Venting Trauma and tension

[d3ad]

I remember my ex boyfriend telling me that I am too tense/stiff physically, and that was one of my biggest insecurities. Years later, I now know that the tension I have in my body is caused by trauma. I am always reserved, passive and tense, and that is because the trauma really paralyzed me. It sucks, but at least now I know the cause. I don't even know why I wrote this here, I am just venting I guess.