately 3.5 pounds. I calculated needing two pounds, but am taking the extra.

I used these coals
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I let them burn in the chimney starter for 2 hours. I forgot to take a pic.

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I put large gravel in the bottom of the bucket. Maybe a quarter way up. Poured the chimney starter into the bucket. I also picked up the brick it was on and poured the ashes into the bucket at well.

6:06 dumped started in bucket and put in tent.

6:13 CO meter read 450ppm
6:16 CO meter read 750ppm
6:21 CO meter maxed out at 1000

I will check the CO every 30 minutes while my final batch is burning.

My thoughts are that if my meter only goes to 1000, I need to assume that's the highest it'll be in the tent. According to the chart, I will need about 2 hours of exposure to CO levels at 1000ppm. I will check the levels throughout the next two hours. As long as my meter stays maxed, I should be successful.

I will continue to update.
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Seems like CO production is slow at first
 
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Gonnerr

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Mar 12, 2023
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I think your meter can only read 1000ppm like mine but ppm will go higher , how high ? Hard to say.

Meter than can read up to 10 000ppm which is the best are expensive 500$ but i will consider buying it when i will do it since credit card dont go after corpse lolll

Anyway, good luck, i hope you escape peacefully.
 
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ClownWorld2023

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Sep 18, 2023
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My thoughts are that if my meter only goes to 1000, I need to assume that's the highest it'll be in the tent. According to the chart, I will need about 2 hours of exposure to CO levels at 1000ppm. I will check the levels throughout the next two hours. As long as my meter stays maxed, I should be successful.

I will continue to update.

I recall the PPH recommended 10,000 PPM for rapid onset of unconsciousness.

Lower levels can cause serious suffering.
 
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cookies

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Jul 2, 2023
58
I recall the PPH recommended 10,000 PPM for onset of rapid unconsciousness.

Lower levels can cause serious suffering.
I'm aware, but I couldn't get a meter that goes high enough. I ordered a 4k one, but it hasn't come in. 1000ppm meter is all I have.
7:20, level still maxed at 1000
 
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ClownWorld2023

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Sep 18, 2023
492
I'm aware, but I couldn't get a meter that goes high enough. I ordered a 4k one, but it hasn't come in. 1000ppm meter is all I have.
7:20, level still maxed at 1000

Can take around an hour according to the PPH, but it depends on the space/enclosure.
 
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Xaeniak

Xaeniak

Bootlegged doll
Sep 14, 2023
27
Good luck to you! I hope you can find some peace. And thanks for the updates; this is a new method to me, so it's nice of you to give play-by-play
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Guilt and Regret
Feb 13, 2020
3,242
Goodbye Cookie, I'm burning a little candle to guide your soul to love and peace.
 
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cookies

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Jul 2, 2023
58
You are all so kind. About 30 minutes until I get in the tent.
 
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Xaeniak

Xaeniak

Bootlegged doll
Sep 14, 2023
27
Any thoughts you'd like to share while you wait? What's going through your mind?
 
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cookies

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Jul 2, 2023
58
I feel like absolute shit for leaving my kid. But I cant do the never ending pain anymore. 20 years is long enough. I tried as hard as I could for as long as I could.
7:50, meter still maxed out. Levels rose very quickly.
7:50, meter still maxed out. Levels rose very quickly.
7:50, meter still maxed out. Levels rose very quickly.
 
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ludoZici

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Dec 12, 2021
4
Peace out and painless journey.
 
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Old Friend

Old Friend

Sleep well, Airstrip One.
Sep 24, 2023
477
I hope it works out for you. I'll raise a glass.
 
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cookies

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Jul 2, 2023
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My coals are ready. I lit them at 6:06. It is now 8:12
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Meter is still maxed.

Its time.
 
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Xaeniak

Bootlegged doll
Sep 14, 2023
27
All the best to you, friend
 
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ewlife

ewlife

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Oct 4, 2023
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Peaceful journey šŸ«‚
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
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Best wishes for sweet sleep and blessed rest.
 
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shootppl_udontlike

New Member
Oct 8, 2023
1
peaceful travels
 
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ClownWorld2023

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Sep 18, 2023
492
Good luck.
 
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TiredBitch

She/Her
Oct 5, 2023
8
See you on the other side my friend
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
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Godspeed.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I wish you the best of luck with your plans, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.
 
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MatthieuFrederickW

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Feb 6, 2023
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Not sure if you're still around or not, but I hope you are/were successful.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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I hope you had a peaceful journey. R.I.P.
 
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AgentOrange

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Hope it was easy. RIP
 
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playd3ad.

playd3ad.

embed it feels, like eternal ache.
Oct 7, 2023
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rest in peace, friend. hope you find peace.
 
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Myforevercharlie

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Feb 13, 2020
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I just had confirmation, Cookies has passed over.
 
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